How?

When you have so many emotions, so much passion... so much anger, and anxiety, and joy all swirling together inside... and you just want to burst. You want to scream at the top of your lungs, dance barefoot in the rain on a rooftop, and submerge yourself underwater all at the same time... when you want to reach for the stars, and sleep for days... when you want to fight and fuck and feel anythingggg.... but you already feel everything... how is it possible to feel all of this?

A High I Once Knew

I can't help but wonder what raced through your mind, as you spent your night dreaming.
I want to know all of the good, and the bad.
Let me in,
Even if only through your windows.
You let me glance in,
Teasing me with tastes of your reality.
You ignite something in my soul,
 It's electric.
Leaves me longing for more...
This feeling is familiar yet distant,
Like chasing a high I once knew.

Electric

Let me know you,

More than you lead on. 

Let me explore you, past the depths of the earth,

To the edges of each sunset.

Let's drown in the warmth and bliss that overcome us.

Find me hanging on the edge of each word you whisper.

There is something that ignites this passion, this excitement.  

You tell me I'm "electric" 

Maybe that's my downfall? 

Or maybe that's what excites you. 

Think of me when it storms, 

And you see my energy strike beyond the clouds. 

Then feel my rain, wash over you,

In the most intimate of ways. 

Leap

Where will this crazy life take me?
Surely there is so much more ahead.
I feel it,
As if I'm standing on the edge of a cliff.
Butterflies from the fear of falling, but the excitement of jumping.
It is all about taking the leap.

On the Rocks

I'll take you on the rocks,
With a side of lime.
Sea salt in your hair,
No concept of time.

That Dream

I am the dream,

you wish to stay in.
That dream you want to fall back into.

Clumsy LA Nights

Do you remember,
When I tripped,
As you swung me around for a kiss?

And the gate swung shut,
Locking you out.

And we laughed,
As we kissed,
And our teeth touched,
Because of our ridiculously clumsy encounter?

Game

This game we play,
It's fascinating.
A tango of sorts,
A friend described it beautifully:
So much desire,
So little communication.
Who holds the cards now?

Heat

Heat in my chest.
On my skin.
Frustration.
Confusion.
But reminders of who I am continue to surface.

Lost Breath

My heart is broken.
I'm trying to pry...
Trying to tear it open...
Just to see if there is still life left inside.

Moments of happiness mistaken for memories? Hopes? Wishes?


Or... maybe I'm just too wrapped up in these wine soaked woes.

I wait...
Tongue dancing behind my teeth as if maybe they could make a sound.
Or hoping that maybe yours dances faster than mine.

Fear of misreading the signs that this lifetime holds.

Expanding lungs.
Sometimes I forget to breathe.