I Swear

 I swear 

I fall more and more,

For you,

Each

And 

Every

Day

I lay here examining my love, and the pace at which is grows and flourishes with you.

I can feel you in my core,

Part of my being.

You say you want to make love,

To my soul-

The most magical words.

And by this time tomorrow,

We will be,

My love.

Drenched

Breathing freely again,

Serenity overcomes me-

The universe is finally re-balanced.

There is a magic in your voice,

Alive and thriving- 

Your happiness starts to flourish again,

And I can't help but be overjoyed,

For you.

It is mind bending how you can mean so much to me,

Like sunshine to a budding rose.

My roots run deep, but you fuel my soul.

Let me soak up all that you emanate. 

I will overflow and fill your cup when it feels low,

I will give you my strength, when the weight of the world feels like too much to bear on your own

I will place my hand on your chest, to ground you when the world feels like it's spiraling out of control-

I can be your anchor- your rock.

Life ebs and flows,

Let me be your constant.

I smile at the thought that with each passing moment, I am closer to being in your arms-

I want to get lost in your embrace,

I want to send shockwaves through your body with my kiss and my touch-

Let's drown in our euphoria.

Remember,

This bliss, is ours to savor,

To cherish,

To devour,

To bask in.

Let's get drenched in it.

The Woman That Raised You

 Your mother,

Has become so special to me.

I am so grateful for the relationship her and I have built, and the bond that we share.

She has created the most warm and welcoming space for my soul to rest and feel safe.

She always lends an ear when needed,

Offers the best mom hugs with perfect timing,

She is truly an angel. 

We've gotten to the point where we talk every day,

Sharing bits about our day,

And things that make us laugh-

Your mom has made me want to open up to a mother figure again, 

I want to learn things from her,

I love that she shares her life stories with me,

And offers advice from a mother's perspective. 

I remember the first time she told me she loved me,

I was speechless,

And you could see it on my face - 

I couldn't believe it, 

But she said it again, "No, I really do love you"

And choking back tears, I said it back. 

We now say it with ease.

I'm so grateful that you share your momma with me.

I've talked to her about my mom, 

My God, I see similarities between them- 

My mom would have loved her,

So fucking much.

I think they would've become great friends, 

How I wish my mom could have met the woman that raised the woman I've grown to love. 

With tears in my eyes,

I bask in gratitude-

Thank you for allowing me to grow close to your family in the ways that I have,

It has healed bits of my soul.

You have so lovingly held me, 

In the moments my adoration for your momma, makes me miss mine-

I love how close you are with her-

Cherish that for all eternity.

11:59pm Oath

 Your beautiful laugh rings through the airwaves as the minutes and hours pass-

Before we know it, it is nearly midnight and we both have to get up at a reasonable hour.

We laugh at how quickly the time passed while we talked about everything from family to wishing we were tangled in bed with one another-

Pulling the other as close as humanly possible.

I can't help but be captivated by you.

All of you-

I know that you are on the precipice of a massive shift- a seismic change

And like I've promised,

I'll be there, by your side, for every single moment of it. 

Ride or Die- 

Like we said,

All of this is simply making us unbreakable,

Babe- this is how our story becomes set in stone. 

An oath until the end of time- and this is just the beginning.

90s Dreaming

 As the rain clears,

I hear baby doves chirping- 

I smell the petrichor as it floods my memories with childhood snapshots.

The remnants of a storm or Spring morning dew on my ankles as I walk barefoot in my grandmother's backyard-

Bits of mud sticking to my toes-

So carelessly happy as I walk toward the honeysuckles that beg to meet my lips.

A sweet taste,

Forever ingrained, accompanied by bleeding hearts and the songs of robins. 

Humming melodies and tiptoeing to my grandfather's garden, 

Where I take first fulls of cherry tomatoes and snack until my heart's content.

My little slice of paradise,

My home away from home.

That house had a huge hand in raising me- from it's chilly cellar, to its hand built wooden swingset, to the flowers my grandmother and I so tediously tended to.

Fresh lemonade on hot summer days,

Playing in the sprinkler in the front lawn,

Finding baby birds kicked from their nest,

Baking cookies from scratch, 

And stealing from grandpa's candy stash- 

I'd give anything to fall asleep on a cool spring evening, with the windows open, and a slow breeze tickling my face- as I lay on the living room floor, covered with a handmade quilt, falling asleep to 90s gameshows.

Connection

 You tell me that you've "never had this connection with anybody before"

You tell me "this is different" , "this is special"

You tell me that our sexual connection is "unlike anything" you've "ever experienced"

I can see it in your eyes, in your smile, and feel it in your touch.

Words cascade from your delicious lips, to my ears, traveling down my spine as they encompass my aura.

The electricity, the magnetism, the passion, the magic, the love- bubbling over in ways that is is hard for our human minds to comprehend. 

But my love,

Our souls are on fire-

They've been here before,

And we know it.

They have found each other lifetime after lifetime- 

And here we are again,

Doing this beautiful dance, 

Writing our own songs- 

Adding each second we cherish to our souls' memories.

We are reminded with each embrace,

Each kiss,

Each gentle touch,

Each whisper-

That we were meant to find one another.

A warmth, a safety, a sense of returning home-

My love,

You've taken my hand,

And I, yours-

So that we may explore all that this world has to offer us- 

We step slowly into oneness-

Enjoying every season along the way.

Falling

 And in the most beautiful, intimate moment- we finally acknowledged that we have been falling in love with one another.

Oh, how I love the way your eyes shined