Trying.

My heart aches,

Because some of the people I love,

Friends, family-

Fail to have the empathy,

That the world so desperately needs.

Is their blind eye,

Due to a lack of strength,

A lack of self-respect,

Or

Deep seeded hate for others?

Because we are past the point of ignorance, 

Quickly slipping into compliance,

And there is no turning back.

What is happening now, will forever shape our future as a nation, as a world, as a human race.

We will either burn this reality to the ground, 

Or save what humanity we have left with our dying breaths.

There is no "business as usual;"

There is no "just wait it out,"

You are either on the right side of history, 

Or the wrong side,

And as history repeats itself, complicity is on the wrong side.

You may think your silence is safety,

But when they come for you, 

Just know this: 

This is what you asked for. 

When it is your mother, sister, brother, father, son, daughter or friend- this is what you stood by.

You stood by a nation that fed you lies,

To further indebt you to your servitude. 

"Be good, little girl, shut up... just take it."

If you operate in fear,

You will be overcome by paralysis, 

Just as they want you to. 

It is time to tune in,

Not tune out.

Tune into your gut,

Your conscience,

Your heart-

Think freely-

With love, grit, and your inner fire.

The truth lies within,

Not without.

And,

I hope you rise.

I hope you find your strength.

I hope you find it in time,

To save what humanity we have left.

Because, so many of us are trying.

Simple Gaze

 I gaze in your eyes,

And I see endless seas of love-

I get caught up in the vast beauty, safety, and greatness that your soul radiates, abundantly.

You are the vision of my future,

Holding the key to a lifetime of happiness, peace and adventure-

In your embrace, 

I recognize you as my home-

My anchor,

My armor, 

My rock.

I fall more and more in love with you, each passing moment

End of the World

It was the end of the world,

Civilizations collapsing,

People killing their neighbors-

Nobody civil, only barbarism. 

A "fix" in the form of an injection-

Peaceful passing with a helping hand.

Simply inject,

Sleep,

Die.

So serene-

But...

It didn't sit right with me.

With You, my Dad and my Mom.

Dad was very vocal, 

Pushing and pressing for all of us to do this,

So we weren't ravaged by other humans-

You, quiet, but seemingly compliant- taking in each word he said.

My mom, smiling, peaceful, not saying a word- but a warmth radiated from her.

I sat on the ground and laid in my mother's arms,

She cradled me-

I instantly felt like a child again,

Wrapped in her warmth and love-

Unconditional love-

My dad, 

Injecting my arm- telling me you would all be right behind me.

I was told to go first-

The solution succeeded 96% of the time, with a 4% chance of failure- 

Survival.

I fell asleep in my mom's arms,

Reluctantly awaiting death-

The deepest sleep,

To then gasp-

For air.

Rushing back into my body,

Like a wave to the shore.

Crashing.

It failed, 

I was awake-

My mom stroking my hair,

And my dad in shock trying to convince me to do it again. 

I looked at You-

My heart broke...

How was I supposed to leave and know where to find you on the other side?

What if I never saw you again? 

What if I never found you again? 

I would search for all eternity looking for you...

"I don't want to die!!!" I scream,

Exclaiming that this can't be the only way 

I become hysterical, 

Hyperventilating,

Choking on my tears-

I run into your arms,

Cling to you,

Tell you I love you,

That we have to find another way- a way that we can stay together, 

A way we will never be separated-

I wake,

In tears.

I could never part from you,

Not even in death-

And,

Was my mom physically there, or was I the only one that could see her? 

Why was my dad so adamant? In my gut I felt like I was the only one who was dying-

What a wild dream.