Pull

 There is something about you that is magnetic,

I feel this indescribable pull towards your soul. 

A soul so beautiful, so deep, so pure.

A soul that has been on a long journey, yet is still open to new feelings and experiences.

A soul that brings laughter and light to other's darkness.

Simply put, a radiant soul.

There is something beautifully familiar about you, but I can't quite put my finger on it. 

It's like maybe our souls have done this dance before.

Everything feels rhythmic, flowing in a state of consciousness that only we can understand;

A language that has no words, no sounds, no touch... just energy. 

This magnetic pull is one that I refuse to ignore,

The full body chills, the sense of overwhelming peace- my mind is at ease.

I have never felt such peace before.

I feel lighter, my smile feels brighter, and my body is in a constant state of song and dance. 

It is exhilarating bliss; A "high," if you will.

I soak it in promising myself to cherish every moment regardless of the outcome. 

Something so organically engaging, mustn't be taken for granted.

I feel like I am flirting with the stars in the dark night sky - far away, yet I see them so clearly.

The tug of the moon draws the ocean's waves toward them... teasing them from the Earth's surface.

Let's show the stars and the ocean what it's like to actually meet. 

What it would feel like for their lips to finally touch,

How their embrace could shake the universe to its core.

Let It Simmer

 Let me take you in slowly,

As I learn every curve and every corner.

I am in no rush.

Let me consume you delicately, then fiercely. 

Allow me to travel through your stories as they come naturally, never forced.

There is a curiosity that burns like a fire within my soul,

Yet, let's take our time. 

Let's savor every moment we learn something new about one another.

Sip me slowly while I unfold,

Thumb through my pages,

Re-reading the lines that intrigue you the most.

Share your favorite flavors and scents with me,

Let them do the talking, as I decode how they make you feel.

Speak with your eyes and your body, 

 Let your gaze wash over me like the sunset on the West Coast,

Slowly going down on the beautiful ocean.

Explore my body, as you discover the depths of my mind and my soul.

Undress me intentionally,

My scars have stories that would make you both laugh and cry.

Taste me and you will see I'm the most complex combination of spicy and sweet you've ever experienced. 

Listen to my breath, as our bodies get tangled in both bliss and rest.

Simply take your time,

And I'll take mine.

I can guarantee,  it will be one hell of a ride.

Edging

 How do you do what you do to me,

From thousands of miles away?

Land, sea, air and time -

A brilliant barrier,

Yet you still have a hold on me.

How is it possible,

That I only know your voice, bits of your soul, and your beautiful smirk,

Yet I feel like I know your touch, your kiss, and your energy?

You have me on edge.

Edging me, with your words...

Ever so carefully, and meticulously,

Like you have a plan...

I'm craving the experience of all of you... every last drop of you...

I'm parched, yet drenched in the idea of you.

I want to taste you on my tongue, 

I need to feel your sweet skin pressed against mine...

I want to linger in moments of playfulness and seriousness- a balance I'm sure we can find.

I'm fiending for you like a drug that I've become addicted to; but how?

The anticipation continues to build,

Erotically, and mentally stimulating me.

Leaving me wanting more.

Too Much to Ask?

 This is the last time I'll get on my knees for you,

With tears in my eyes,

But instead of asking you to understand me, 

I'm asking you to leave me the fuck alone...

Move on with your life. 

The damage is done, it's your cross to bear,

The line in the sand, can't be moved, here nor there.

Please take all your things, and leave me the rest,

If I'm honestly speaking, it is for the best.

Being removed has made me renewed, 

A vision more clear than I've had in the past.

I'll cherish the good, try to forget the bad- but for the sake of us all, let's lay this to rest.

Goodbye and so long,

I wish you nothing but the best- 

But for fucks sake, leave me alone-

Is that too much to ask?

Vintage Wine

 Open up my mind, 

Like a vintage bottle of wine-

Waiting to be tasted and explored for the depths of my soul.

Aged and eager, for somebody to appreciate the intricacies.

Let me take you on a journey to where I've been, and where I'll go, from start to finish.

The finish will be so complex and sweet- a journey that will be imprinted in your soul for lifetimes. 

Let me linger on your lips, then on your mind, and on your hips;

Step into this realm with an open mind, and watch the world around you expand. 

Colors will be brighter, 

Music will become ingrained in your soul, flavorful and full of movement.

You will find freedom in expression and exploration. 

Are you down to get a little drunk on this journey of a lifetime?

Grab my hand, I'll show you the way. 

A Little Stoned

 Sitting here a little stoned,

Can't help but think of you- 

Letting my mind roam

Exploring your pages, has been an experience I hold dearly.

My breathing slows,

As I try to remember the way you taste, the way you sound, the way you scrunch your nose when you laugh.

I am instantly transported to flashes of moments, some captured and stolen, with you.

And how those memories, feel so damn good.

Happiness

 For years, I forgot what it felt like to wake up happy...

Like, genuinely happy.

As I sit here and sip my coffee, out of my stoneware mug, I can't wipe this smile off of my face.

Something that feels so right, so natural, and something I should have never let go of. 

Today, I love myself.

Today, I love my life.

Today, I woke up happy. 

I've been waking up happy for a few months now, but cutting that final lifeline has been a gamechanger. 

Morning music, morning muses, and morning moments- 

I stay grateful.

Grateful for this peace I've learned to reclaim, grateful for the adventures that await, and grateful for this life that is my own. 

Happiness feels like a right,

It no longer feels like something I have to earn. 

So, to my past self:

I love you. You deserve to be happy. You're going to discover that again soon.

Goddess

 You intoxicate my mind and arouse my soul.

Your energy intrigues me, while teasing me and pulling me in.

Your mind is dressed in sophistication, adorned with playful gems.

I bite into a piece of black licorice and imagine you taste as beautifully complex.

You've already begun to undress my soul, leaving me bare at moments, yet you don't cast judgement.

Breathe me in, like the crisp winter air. 

Allow me to awaken your senses.

No reason or rhyme is necessary.

Just flow, and feel.

Tangle me in sheets, the way you've tangled me in beautiful conversation.

Dig deep and explore my constellations.

Brace yourself for this magical, wild ride...

Let's have some fun. 

xx

Wild Ride

 It is crazy how after over a decade of knowing and loving a person, they can become a stranger overnight.

It is one hell of a wild ride, 

They no longer act like the person you believed them to be, and this requires a protection of your heart and soul. 

You must learn to let go of the idea of "protecting them," and embrace the idea of protecting yourself. 

When it comes down to your mental health, your feelings, your emotions, your well-being versus their; always choose your own. They will find their way, and you no longer owe them your kindness, your gentle heart, your care and your protection. 

I'm not saying actively try to hurt them, at all. I'm saying, there will be moments where a decision will either hurt your heart, or theirs. It is OK to choose yourself. There is no perfect world where some decisions will be at peace with both parties. Put yourself first.

When somebody's true colors shine through, believe them. Not the 100th time, but the first time. It may be hard, but it will save you from years of turmoil and repeated heartbreak. 

Take accountability,  where accountability is due, and do it radically. I am not perfect, you are not perfect- and neither of us fully owned that, until the bitter end.

As much as this all pains me, I know that I will heal in time. I know that you will heal in time... it is wild to me that so much is hitting me now, but I will disect and work through it. 

Wishing you a world of peace, love, adventure and joy.

-G