Perfect But Scarred

She was the prettiest Hell I've ever been in,
I didn't mind burning at all.

She was Heaven sent, and fell far.
She was flawed, but flawless,
Perfectly scarred.

She was Hell on Earth,
But made in light of God.

She made me dance in sin,
But feel blessed and anointed.

She would be innocent, but evil.
She was breathtaking, but life-giving.

She made you feel alive and dead all at once.
She was unexplainably perfect.
She was my dreams and my nightmares...
My angels and my demons

She was loving,
But resentful.

She was perfect.
But Scarred.

Swayed Sleep

Tossing and turning and restlessness,
Connected at best.
Between the hours of one and six in the morning,
Strictly tossing and turning!

My mind it seems to travel,
So my body wants to walk...
She wants to dance, and twirl with passion-
But somehow she seems stuck.

It's dark outside and the only thing that lights the sky is the moon and stars.
She stares into the distance, on her roof,
I wonder where you are.

I want to dance and talk to you,
I know you're near but far...

Come dance with me, under the moon
Unlikely place to meet.

I can only think we're both awake,
And sway each other's sleep.

Shadow

Who are you, Shadow, lurking in my light
Dancing in the wind, dreaming in my night.
Who are you, Shadow?
Creeping in my soul, awakening the unknown, drenched in lust & love alone.
Where are you Shadow?
It seems you've disappeared,
As I have to you,
Year after year.
Where are you Shadow?
Do you hold me in my sleep, hug me when I weep... Sing to me in glee?
How are you Shadow?
Familiar, yet detached.
I see what appears to be in sight, but something surely lacks.
Emotion is hard to read, my friend, as all I see is black...
But you're surely cast by light and Me,
So please stay for a brief, moonlit, dance...
It takes the sun, her strong, warm, light
And my naked body here,
To entangle in the light of day, and disapate with fear.
She casts on me, and I see you, in more than one way,
We are one.
A reflection of my image, in a parallel world today

Escape - If Only.

I close my eyes and think of you,
Your pale skin,
Your green eyes,
Your warm embrace-
But I am alone in my bed.

I close my eyes and think of you,
let my fingers explore my body,
While you are at the forefront of my mind.

I'll escape for a bit,
Or try.
My best is all I can promise,
In my dreams, and in my mind.

What if only for one night we were under the stars,
On  a hill top,
Taking in the glorious lights of the city,
While our breathing drowns out its sounds.

You're with me.

Bored & Blessed

As the colored sparkles graced the night sky, all I could think was
"How boring"
How boring it was, how I felt no patriotism...
How I was simply bored.
This trip to my past, has been simply boring.
What am I looking for?
What am I seeking?
It's not here in my "home town"
It is in the air, while I fly,
In the ocean while I swim,
In the sun while I bask.

I imagine simplicity and joy,
While I live in complex limbo.

Bored with my past.
How had it been fun prior to who I am now?
I look back and wonder.

I'm here, and the most joy came from the waterfall I stood at the feet of today.
Nature soothes me.
Blessed

Bored.