Tuesday, July 15, 2025

Anticipation

God,

I can't wait to marry you,

To make you my wife,

To start a family with you-

Watching this all unfold for us,

Has been such a beautiful journey-

I love you with all of my heart,

From the depths of my being,

And to the core of the universe.


You are my forever,

And I yours-


My sweet woman,

Cheers to our eternity -


I love how excited you get talking about it-

I am so grateful for you my love.

Here's to our forever! 

Saturday, July 12, 2025

Goodbye, for now

As we said our goodbyes,

Time slowed.

We held each other a little longer...

You told me, "I love you baby" -

You never said "I love you" to anybody,

But me...

And if you did, it was once a year.

But you told me every time we spoke,

Multiple times. 


Your once strong embrace,

Felt fragile

But I could feel you mustering whatever strength you had to hold me tight and pull me close.


Once a man that some feared,

But I never had-

Because I was always your favorite,

And I'm not quite sure why.


You let me get away with more than the other kids,

You gave me more responsibilities as well-

You trusted me with your garden,

And Lord knows, you trusted nobody with your garden.


I tended to the tomatoes, cucumbers and eggplants-

Eating my weight in cherry tomatoes every time I harvested them for you.


I remember always looking at your hands,

Rough, tanned and rugged-

Truly a testament to your hardworking nature. 


You smelled of tobacco and caramel,

And somehow, I loved it,

Burrying my face in your flannel every time I hugged you, 

Inhaling deeply...

As I slipped my tiny hand into your shirt pocket to steal a peppermint lifesaver or Werther's Original. 


From the time I could talk, you taught me what it meant to be Italian-

You had me in the kitchen cooking sauce with you, and dicing onions and garlic before I probably should have ever held a knife. 


I remember standing on a wooden chair from the table, pulled to the countertop, and taking direction as the aroma of your sauce filled the air...

Sneaking bread in when you weren't looking to steal a taste -you always smiled like you knew.


I remember you talking me with peeling potatoes,  which seemed like for hours-


You and I fought over the end pieces of bread, something I still giggle about every time I eat one.

The smell of fresh cut wood from your workshop permeates my memory- Watching you create with your hands, not only food, but furniture, truly had me in awe.

My grandpa did everything! 


And as the years passed,

I watched your soul soften-

What once was strength and a hand with a paddle, turned to less building, more cooking, and slow days with grandma as she rapidly declined. 

You gave up your life,

For her,

And for us kids -

To be close and to watch us grow-

You became selfless, though not everyone could truly see it... I did.


I loved our calls, I loved the soul connection we had, and I simply love you! 


The last glance we shared,

Our eyes swelled with tears-

We knew,

It would be the last time we would look at each other.


You looked at me like you were so proud,

And with such love-

It was one of the most powerful feelings I've experienced in my life. 

So much said, with no words at all.

I love you grandpa,

Give grandma and mom hugs for me-

I know you three will have so much to catch up on.

Tuesday, July 8, 2025

Forever and a Day

 I can't wait,

To spend forever and a day,

By your side,

As your partner,

As your wife,

As the other mother to your children.


Though,

I'm not sure forever and a day is enough-


It is so beautiful,

That we share this love,

This deep, unbreakable,  soul quenching love-


I have quickly made your heart,

My home-

Knowing that you've made mine,

Yours.


The excitement leaves me restless, 

As I want to experience it all, in this very instant-

But I am patient,

And we have,

Forever and a day-

Millions of moments to share,

Decades of pure love ahead of us. 


Promise me you'll find me when our souls leave this Earth,

When the oceans dry up,

When the clouds fall from the sky,

When the Earth ceases to breathe-

Come find me,

I'll be waiting-

To spend another, forever and a day, with you

Sunday, July 6, 2025

A Piece

Simply put,

You are a piece of my soul.


I've searched the Earth,

High and low-

Not knowing exactly what I was looking for. 

A sense of longing always left me wanting more-

As if I was trying to find my home,

The place where I belonged. 


You,

An Angel,

Came tumbling into my life-

Unexpected, 

Fiercely passionate and wild-

Gentle and strong.

Playful and curious,

Pure.


And then it hit me,

Like an unexpected summer downpour -

I found myself dancing in the warmth,

Standing in the rain with you,

And basking in the sun and rainbow that followed


My love has grown,

At a rate I can't explain,

And have stopped trying to comprehend-

Because you, my love,  are right-

You are my person.


For the first time in my life I have not a single doubt-

You give me all that I've been subconsciously searching for-

I give you all that you've wanted and needed,

And together we create the most beautiful piece of art with our love.


The final masterpiece is ours to craft together,

Carefully choosing each color and pattern that suits the seasons we go through together. 

Each brush stroke dancing along the canvas we call "life," carving out our path forward as one.

You can rest now,

You are safe,

You are loved,

You are home-

Because baby, you're a piece of my soul.

Friday, July 4, 2025

My Rose

Loves buzzes around us,
With every touch, every glance, every shared moment. 
Warmth and moisture from the summer heat encapsulate this beautiful seedling-
Slowly growing and flourishing.
Nurtured by those we love,
And by our dedication to one another. 

As the bumble bee is drawn to naps inside of the rose, I am drawn to the calmness within you.
You make my world still,
Allow my busy wings to rest,
And provide me safety and stability. 

You share the morning dew with me when I am thirsty,
Shade me from the summer sun,
And hold me close. 

Sweet woman,
I love you.
Through and through.

Sunday, June 29, 2025

"I Love You"

Today,
We shared "I love you"
With our words,
Though, our eyes have been saying it for a while now.

It's slipped out a few times,
You joke I should come with a Caution sign-
I've whispered it to you as you've slept,
Followed by kissing your head.

Tears ran down your beautiful face,
As your smile grew,
And you told me that you've been wanting to say it forever...
I have too, my love.


That nobody has told you it first,
And how it is entirely a feeling you've never had before with anyone else,
How we are "different"
Because we in fact, are different. 

We say it probably a hundred times,
As we kiss,
And share tears of joy,
Deep gazes,
And hands on faces-
I could revel in this moment for eternity.

I fucking love you.
I would scream it from every mountain top,
Tell every passing stranger,
Carve it into every tree-
My love,
I absolutely do love you.

There is not a doubt in my mind,
You are my person-
And I, yours.

You suggest we get married,
Sooner than later,
Start our family,
But of course - travel the world first. 
It's a rush of bliss,
I agree-
Holy fuck,
We are really doing this.

I love you with every fiber of my being,
Every breath in my lungs,
Every drop of blood that runs through my veins,
With every heart beat,
And every passing moment. 

I love you like the sun loves the moon,
Like the shore loves the ocean,
Like the fireflies love the night-

My beautiful woman,
I can't say it enough.
I love you,
And will,
Until we turn to dust-
And even then,
My soul will find yours again and again,
To love you from start to finish.

Saturday, June 28, 2025

Heart to Heart

I lay here,

After a beautiful week spent with you-

Closing my eyes occasionally and simply soaking up the love that continues to grow.


When I close my eyes, I see flashes of the future we so openly discuss-

It is like I'm watching constellations being born, right before my eyes-

Life and light brewing in perfect synchronicity.


We talk about how "wild" it all is-

Nearly a year ago you simply dropped into my sphere-

Persistent and diligent with each word you chose,

Knocking at my door for me to let you in,

But as we know, it all happens in time.


The last six months have been such a beautifully chaotic whirlwind,

One that I wouldn't trade for the world-


Now we sit here,

In the arms of one another,

Mirrors held,

So we can help one another reflect, heal, and grow.


We graciously hold space for eachother,

Truly hearing, seeing, listening and loving-

We are so beautifully raw,

Standing before one another,

Bare,

Naked,

Vulnerable 


I will love every bit of you,

Every bright light within you, and every scar-

Each moment of unlearning your past traumas, I will hold you close and reassure you of your priceless worth.


Thank you for letting me show you the gentle, passionate, kind, fiery, stable, consistent, deep, true love you deserve.


Beautiful woman,

This is just the beginning,

And though, it feels like lifetimes,

We have ions to go together.


I love the excitement, honesty, and certainty in your voice when you talk to me about all of what's to come-


The tears of joy that filled your eyes today as you told me you "just know" that you're supposed to do this life with me in so many ways, left me speechless-

Because I too, have that same knowing-

We may not be able to explain it, 

And we don't have to,

Because we are living the experience,

Day by day,

Side by side,

Hand in hand,

Heart to heart.