Darkness is Her Name

 I catch myself teetering the edge of my highest self, and the sadistic parts of me. 

I crave the love and peace that I'm capable of giving and receiving...while simultaneously staying thirsty for sin. 

Craving chaos and peace, Darkness teases me, as she drunkenly slips into my psyche.

Hello beautiful, old, friend. I hear you calling me- your magnetic pull becomes harder to resist. 

How could I be so in love with an idea that seems nearly impossible?

Aligning each angle and star just right...

I dare not give it a real chance...

Simply because the echo is silence.

So, instead, I chose a love so easy, so pure... a path so fairytale-like.

I wait for the glass slipper to drop,

And if it does, I'll pick up my trusty leather boots to dance in the chaos of an impossible dream once again.

Fresh Air

 Slow morning kisses, 

And late night cheesecake in bed.

You're sweeter than honey.

I am addicted to your sugar and sex.

Rope me in with your gentle touch,

Keep me here with your warm heart.

Your eyes, crystalline, reflecting your hopes and desires;

Captivate me, and I slowly become yours.

Playful laughter comes with ease. 

Watching you sleep, as I gently touch your cheek, has me enamored with you even more.

You are simply perfection.

Let me take you in, like a breath of fresh air, and let me hold you in my lungs until they burst from thr bliss. 

You are a dream that I am so grateful to have stumbled into. 

Soft Landing

 Do you ever just reel in manic bliss,

After back to back moments of love and adventure? 

Anticipating the next hit, of this delicious, delusional, yet very real, drug?

I want the whole world to know exactly what I'm feeling.

How I'm buzzing with anticipation, 

How I'm willfully falling off the deep end, with no bottom in sight.

How I'm trusting the fall, because at the end of my life, this journey, will have been one of the most beautiful. 

Head in the clouds, yet, ever so in touch with my body, my emotions, my deepest desires.

This drug,

One I refuse to believe is bad for me,

has given me life, laughter, and passion.

It's as if my soul has been awakened, my fire, reignited.

Its grip is kind and gentle, yet firm. I feel safe.

Here I go,

Stepping into the unknown,

But for some reason, it's as if I do know.

Like my heart has been here before. 

So I take the key, unlock that door, and spiral down the most beautiful rabbit hole I've discovered. 

Sipping whiskey as I float down,

To what I know will be a soft landing.

Anticipation

 "Now what?"

A playful tone dances as words escape lips,

Smirks can be seen in the dimly lit and tucked away bar. 

We know where the night is headed, 

Bodies buzz with anticipation. 

Natural Protector

 I lay in bed, 

On my side,

And vulnerable as fuck. 

Days, weeks, months of being berated,  

And trying to stay calm, 

Regulated,

And happy. 

I am happy,

And made to feel guilt for embracing it. 

But I put my chin up,

Chest out.

March on.

As I drift closer to sleep,

I feel your energy... full, blown, energy..

Next to me 

Almost as if you were on your side, holding me...

Propping yourself up, looking down at me.

A kiss on the forehead, and then another. 

So strong, so intentional.

It was beautiful.

You protect me and my soul in ways you don't even know.

A natural protector, 

Done with pure, love.

Nineteenth Floor

 Your kiss tastes like honey, 

Smooth and sweet, lingering in between each breath,

Take my hand, let me show the world the beauty that is You.

City lights flicker below,

Like fireflies dancing in the warm, summer heat.

Press your body against mine, as loving eyes look on. 

Hands pressed against glass, arched backs.

My fingers delicately trace your lips, my eyes take you in, 

A masterpiece.

The dark, night sky behind you outlines your perfect silhouette.

The moon peaks over your shoulder, teasing and pleased.

Let me kiss each inch of you from head to toe, 

The moon can watch too,

If she so please

The stars watch eagerly, a timeless moment captured.

Forever ingrained into the vibration of the galaxy.

My hands gripping your ass, as you can't help but move your hips. 

You want me,

And I, you.

I get on my knees, to worship you in the ways you deserve. 

A goddess in her own right,

Taking me to church.

Let me take you higher, than these nineteen floors,

Let me show you the universe in ways you've never seen it before.

Relax, take a breath, take it in.

The view from up here is breathtaking, 

But the view in front of me, pure perfection. 

Take my hand,

We're not finished yet.

Let's go rogue, 

Make a mess,

And say "Fuck it" to everything outside of these four walls.

Cassiopeia Delusions

 Floating, detaching from my physical being, to simply go wherever your soul will take me.

Which realm will we explore tonight? 

Will we get lost in the vast galaxies of our angelic ancestors?

Maybe dance among the many moons?

They say our heads are in the clouds, but I'm not ready to have my feet back on the ground. 

Let's watch the sun set, behind the moon, while eating popcorn on Mars.

Catch a comet, with our bare hands, and keep it in a jar. 

Can you see the shimmering lights, from the cities on the planet we call Home?

How they sparkle like stardust, 

A mirage of the unknown.

Let's befriend the Sirians, I bet we'd learn a thing or two,

Maybe drink some galaxies, buzzing on their mysteries

Would you get lost with me in a black hole, only to discover we were right where we were supposed to be?

I'd explore the constellations, jumping from Orien's belt with you...taking your hand, and kissing you hard the second we'd land on Cassiopeia.

But you ground me, take me back, to Earth 

Pull me down into your bed, and hold me tight,

As the moon shines through your bedroom window, 

Telling me it was all just a dream...

But I smile, knowing it was a memory.