Mirror

 There she was again,

But this time- in a place where my roots grew,

A place that felt like "Home,"

A place that brought tears of joy to my eyes. 

Bouncy curls, bundled in a little puffy winter outfit.

My beautiful daughter. 

She stood exactly where I stood, years earlier. 

Looking at her reflection in the same glass-like water that I saw mine. 

And then,

A solo duck- heading right toward her. 

I hear her giggle as she crouches down to talk to the "ducky" 

My heart explodes. 

The image is identical to my experience, yet this beautiful little soul is living it right here in front of me. 

Again, 

I feel peace,

I feel love,

I feel at home with my little family, in my homeland. 

A gentle yet firm grip grabs my hand,

Then a warm kiss on my cheek. 

Again, 

My forever partner,

With our daughter...

I can only hope these manifest.

Puzzling

 Sweet angel, 

Let me revel in your cotton candy aura for as long as you'll let me,

Let me quench my thirst with your cup that runneth over,

Your kind touch and gentle acts engulf the spirit of me.

You are teaching me about my soft side and ability to receive.

Let's dance along the clouds and sing until our breath runs out-

Let's exchange playful glances and electrifying touch.

Bring me to the edge of ecstacy, as you often do- leaving my body buzzing with bliss.

Tease my mind as you let me taste bits of your soul, giving me just enough flavor to want to dive in more.

You, my dear

Are something special.

Something magnificent-

Something worth holding onto. 

A rare gem in this tainted & jaded world-

You shine brighter than Cassiopeia and Orion's belt-

And I'd wish upon a shooting star, but I'm convinced you're the one I'd need to wish upon...

And how could I possibly wish upon you, for you?

Your embrace makes the world fade, and I am left with the moment -

Melting into the beautiful fact that these moments, are our shared reality.

Every moment that passes, I discover a new piece of you-

Puzzling together the pieces through patience and intrigue.

The vivid picture, slowly coming into focus-

If I squint, I can start to make out it's entirety,

And babe, it's so fucking divine.

Like Goddess herself painted it, and held onto it for quite some time-

Until the moment was right,

And now, she gifts us this adventure of a lifetime.

Looking down, smiling, saying:

"Now's finally the right time."

Butterfly Garden

 Her beautiful brown eyes, 

Staring up at me with love, excitement and intrigue.

Short curls bounced around her face- 

She lets go of my pinky-

Walking ahead of me with eyes wide open and ready to take in the wonder.

Three or four years old, 

Innocence is her aura.

Butterflies swirling around, a crisp spring air- 

Short and sweet- a brief moment captured in my memory.

Feeling blissful, calm, and so incredibly at peace-

Right exactly where I was meant to be. 

The overwhelming feeling of family and home.

A blue butterfly lands on her precious little nose,

A giggle and a smile as she looks back up at me-

My heart is stolen by this little girl;

My daughter-

My forever partner by my side-

Drop In

 Open up,

Give in,

Let go,

Experience. 

Me,

You,

Us.

This.

Magic.

Trust,

Lust,

Possible love-

Explore,

Catch,

Drop in,

Peace.

Bliss,

Laughter,

Pure energy.

Playful,

Supportive,

Warmth.

A journey of a lifetime.

Too Much

 I am not "too much"

Maybe I say "too much"

I can't keep my tongue from spilling my guts.

Then I spiral and overthink,

That maybe my weirdness is "too much" and simply should be reeled in-

But I crave sharing it all,

Because there is something that makes me feel safe to authentically express- even if it is "too much"-

But maybe,

I'll take the tiniest step back, keep closer some of the magic- because I want you to trust that I'm not "too much" but simply "enough"

Easy

As I look in your eyes, I see galaxies and lifetimes unfolding before mine. 

I get lost for a moment,

But you let me take you in-

Patiently and calmly.

We exchange words unspoken,

With glances and laughter,

Touches and kisses,

That transcend us.

Above the clouds we play and explore- creating a safety neither of us have experienced.

We unravel and expose the truest versions of ourselves.

We slowly begin to uncover,

What's written in the cards and the stars- since before we each took our first breath. 

With you,

It is easy-

All of it.

The giving into your embrace,

Getting lost in your eyes-

Getting drunk on your smile-

Getting high on the most intoxicating sex.

Conversations for hours-

Exposing my feelings and fears-

You make it easy to be unapologetically me.

Make love to my soul as you undress my mind- 

Sweet, sticky, honey drips between my thighs-

Taste my bliss, as I slowly become addicted. 

And let me make it easy for you too-

Easy for you to trust me,

Easy for you to shed light on the darkest corners of you- 

Let me ease you into your day with sweet kisses and words-

Let me come to you, and take that drive off of your plate.

I want to make it easy for you to breathe,

And fall into me.

So I speak to my guides, and ask them to continue to show me- and allow me to see, all of the beauty that could, and will be.

Mine

 I'm sitting here,

Meditating on what I'm actually feeling - 

At first I wondered if, in fact, I was not trusting the way I said I was...

But no, that's not it. 

I fully trust you. 

Then I wondered, if it was fear of not being chosen - or simply having to compete...

But no, that's not it either. 

But I've figured it out -

After an anxiety filled birthday - 

A day that I thought would feel differently. 

After tarot, and herbal magic...

It hit me, 

I'm having a feeling of simply not being enough... and holy fuck...

When I realized that, I wanted to vomit. 

I haven't felt that way in easily over a decade. 

I told myself I'd never put myself in a position to feel that way again,

Yet I'm here.

A decade older and wiser-

And acknowledging the feeling.

I'm holding space for this feeling,

Inspecting and examining it. 

Why do I feel this way? 

Is it my own perception? 

My own fears? 

My past setting off alarm bells?

I need to extinguish this feeling,

Embrace my innate confidence,  that I've grown to stand in. 

This feeling, is temporary. 

This feeling, is based on falsified perceptions in this current moment. 

It simply,

Is not true. 

I am wildly more than enough,

I have the world to offer and an abundance of unconditional love. 

I am a fucking Goddess. 

I am powerful, magical, magnetic and radiant.

I am the epitome of beauty inside and out.

I am adventurous and a free spirit.

I am successful and building this fucking beautiful, unbreakable empire. 

I deserve the fucking world. 

I deserve respect, unconditional love, playful love, sexual magnetism, and the most serene peace.

All of that will be mine,

Because it is already mine.

Psychic Fuckery

Being gifted with clairvoyance and the ability to tap in to the supernatural, 

Is such a blessing and a curse.

I know things before I'm told,

I see things before they happen,

I hear the guidance of my spirit guides, as well as those who have passed...

And it is a beautiful dichotomy.

On one hand, I wish I could just live in ignorance,

While on the other hand, I revel in the beauty that spirit shares with me.

Some things are pure, other things are maleficent. 

I release my human ego, and open myself to surrender,  to trust, and to fully receive. 

Everybody is trying their best,

This realm we live in, is simply a place where lessons are learned. 

Everything is eternal and temporary at the same time. 

Shedding expectations, and embracing the fact that we are all one, flowing through the bullshit and coming out on the other side.

I catch myself holding my breath,

But forcing myself to release it.

Beautiful daughter of the winter hills,

You are protected.

You are loved.

You are safe, and safe to trust.

Let spirit guide you,

Go run amok,

Barefoot running, the earth they touch. 

You are grounded, you are self-less,

You are unconditional love.

You are so much more than human form,

A light that guides the lost. 

Dollar in my Pocket

 I find myself tripping,

On all of the analogies, synchronicities, and future memories- that come to me.

How did I find you?

The most pleasant surprise -

Unexpected and smile inducing.

Look at what you've done to me,

Have me reading into everything,

Or is everything simply spelling it out for me?

Like a dollar in my pocket,

Never knew I'd find you here,

A moment that I've caught it,

Something swirling in the air-

Skimming high fives as I found it, 

Breathing in the winter air,

Found this dollar in my pocket,

And suddenly you're here.

Unexpected, elevated, curious kind of care-

A sprinkle of joy into my life, 

Wondering how you made it here-

But accepting is receiving, 

Let go of all my fears-

You're like this dollar in my pocket, 

Always there, but just appeared.

Red & Gold

 There you stood,

Wrapped in the most beautiful red dress, embossed with intricate gold stitching - 

The most pure smile on your face,

Your eyes glowing with happiness and peace.

A gold crown was placed gently on your head, as your beautiful dark curls cascaded down your shoulders, neck and back. 

I was speechless,

My breath stolen from me, by your beauty.

A goddess was standing right in front of me- and she, was You.

I looked at you with loving eyes, as you looked back at me and smiled. 

I snap back into reality,

Back on my couch, sipping coffee- forever cherishing this little glimpse of your soul.

Trustfall

 Trustfall into me, as I have into you-

I know this is just the beginning,

I know that you're afraid,

But take my hand.

I promise to be gentle with your sweet soul,

My words are true, 

So let my actions prove.

Let go of the "what ifs" and "maybes"

Because baby, there is something so breathtaking here; it's worth exploring.

Steal my breath, with each of yours,

And as you do, I'll hold you close-

Showing you, that you have a soft place to land.

This is me:

Raw, and unfiltered

Pure and loving.

I take care, and hold each and every piece of what others give to me;

Never faltering.

My roots are strong, and I have a confidence in my character,

Let me peel back my layers and lay them at your feet, 

While showing you it is OK to be exposed.

I want to swim in the depths of you, only coming up for air when my vision starts to go dark, and my body numb. 

Let my Siren songs echo in your caverns, as you quietly sing them back to me.

I'll dive in,

I just need you to let me,

To trust me,

To collide with me.

Fall into my arms, 

For my heart will protect yours.

Fall into my eyes, 

And jump off your cliff of uncertainties - 

Free fall, and experience the rush.

I'll catch you, if you let me.

Replay

 I press replay a thousand times,

On these few memories of you and I.

I transport back to the feeling of when your lips first met mine, and I dive off the deep end- 

A kaleidoscope.

I'll happily spiral up the staircase to replay the way your nectar tastes, a sweetness I am now addicted to.

Imprinted in my memory,

I'm slowing becoming addicted to all of you...

You push me down, then eat me out- as I gently tug on your beautiful curls. Your eye contact unravels me with ease.

The feeling of you on top of me, 

Me, on top of you

Us ...

At points I lose track of where my body ends and yours begins, and I revel in that bliss.

Ecstacy is where you take me, leading me gently, playfully, yet with confidence and assertion.

It's the quiet whispers at the restaurant, the hand on the small of my back at the coffee shop, the hard kisses in the parking lot- I play them on repeat. 

I often wonder, do you think of me? Do these memories made fuel you, they way they fuel me? Are you left wanting more and on the edge of your seat? 

Because I've laced my lips with mysteries and spells- dropping bits of my soul, for you to feast on. 

You slowly continue to crack open my shell, and inside you discover the depths of my Hell and the heights of my Heaven. 

Spellbound, and intrigued

Let me in, as I am letting you- I promise to hold the most fragile parts of you, with the utmost care. 

Let me see your Heaven and Hell.

I am bare, please join me.

LA is Burning

 LA is burning,

And this is just the start-

The embers dance on homes of migrants and the stars.

The sky is coated in smoke, thicker than the city smog, and the whole world sits back watching as they change their fucking vape pods.

LA is burning,

When will we start to see? 

The notice has been there, it was written in the sea-

The moon tried to warn us, but we prefer ignorance, then wonder why buildings crumble and memories go amiss. 

LA is burning,

I can hear the palm trees scream, 

I see the tears of Palisades as ashes coat the streets-

America sends "thoughts and prayers" as they do in tragedies, 

While inmates and other countries, fight to clear the scene.

LA is burning, 

It sounds like a cringe pop song,

I can almost hear the chorus, as animals run alarmed-

It's dark and it is haunting, lingering in the air,

And while some are fighting fires, others light the brittle flairs.

LA is burning,

I watch friends lose their homes- some strangers lose their photo albums, and their newborn baby's clothes.

My heart aches deeply, as with each disaster pings. I watch their children's art get sucked up by the violent flames.

LA is burning,

 But you sit and watch TV,

You shove pizza down your throat, and binge Reality. 

But reality is here, and we refuse to face, 

The havoc that it's wreaking, since it's not our own safe place. 

LA is really burning,

Our lesson never learned, so guess we'll have to sit back,  and watch another city burn. 

So grab your pop and popcorn, for this time it's not bombs, it's fires without water, and shitty church like Psalms.

Small Things

I'll embrace the universe gently waking me at 4am, so I can say "Good morning" to your pure soul. 

I'll gladly take the 6am video calls, with my room still dark, and my hair a mess - so I can feast my eyes on your beautiful face as you make me laugh before I even get out of bed.

As I fall back to sleep, I'll find comfort in the memories we've begun to make- and the excitement of the ones we've yet to create.

Since your voice has been resounding in my head, there hasn't been a day where I've lost my smile. It's like you meticulously and effortlessly ensure it's there- it comes naturally to you.

Can we dance in my kitchen to the sound of our own music - Will you show me, slowly, how our bodies can feed off of one another? Kiss me hard as I get caught up in the moment.

Let me make your coffee with love and intent, sprinkling bits of my heart on top for you to savor- explore the various flavors.

Allow me to pass by with simple touches, gracing my fingers along your spine as I playfully tease your mind. I want to linger in your thoughts as long as you'll let me. 

It's the small things, that get me-

I'll unravel at your feet in you let me.

Fiend

Breathing you in like Indica,

Swirling around my mind-

Leaving my body feeling the highest, of highs

Floating on these purple clouds,

Cloud Nine- far from coming down,

Coughing as you fill my lungs- with each gasp of pleasure I take

Never knew I could get this drunk,

On just one touch - 

Red lips, like red wine- smeared on both of us.

I'm on my knees, begging "Please"- let me just take a hit,

Your drug is the ultimate bliss.

I need more of it.

You see me raw, and down me like a shot of whiskey neat, when I say "No"

Yet, pop me like a bottle of champagne, when I say "Go"

Curb my cravings with a tease of absinthe and licorice, 

Just to bring me to the very edge of all of it-

I'd be willing to jump, just to feel the rush.

As Easy As Breathing

I am still drenched in the essence of you,

The essence of us.

From the moment we locked eyes, the world around me melted. 

Time froze as I took in your energy.

It came as easy as breathing.

It's like I stepped into your aura and was enveloped in the tastiest dream I've had yet.

The ease of the eb and flow had me speechless at first, but I soon found words overflowing in abundance.

You took my hand and ripped open my world in the most nurturing way- 

I blindly handed you my trust, trusting my soul's intuition entirely, for once. 

You took it gently, examined it, admired it, and played with it delicately.

I went from wanting you, to craving you with a simple kiss. 

Our time together, though short, was as intense as the beautiful summer monsoon. Fast, passionate, fierce and refreshing - quenching every corner of my soul that was longing for a taste of yours.

I feel like this rain, will breathe a new journey into our lives. The seeds are now watered, will you sit and watch them grow with me?

Devour me each moment your body, mind and soul long to- you have my full permission. Show the stars and the moon how you truly see them; in my flesh and in my eyes.

Let me get lost and cascade down your lips as you discover the deeper parts of me. Let me pull you close and grip those hips- Catch each gasp and moan that tumbles from my mouth, with yours.

Let me hold you and play with your hair until you fall asleep in my arms, because we both know I'm not one for drifting deep.

Who are you?

Where did you come from? 

Your energy is magical and mystical- 

Ancient and pure,

Powerful and gentle.

I see the absolute radiance of your soul, so fucking clearly, that I catch myself mesmerized... in pure awe.

The universe has placed you in my path, right here, right now- and I am listening. I am receiving.

I am welcoming this journey with a heart eager for exploration - 

Take my hand.

Word Vomit

 As I lay here treating a mild headache and sore throat, I can't help but have to get out the bullshit, before I write you something beautiful. 

You deserve all of the beautiful words that express all of my beautiful feelings, but there is a minor anxiety standing in the way. 

So let me oust it with some free write, and get back to the essence of you... the essence of us. 

Just don't do it... please. 

I know it's not my place, but I can see what could be and baby it is cosmic. 

Let's let go of our anchors and sail freely.

With love,

-Gabriella

Tangible

 She hasn't touched me,

She doesn't need to-

Her energy has caressed and held me in ways that gave my body chills.

It's one I can feel from the other side of the world,

Magnetic and comforting. 

Her words travel through time and space, cutting through distance with ease and grace.

How she puts a smile on my face, makes me long for a taste, even more.

Gently holding me, while commanding my attention- a balance that makes me weak in the knees.

I whisper "Yes, please" as I gaze up at the Milky Way. 

Minutes pass faster than expected, making days shorter.

Anticipation grows like wildflowers after a summer rain, beautifully reaching for the warmth of the sun.

Arms outstretched,  and ready for embrace.

But for now, I'll take the orgasms of the mind, which trickle down my body, a nearly tangible feeling. 

Nearly as tangible as You.