Mornings Like This

 Mornings like this,

I wish I was waking next to your beautiful face-

Rolling over and kissing you gently on the forehead while you still rest your eyes-

Tracing my fingers along your back and your thighs.

Mornings like this 

I wish I could feel your body against mine- bare, and begging for me-

Always the perfect way to start our day,

That closeness is unmatched,

As we reach climax together.

Mornings like this I wish I could bring you coffee in bed,

Analyze our dreams from the night prior as we sip the bitter heat, and hold one another's hand-

I love our slow morning talks and routines.

Mornings like this I wish you were sitting at my kitchen table,

As I make you breakfast with love, 

Your adoring eyes looking at my ass, as I stand at the stove-

You can't help yourself but stand up and walk my way for a handful, while kissing on my neck and playfully teasing me.

Mornings like this, I wish you'd be walking beside me as I take my pup for a walk- 

The cool spring breeze excites us for the summer to come, 

We soak up the sunshine and one another, in a blissful moment shared.

But for now,

Mornings like this mean me savoring each memory we've created, hearing your voice on the other end of the line as you sneak away to say "good morning"

Mornings like this mean, words spilling onto pages as I sip my coffee wishing I was tasting you instead-

Counting down the hours until we are together again- 

On mornings like this,

I remind myself that the greater picture is so fucking beautiful, 

And so worth the wait-

All of this is temporary and "in time," as we always say, we will be exactly where we are supposed to be,

Babe, I know the thought of it excites you, the way it excites me 

Mornings like this, 

Let's hold them close-

They're building blocks on our journey-

A foundation being laid, 

And someday, 

We will look back and say,

"Remember those mornings? Look how far we've made it."

Fervor

 It's early,

I sit here and hold onto the stillness and steadiness of your breath,

After another night spent sleeping on the phone with one another. 

My coffee is hot and perfectly bitter,

A cool spring breeze dances through my home. 

Bakhoor burns while my mind swirls with the poetry that is, you.

You are the embodiment of what love should feel like.

Gentle, calm, sensitive,  understanding,  warm, protective, playful, passionate, ambitious, adventurous, open minded, safe, nurturing, kind, and patient. 

I explore the depths of my mind, untangling all of the emotions that buzz around my soul-

They're so beautiful, and intricate -

I feel encouraged to explore and express them- you create that space for me.

I see beyond the now with you,

I see the possibilities that could be if we decide to chase them unapologetically, together.

It is wild to unpack and decode, 

But life is far too short to deny ourselves what we both know we crave. 

So,

We dance-

To the sound of you humming a tune,

To the music in the grocery store and the gym,

To the sound of our heartbeats and breath.

Oh, how we dance.

And we laugh,

At the world at our feet, 

At the things that only we know and share,

At the chaos around us,

God, 

I love your laugh.

You bring me closer to my highest self,

Bringing out my favorite parts of my being,

Allowing me to step into who I truly am,

And you accept me-

And adore the intricacies I've shared with you.

You look at me as though you've found a lost treasure you weren't sure existed -

But, I'm here to tell you-

I wasn't sure that it existed either,

But it appears that we've found it together.

It's materialized and crystallized before our eyes.

Moments pass, and you have now made yourself at home in my mind and my heart,

As minutes, hours, and days pass by,

I think of you often, 

It's like you're always there. 

I'm so grateful you've decided to stay,

To explore,

To trust, 

And to open up.

You are such a work of art,

Inside and out,

I consume you with fervor and intent.

Falling more with each passing moment,

Without a care if I have a parachute attached,

Because the rush of this all,

Will be worth it.

Free falling and confident you will catch me in the end.

"Some type of way"

 You look at me,

Adoring gaze as if you're captivated-

Eyes locked with mine, 

Smile brighter than the sun...

"What?" I ask playfully

Already knowing what you're thinking,

Because I'm thinking it too. 

You play a game of tug of war,

With your words - not saying what you're thinking, as I try to pull it out of you

"When the time is right..."

You quip, 

I smirk,

Your smile gets wider

I playfully beg, acting as if I can't read what is written all over your beautiful face,

But it's there,

I see it

But you keep your lips tight,

And only say "You've got me feeling some type of way"

... "Some type of way"

As I inquire about the millions of emotions you could possibly feel, you giggle uncontrollably-

But we both know,

What "Some type of way" means

So I say back to you,

"You've got me feeling some type of way too"

Let's Do This

 All of the talks,

About this future,

We are building-

The smiles on our faces,

As we know exactly what's unfolding-

Undeniably set in stone,

The love grows,

The memories flow,

The laughter expands,

The ideas begin to materialize,

As I see it in your eyes,

In your smile...

I feel it in your touch,

And hear it in your soft whispers as I slowly wake in your arms

Beautiful woman,

Let's do this.

Brick by Brick

 Brick by brick-

Building a foundation,

Made from love, and trust-

Honesty and true concern for the other's emotions and well being.

It is beautiful,

We etch our names with iron knives,

Encompassed by a heart

We listen, 

And navigate- each task together,

The perfect pair,

A give and take-

Every brick laid with intention,

The mortar filling each crevice,

Leaving no space for the elements to claw at. 

It starts out slow,

But before we know it, we're building walls-

Not the kind that need to be torn down,

But the kind that create support for our growing journey. 

We work sunrise to sunset,

Building and sharing laughter as we do-

A masterpiece we are crafting,

With both ease and grit.

As time passes, the roof gets finished,

Supported by the walls and foundation,

It protects us from any storms we may weather together. 

When we step outside, and take a few steps back,

To examine our work,

We are in awe-

We had no idea this whole time, 

We were not only building a home,

But a castle-

One with such grandeur we can barely believe our eyes

We created this,

Through blood, sweat and tears-

Endless nights melding into one,

The synchronicities as our guide-

They mapped out every placement,

Every corner,

Every window,

Every wall

And we are left with something so magnificent, we can barely believe our eyes.

So with gratitude, we whisper to the universe, that we will care for it and fill it with such joy, that the walls will sing for centuries after us. 

Revel

 Another night,

Talking for hours,

About how we would raise our kids...

Seeing eye to eye,

Paired with compromise-

What a beautiful discussion.

A dream slowly unfolding- 

I giggle as a smile graces my lips.

We are wild, and I love it.

Only Goddess knows where this journey will take us,

And there is absolutely no rush-

We've fallen into this beautiful rhythm that works for us-

An eb and flow,

Complimented with passion and desire. 

I hear it in your voice,

You are slowly beginning to relax,

To exhale-

It is such a beautiful thing to observe. 

I'm sorry that all of the women before me left you with scars and bruises,

I promise to tend to them with love and care.

I'll be gentle as I examine each one, and kiss away the pain-

I'll be patient as the hurt and confusion fade-

I'll show you what love and freedom mean, and how the balance will make you thrive! 

I want to watch you blossom into your fullest potential,

Like a sunflower opens towards the sun,

I hope you'll continue to open up to me.

The sparkle in your eyes, as you look into mine, sets fire to my entire being.

I will crave this feeling for an eternity, 

So please, stay. 

Make yourself at home in my arms. 

I truly believe we've attracted one another, 

Manifested what we have,

Here and now. 

Gratitude isn't a strong enough word for the experience of exploring and building something with you. 

If you could bottle up bliss, 

Taste it,

Smell it,

Hear it,

Feel it,

Embody it-

Take it, then add copious amount of sunshine-

Topped with the warmth of a blazing fire, 

And the peace of a still Spring night-

It would begin to scratch the surface of what this experience has felt like-

There is simply so much depth to it, that the English language cannot capture-

All I can do is revel in it.

Until The Time Is Right

 It's the phone call movie dates,

The late night phone sex,

Video chatting so we can be present while we tell one another exactly how and when to get off-

Then falling asleep on the phone,

Only to wake up to the sound of the other peacefully stirring, the next morning-

It's moments like these that make me fall deeper, 

That captivate me,

That set my soul on fire-

Watching us unfold, 

And bring out the best in one another,

Has been such a magnetic sight and electric feeling. 

I explore parts of you that no woman has, while you explore parts of me I've tucked away and have never shown another. 

Turning corners to find another hidden gem, within your soul-

As you expose all of my potential and call me out for hiding it.

You tell me there is something you want to say, as your smile beams -

"When the time is right"

I beg playfully, knowing in my heart that I already innately know-

And you assure me, that when you finally do say it, I will know it was exactly what you were talking about. 

We have those things,

Those moments-

Where we see a glimpse into our future and the rest of the world melts away. 

I eagerly, yet patiently wait-

Because I know the day is just on the horizon-

So I'll watch every sunset followed by sunrise,

Until the time is right.