Love Made

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Raw emotions-

Flooded by the depths of our souls,

A moment we will cherish forever,

Lost in the most passionate kiss,

Souls melting into the edge of oblivion, 

Unsure when the kiss led to the most beautiful love made, 

But so sure of the entanglement we have found ourselves in. 

Seconds of breath captured,

Minutes of rhythmic ecstacy,

Hours of falling deeper

Into this masterpiece we create.

Moments of stillness,

Nothing but our exhausted breathing,

Smiles sprinkled with kisses in between,

Again,

Again,

We find ourselves in the heat of the moment,

Rolling orgasms and whispered nothings,

That mean everything and more.

Drifting into a sleep,

In the early morning hours,

For just a few hours,

And we play it on repeat the moment we wake.

If We So Dare

 Laughing until tears flow freely,

My cheeks hurt,

And I can't stop-

The night encompasses us through the airwaves-

As my laugh triggers yours,

And the cycle continues.

Sweet and innocent,

I'm a little stoned-

And the serious question of pancakes or waffles arises-

We fall on the same page

Thank Goddess- 

But an even more serious topic arises-

How chocolate chips do not belong in pancakes.

You think I'm joking,

But I stand my ground-

We spiral and get ourselves into a sticky situation,

Pun intended-

Into the oblivion we fall-

And beautifully divide,

Able to laugh at the other's opinion on each matter-

Minutes pass ever so slowly,

And I can't seem to catch and bottle up my laughter- 

And instead of being embarrased, 

I can feel how much you love it- 

I can hear how much it engulfs you.

You actually love my little quirks-

And a moment of beauty,

Seriousness,

And fantasy arises-

You tell me how if you had a daughter,

With your future wife,

You'd get up early as your wife sleeps-

Gently wake your daughter and whisper:

"Let's make your mom pancakes in bed"

My heart skips a beat,

You continue to tell me all of the adorable things- 

Building this ideal future,

It is beautiful,

I want to capture it and turn it to gold,

So that I can savor it forever. 

A gentle tear of joy graces my cheeks,

For I can see it vividly,

I can feel all of the emotions that come with it

Bizzare-

But I embrace it,

As I have, everything, with you.

A surreal experience, we are destined to.

You're as sweet as the sugar that coats my throat,

With each bite,

Each sip,

Each taste-

Let me drown in your sweetness,

And soak up your loving,

My favorite flavor,

So fulfilling.

Wrap me in your daydreams,

And hold me in your deepest desires,

A space that we will explore together,

Getting lost, never tired,

Of one another.

Your soul has truly captured mine,

Bound to you- 

A fairytale as old as time-

But something brighter,

On the horizon,

Entices us to full step in, 

And immerse ourselves.

I'd get lost with you,

On any day,

In any place,

In any galaxy that awaits- 

Guided by your laughter,

The shine in your eyes,

The electricity in your touch,

And the magic between your thighs-

And each story,

Each "what if"

Each deep talk,

Each gentle touch,

Each passionate love,

Each moment wrapped in us,

Takes us there-

To our destination,

If we so dare.

8pm Rambles

 How are you even real?

Calling me your future wife,

Generating AI photos of our future children and sending them to me-

We giggle together as we go through them.

We've created such a beautiful potential future life together,

That I feel the alchemy working-

We are manifesting it,

And to put it lightly,

It is wild. 

Our talks yesterday took us to a whole new level,

What it means to love,

To fall in love,

To be in love...

How we'd care for one another in moments of darkness, 

How we'd dance together in moment of joy-

Telling me today that you would go to the ends of the Earth to find me,

If need be.

But you've already found me-

Who the fuck are you,

And where have you been all of my life?

We know that the timing was divine-

In God's timing, and Inshallah we will find our permanent place in one another's lives.

Gratitude is an understatement. 

My Eyes Are Not My Own

 A glimpse,

A moment, 

My eyes meet my own-

Standing in front of me as I take off my makeup after a lovely day.

I quickly look away,

A habit I formed back when you left this earth,

For my eyes are your own,

Over the years, I've tried to fall in love with them again-

Shades of green, speckled with blue that comes from you.

My first thought tonight was,

"Wow"

Captivated by the quick glimpse of beauty that nearly escaped me with the moment.

But then it hits me,

I force myself to look back,

And I see you.

I see you so vividly,

In my image.

And I smile,

Fighting back some tears. 

I chuckle, because in this moment I realize, I feel most beautiful when I see you in me.

I've looked away for so long,

Trying to forget the pain of the loss,

Even my own father doesn't look me in the eyes the same anymore,

Because he sees you-

It took my brother years to open back up to me, 

Because he feels you-

My own grandmother won't answer my calls,

Because she hears you.

But what they don't realize, is that you are a part of each of us-

I just happen to outwardly portray it.

So,

I tell you how I feel,

A smile slips back across my lips.

I love you dearly,

And feel you with me, 

Every waking moment,

Of every day. 

You are my soul-

I embody the unconditional love that you instilled in me at such a young age.

Visit me soon,

In my dreams,

Because only there, you become tangible. 

My eyes are not my own,

I share them with an angel,

And I hope that even strangers can see your light when they look into my eyes.

Finality Spiral

 And it continues,

Obsessive observation-

It's a wonder how exhaustion hasn't overtaken,

An unhealthy addiction,

Driving the already insane, 

off the edge of a cliff.

You think it's hidden-

But it's written,

Each and every time-

Dozens in a day.

Well, I can tell you,

That it's slowly winding,

Down,

To a moment of finality. 

It's time to accept,

Reflect,

Move on-

Heal,

And grow.

There is no sense in grasping at the dust of the past,

When a new love has blossomed,

In a different universe-

One that you could not even fathom.

The world becomes a desolate place,

For those who wish to pace in purgatory.

The mind,

A deadly embrace-

A spiral with not an ounce of grace,

For those who long to stay stuck in self-serving, and self-sabotaging cycles.

Inward one must turn,

To truly heal the deepest wounds-

Those that make us act in selfish ways,

Despite the pain it brings others.

A journey,

Long,

Yet worth it.

Give it a shot-

For the world is only growing more cruel,

So one must hold a mirror to the darkest parts within,

And never look away-

Because the moment one does,

All comes crashing down-

Again and again,

Like a broken record on repeat-

An experience that is so familiar.

Don't get lost in the "why's

Because You are the why.

Instead,

Pivot. 

And Heal the sludge that's inside,

Of your dying and dark soul.

Day In & Day Out

 Every morning,

Regardless of time,

Could be 3am, 5am or 9am

It starts.

Our playful, loving, tango-

From soft "I miss you"s 

To "Fuck, I want you"s

Sometimes it's kisses,

And my body on yours,

While other times it's you waking me up with a call, as my sleepy voice rings with joy on the other end of the phone.

It's the constant updates on the days we are apart,

And the constant touches, kisses, glances and laughter when we are together.

Day in and Day out,

You have integrated into my life,

So carefully,

Meticulously,

Radiantly-

Every moment, 

You're on my mind,

And I, on yours-

Like we've become intertwined in the most fulfilling way...

Because we have,

And I've come to love it, with every fiber of my being, every corner of my heart, every piece of my soul.

You always give me exactly what I need,

You are so nurturing, and loving-

So aware of yourself, and of me-

I melt in your hands like clay waiting to be molded into a masterpiece,

Let's create this together-

Messy but beautiful,

Eye-catching and soul-drenching.

Day in 

And

Day out

As I fill my lungs with the purest air,

And exhale any fears-

You've shown me time and time again,

That you're not going anywhere-

And I, the same for you.

Let me cascade as we dance,

Into whatever the future may hold,

Let the rush wash over me,

And make me whole-

Let me help carry your weights, 

And watch your peace unfold-

I am here with you now,

And will remain.

Your heart is pure gold,

And I soak up the tenderness with gratitude -

Embodying all that we are and what we could be.

No crystal ball,

Just slowly building,

Day in and Day out-

You amaze me,

And I adore you, for all that you are. 

Every last piece.

Simply Me & You

 I could linger in this moment,

For lifetimes to come- 

Surrounded by this ethereal feeling.

I could linger here with you, 

Until the world ceases to exist-

And when that happens, 

I'll remember you,

As you will have been imprinted in my soul.

I'll find you amongst the stardust and ashes,

Time and time again-

And remind you of the beauty that we share,

And the love that we grew together.

I'll show you the memories we've made, 

And it will all come rushing back,

It will feel familiar and like home-

This world we live in is temporary,

But energy lasts forever-

The alchemy we create is undeniably ours,

And untouchable.

Travel through each galaxy with me,

Sip on the stars, like we used to sip tea-

Make love amongst the astroids,

And let me shelter you from black holes.

Travel with me,

Here and now,

Then and there.

Expand our horizons together, 

As we melt into all that we could possibly create.

Intimate

 Let my mind roam for a minute,

Let me dive in for a minute,

Let me go deep, and get wet, and spread you open for a minute

Let me get freaky, get nasty, get trashy for a minute...

Tell the whole world exactly what I'd do to you, for a minute...

I want to lick your neck as I make my way to your ear, to whisper exactly how badly I want to taste your sweet pussy on my lips,

My tongue salivates at the thought of it dancing around your clit, 

Making your back arch, as you take a fist full of my hair-

Making unwavering eye contact with me.

I'm on my knees, bare and vulnerable, 

Begging "please" as you tease me.

Let's add a ball-gag for the fuck of it.

I want to slide my fingers inside of you as you let out a sigh,

My name on your lips, my teeth on your thighs-

My grip on your ass,

Ecstacy in your eyes...

Tie me up, 

Tell me how,

I'm such a "good girl" and a "bad girl" while you fuck my mouth-

Bend me over your lap,

And spank my ass-

With gentle kisses in between.

Let me climb on top of you, 

Let me ride you, with your hands on my hips,

Telling me how I'm the most beautiful woman to ever exist- 

And between my sighs of pleasure,

I'll say "no babe, that's you." 

I want to bite your lip, 

Have you suck on my tit,

Leave hickeys on my ass,

So I'll never forget - 

Exactly who I belong with. 

I want to fuck you with your knees by your head, as I dive deeper-

Watch your eyes roll back, as you say "please" and "thank you"

Let me tie you to the bed, 

I'll bend over and spread open wide for you,

Until you can't take it anymore- 

Squirming because you need a taste. 

Whisper to me while we are out for dinner, that you want me as dessert, 

Slip your hand between my legs,

Telling me exactly how you're going to have your way with me when we get back-

Fuck me in the back seat of your car,

Messy, hot, sweaty, kinky, and playfully

Hoping we don't get caught- 

Baby, what if we get caught?

Do you want to take some pictures of me?

If I'm feeling sassy, put me in my place- 

Especially when I say "No"

Use me how you want to, 

I'm yours for the night, the day, the week, until you're done with me-

God, I know you'll never be done with me-

This electric connection is something only we can see, can feel, can taste, can touch.

Chills crawl down my spine as you tell me to fuck you, 

I simply can't get enough of you-

Then we cool down,

Take it slow-

Create a love that no one knows,

Except for us-

Pulling one another closer, 

Wrapping your arms around me, 

Kissing me slowly and passionately,

Looking into my eyes as you gaze into my soul,

Saying words unspoken.

I wrap my legs around you, 

We reach climax, 

After climax,

After climax

Together -

And then,

The slowness,

Of soaking up the moment,

Soaking up eachother. 

Holding hands,

Tickling the small of my back,

While I gently trace your face with my finger tips...

I love the way we eb and flow,

So fucking

Intimate.

Asra & Art

 Not sure the year,

But a few from now-

In a different place,

Building and growing. 

Our beautiful daughter,

Bouncing curls like yours-

Maybe 8 or 9 years old.

A parent teacher conference,

For art class - 

Our little girl expressing herself through color, despite the instructions to create in charcoal -

Black and white.

The concern from her art teacher regarding her lack of following direction made me giggle inside,

Because she has such a free spirit-

Not one to be tamed. 

And your face,

Oh my God,

Your face-

I laugh now thinking about it.

Pure shock and utter irritability-

"Art is subjective, how can you even grade her on her own interpretation?" 

And here we go,

I fight back my laughter and try not to let it show on my face. 

Because I know you, 

And how you think that social construct is absolute bullshit.

The teacher explains the assignment again, as if you didn't hear,

Asra playing with a doll at another table behind us, oblivious to the conversation at hand. 

She has such peace of mind in her own little world,

I smile, knowing this won't affect her.

You roll your eyes, and kindly say "Ma'am,  I understand the assignment, but do you understand that art is subjective?" 

In that moment I realize how much I adore you,

I love how you advocate for those you love,

Your love is so deep and apparent, 

The giggles build inside of me, because I swear I can read your mind. 

And I wake , from the sound of my actual laughter

Inevitable

 There is so much inevitable about Us.

There is such certainty in my heart and soul that things will continue to unfold as they have thusfar,

While uncovering all of the endless possibilities ahead of us. 

You have become such a beacon of light in my world,

And I'll capture and cherish it, every moment I get.

We hold something sacred.

It is delicately crafted to meet each of our needs and desires-

While exceeding all expectations we've had.

A pleasant surprise, to say the least.

Who would've known back in August of last year that this would have blossomed into what it has?

Who would've known that from December to now, we would have fallen this deep?

Only Goddess and the Universe;

Who have conspired to connect our souls in the most intricate ways.

You are slowly becoming a piece of me, and I a piece of you.

Each step meticulously taken, with trust and hope-

Each moment delivering a satisfaction neither of us have experienced before,

Sasiating a hunger we knew we had deep down.

Our glasses slowly filling with droplets of love, 

Unconditionally- 

Expanding in the spaces where we need it most,

A life force fueling all that we could possibly want or need.

Shockwaves course through my veins with each kiss, each gentle touch, each gaze with words unspoken-

We study one another, fascinated by the other's magic and glow.

The truth is,

We've both been glowing a lot more,

We have been radiant as we go throughout our days- 

Both together, and apart. 

Strangers notice, friends notice, our families notice.

But what is most important, is that We notice,

And we know that this is something special,

Something unbreakable, 

Something undeniably meant to be-

As we say, the perfect timing.

Watching us water and grow this delicate seed, has proven to be one of the most enjoyable tasks I've taken on with you. Watching it sprout, and peek its face towards the sun, is just the beginning of all that's to come.

The first of many things we will grow together, 

Sow together,

Reap together.

Bask in the sunlight today and feel my kiss, 

My arms around you will be soon to follow.

Wild Beautiful Ride

  "Fuck it, let's just skip everything and get married..."

"I'd marry you tomorrow..." 

Bold statements,

Followed by pinky promises and more talks of kids-

Our kids,

Our future,

Our "what could be" life. 

You so badly want to hear the words escape my lips-

And you know they're there,

And I hear them through your gaze. 

You are such a God damn dream-

You may tell me that I have "all of the qualities you've ever wanted in a partner," but darling, the truth is, you have all of the ones I could have asked for too.

We vow to navigate this terrain together-

While it may have its bumps, twists and turns- we've found a way to make it beautiful. 

We have healed one another so much, and I love the way we glow, especially when we are together. 

Kissing you today outside,  I was captivated by your light as the sun kissed the sides of our faces. You looked like an angel, standing unapologetically in front of me. 

I could drown in your laughter, and die happy- truly,  happy. 

We count down the minutes and hours until we are wrapped in one another's arms again - but despite the space, I feel your energy and your love wrapped around me...tightly..

 Holding me in a sacred space;

One that only we share. 

It is so strong and safe, honest and accepting... 

A place I could easily call "home." 

Which is why we laugh, as we share dreams and day dreams - because as ridiculous as it may sound, we both simply could see it. 

You feel right, you fit right, you are right- 

And my heart is full yet again. 

I'll hold onto yours with care, as you have mine. 

It is so wildly beautiful, this ride.

Mornings Like This

 Mornings like this,

I wish I was waking next to your beautiful face-

Rolling over and kissing you gently on the forehead while you still rest your eyes-

Tracing my fingers along your back and your thighs.

Mornings like this 

I wish I could feel your body against mine- bare, and begging for me-

Always the perfect way to start our day,

That closeness is unmatched,

As we reach climax together.

Mornings like this I wish I could bring you coffee in bed,

Analyze our dreams from the night prior as we sip the bitter heat, and hold one another's hand-

I love our slow morning talks and routines.

Mornings like this I wish you were sitting at my kitchen table,

As I make you breakfast with love, 

Your adoring eyes looking at my ass, as I stand at the stove-

You can't help yourself but stand up and walk my way for a handful, while kissing on my neck and playfully teasing me.

Mornings like this, I wish you'd be walking beside me as I take my pup for a walk- 

The cool spring breeze excites us for the summer to come, 

We soak up the sunshine and one another, in a blissful moment shared.

But for now,

Mornings like this mean me savoring each memory we've created, hearing your voice on the other end of the line as you sneak away to say "good morning"

Mornings like this mean, words spilling onto pages as I sip my coffee wishing I was tasting you instead-

Counting down the hours until we are together again- 

On mornings like this,

I remind myself that the greater picture is so fucking beautiful, 

And so worth the wait-

All of this is temporary and "in time," as we always say, we will be exactly where we are supposed to be,

Babe, I know the thought of it excites you, the way it excites me 

Mornings like this, 

Let's hold them close-

They're building blocks on our journey-

A foundation being laid, 

And someday, 

We will look back and say,

"Remember those mornings? Look how far we've made it."

Fervor

 It's early,

I sit here and hold onto the stillness and steadiness of your breath,

After another night spent sleeping on the phone with one another. 

My coffee is hot and perfectly bitter,

A cool spring breeze dances through my home. 

Bakhoor burns while my mind swirls with the poetry that is, you.

You are the embodiment of what love should feel like.

Gentle, calm, sensitive,  understanding,  warm, protective, playful, passionate, ambitious, adventurous, open minded, safe, nurturing, kind, and patient. 

I explore the depths of my mind, untangling all of the emotions that buzz around my soul-

They're so beautiful, and intricate -

I feel encouraged to explore and express them- you create that space for me.

I see beyond the now with you,

I see the possibilities that could be if we decide to chase them unapologetically, together.

It is wild to unpack and decode, 

But life is far too short to deny ourselves what we both know we crave. 

So,

We dance-

To the sound of you humming a tune,

To the music in the grocery store and the gym,

To the sound of our heartbeats and breath.

Oh, how we dance.

And we laugh,

At the world at our feet, 

At the things that only we know and share,

At the chaos around us,

God, 

I love your laugh.

You bring me closer to my highest self,

Bringing out my favorite parts of my being,

Allowing me to step into who I truly am,

And you accept me-

And adore the intricacies I've shared with you.

You look at me as though you've found a lost treasure you weren't sure existed -

But, I'm here to tell you-

I wasn't sure that it existed either,

But it appears that we've found it together.

It's materialized and crystallized before our eyes.

Moments pass, and you have now made yourself at home in my mind and my heart,

As minutes, hours, and days pass by,

I think of you often, 

It's like you're always there. 

I'm so grateful you've decided to stay,

To explore,

To trust, 

And to open up.

You are such a work of art,

Inside and out,

I consume you with fervor and intent.

Falling more with each passing moment,

Without a care if I have a parachute attached,

Because the rush of this all,

Will be worth it.

Free falling and confident you will catch me in the end.

"Some type of way"

 You look at me,

Adoring gaze as if you're captivated-

Eyes locked with mine, 

Smile brighter than the sun...

"What?" I ask playfully

Already knowing what you're thinking,

Because I'm thinking it too. 

You play a game of tug of war,

With your words - not saying what you're thinking, as I try to pull it out of you

"When the time is right..."

You quip, 

I smirk,

Your smile gets wider

I playfully beg, acting as if I can't read what is written all over your beautiful face,

But it's there,

I see it

But you keep your lips tight,

And only say "You've got me feeling some type of way"

... "Some type of way"

As I inquire about the millions of emotions you could possibly feel, you giggle uncontrollably-

But we both know,

What "Some type of way" means

So I say back to you,

"You've got me feeling some type of way too"

Let's Do This

 All of the talks,

About this future,

We are building-

The smiles on our faces,

As we know exactly what's unfolding-

Undeniably set in stone,

The love grows,

The memories flow,

The laughter expands,

The ideas begin to materialize,

As I see it in your eyes,

In your smile...

I feel it in your touch,

And hear it in your soft whispers as I slowly wake in your arms

Beautiful woman,

Let's do this.