Soul Food

Your excitement builds,

As you craft with your hands,

A meal for me-

One dear to your heart,

One that I've come to love.

You taste along the way,

Adding the ingredients slowly-

Letting it simmer.

I help by cutting the cucumbers and tomatoes,

A small, yet meaningful gesture. 

I gently grace your back with my hand as you walk by,

And give you looks that only you can decipher-

You smile.

Egyptian bread on the side,

It's ready,

Fūl,

Made by you,

For me

I can taste the love as I nourish my body,

As you nourish my soul,

Such a small act, yet a big display of your affection.

My adoration grows.

White T-Shirt

In your white t-shirt,

Only panties underneath,

You left it here,

Knowing-

You always know 

When I wear it,

I feel your arms around me-

Feeling sexy and sweet,

Want to tease you,

Send some photos,

So your heart skips a beat

What if I told you,

I touch myself,

Looking in the mirror,

As it encompasses my curves?

Bare and raw,

Begging for your touch,

We've made a lovers' nest of my home,

And I feel your energy in every corner of it.

Your gentle touch,

My body gets instant chills as I think of your finger tips tracing every inch of me,

Memorizing,

Fantasizing, about you.

I dance barefoot,

As music blares,

Your shirt flowing as my hips move,

Wishing they were moving for you,

On top of you.

But for now,

I'll let your white t-shirt

Consume my being,

I'll let it devour my silhouette-

Leaving me wanting more,

Of you.

Tending

 Tending to your garden,

Is one of my favorite things to do-

Let me water you when needed,

Turn your face to the sunshine I share with you- 

Need to rest?

Let the moonlight rejuvenate your soul. 

I'll plant the seeds,

Singing to them as I push them into the Earth's surface, gently and with intention.

Watching them sprout,

So delicate.

I'll watch the seedlings grow into beautiful fruits of our labor,

The love, the work, the consistency pays off.

Every morning I'll sing to your growing plants,

As their roots grow deeper,

As their dead leaves shed,

As budding new life springs up.

And when we harvest,

It will be abundant-

Because this garden will have been tended to in the most loving of ways.

Holy

With you I would sin,

In all of the best ways-

Take me to Church, 

Every single day-

Oh my God, 

You're a sight,

A real fucking Saint,

Baby, you're Holy,

You're all that I crave.

I'm down on my knees,

You're watching me pray- 

Moving my mouth,

"Good girl," you would say-

Praising your body,

I'm building my Faith,

Singing hymns with your lips-

Your moans they escape.

Confess on the days,

That I'm a "Bad Girl",

"Forgive me," I'd say,

Cleansed soul in the works,

Drink you up quick, 

As I quench my thirst

I read from your scripture,

A journey unfurls 

Like the wine made from rain,

Your nectar consumed,

Like the apple by Eve,

Taste your delicate fruit,

A ritual made,

In this Eden of ours,

Awake as we study,

The millions of stars-

Let's take our sacred love, 

Redemption is here,

Bring me closer to Heaven,

As you whisper in my ear-

You're an Angel,

I know,

As our bodies transcend-

You're love's fucking holy,

I need it,

Amen.

75 Poems

Seventy-five,

Typed out,

Thought out,

Words that poured out-

Poems,

For you. 

Not including the hand written love letters,

The dozens of pages of journal entries,

The poetry we make when our bodies melt into one another.

Nine months,

Since you found me,

Since our first words exchanged,

Since you intrigued me with your energy-

Six months,

Of truly knowing you,

Of soaking up your energy,

Of falling deeper each day,

Of getting lost in all that is, you.

One hand written book,

Of every poem I've written you,

Writing until my hand cramps up,

But my heart overflows-

My final muse,

The world will know it someday.

Thousands,

Of passionate kisses,

Of moments shared,

Of smiles that graced our lips-

Of memories made,

Both big and small-

Your laughter is infectious, 

Making me spiral on my own-

Your love is:

Gentle,

Sweeter than the most pure honey,

Assertive, 

You make it clear what you want-

Playful,

Hours and hours of getting caught up in our sexual chemistry, exploring realms we haven't ever explored before.

Mindful,

You are constantly making sure I am safe, physically and emotionally 

Charming,

Damn, the way you look at me with those beautiful eyes

Honest,

Our communication is unmatched- something I know we both appreciate immensely 

Magnetic,

We are drawn to one another in a way neither of us can fully put into words. A pull so strong,  that we both acknowledge we have never felt it before- a force we can't deny. So here we are at the start of our journey, ready and eager as we start to dive in.

My love,

I will write you poems until my hands no longer work, if you'll let me.

And then,

I'll use my voice until I can no longer speak,

And I'll say it with my eyes in the moments where my voice escapes me-

I'm in awe with how we've found one another,

And I can't wait to see our future unfold.

A Mother's Love

 You'll never get to meet her,

In the ways I wish you could-

But you always tell me that you meet her through me,

Each and every day.

Through my love, my kindness, my nurturing energy-

My eyes, my stories of her, all of the parts of her, that made me.

How I wish you could experience her smile, feel how contagious her laugh was, experience her unconditional love-

But you'll only ever feel it,

Through me,

A conduit.

I've told her so much about you,

I've shared my hopes, 

My dreams,

And my deepest feelings.

I know she listens, and loves from the other side-

But sometimes,

Tears flow, because I wish it was all tangible.

In those moments, you hold me.

You kiss away my tears, 

You give me the love and support I've needed for four years now,

In a way nobody else ever could.

So lately,

I've asked her-

To visit you in your dreams...

Many times I've asked her,

But I always say "When she's ready, mom. No sooner, no later, but when she's ready." 

And this morning,

You woke-

Rolled over with a sparkle in your eyes, 

A gentle smile on your face.

"I had a dream last night..." 

"About?" I ask

"I couldn't see her face, but it was your mom."

My heart stopped,

My words caught in my throat,

A few quiet tears welled in my eyes.

You continue;

You tell me that the three of us were in a kitchen together,

It was filled with laughter,

"You were just laughing so much" 

I could feel the happiness as you explained it.

My heart full,

Knowing that the time is now,

And that she finally made herself present to you. 

That, in and of itself is a sign for me-

One that puts my heart at ease,

Knowing that my trust in this journey,

Has been worth every minute. 

Cosmos

 Mesmerized by the Northern Lights in the sky,

A mirage of the grandeur of all that is.

Lost in the Cosmos with you.

Dipping our toes in the Milky Way,

Sun bathing on Mars,

Ice Cream on Pluto,

Earth now seems so far-

You grab my hand and spin me around to watch the Moon rise on the horizon, 

We share a kiss that defies gravity-

I don't ever want to come down,

Let's create our own reality-

Float with me,

In a realm far away-

One where our worries have faded away,

Dressed in just the light from the stars,

As we glisten and sparkle,

The future is ours. 

Amore

 A beautiful night, 

An early morning -

Drenched in passion,

Our souls buzz

You, 

My love, 

Have captured my heart-

In its entirity. 

I can see that you know it,

And I see that I've captured yours.

That moment we shared,

As you left for work-

The smile on your face,

As those words danced behind your lips,

Begging to be released-

Was simply beautiful. 

Your smile,

My giggle,

Your laughter realizing I just read your mind with such ease,

Babe, 

Its written all over your face,

And I'm sure you see it on mine;

Let me taste your lips,

For they're the keepers of words unspoken-

The protectors of something sacred,

The holders of our knowing.

Little Moments

 It's the way the morning sun peeks through my bedroom curtains and kisses your smiling cheeks as you sleep in my bed-

Bundled and dreaming, I tickle your back.

The way your curls so delicately caress your face when you lean over me to kiss me...

Grabbing my face with your hands, and gazing into my eyes like you've never seen a sight like me before.

You make me feel like one of the wonders of the world, simply by the way you look at me.

It's those moments I catch you looking at me, like that, I find this knowing.

It's the smell of morning coffee that we share side by side, and the taste of coffee soaked kisses that lead to passionate morning sex.

Our bodies pressed so tightly into one another we can barely catch our breath,

Sweat dripping down our backs as we find ourselves in the most colorful fever dream.

It's the little notes we leave eachother; gentle reminders that we have one another - 

It's how many times a day we each say "I can't get enough of you" - while we know we will never have to, because our presence will have no end... yet we crave each other like the most addicting drug.

I suppose love and lust are wildly addicting-

And if that's so, I'd stay addicted to you for an eternity, 

Time and time again. 

It's you taking photos of me while I shower, while we play, or while I'm doing the most mundane things- 

If only I could see myself through your eyes- I often wonder what's on your mind,

And you respond "in time"

It's the moments you feed me food with your hands, such a small yet intimate gesture of affection-

I feel so cared for- 

It's when you wrap me so tightly in your arms, that I'm almost certain you'll never let go-

Please, don't ever let go- 

It's when my fingers trace your lips, your face, your spine- 

I'm capturing every inch of you and engraving it in my memory so that it becomes a part of my being-

You are slowly becoming just that,

A part of me. 

It's your laughter that triggers mine, 

Which triggers yours,

Which triggers mine-

A cycle we often find ourselves in,

I could live in those moments for as long as you'd let me.

It's how you don't let me walk on the inside of the street,

It's how you're so protective over me-

It's every time you're there for me-

It's all of these little moments,

That have me hooked-

Quite the feat

GS & NN

 "Let's carve our name in a tree" 

You say excitedly -

"Let's do it!" - I quip back

Your eyes get big with wonder,

Like a little kid about to do something forbidden,

"Seriously?" You didn't think I'd agree-

"Right now, let's go!" I grab your hand and we head out to find the perfect tree on this beautiful Spring night. 

The stars watch over us,

Our guides,

The moon, 

Our light-

We find the perfect tree, 

Smooth and inviting-

We giggle,

Cars whiz by, oblivious to our masterpiece in the making. 

Nice and large,

Deep and permanent-

A beautiful scar we create- 

One that will be seen for years to come.

The air is light and playful,

Just like our spirits, 

A bond carved deeper into the universe

Frequency

Tear off the roof of this home,

Expose ourself to the stars and full moon-

The way you look at me,

With such love in your eyes-

There's no denying this undying flame. 

Drenched in the sweetest sweat cascading down our bodies,

As we merge, eb and flow. 

That fucking eye contact-

Gets me every damn time. 

Your forehead pressed against mine, as we capture each other's moans and words with our lips and tongues. 

Licking every inch of you,

Tasting the most delicious energy -

Vowing to devour you,

Dedicating my time to your pleasure-

Falling deeper into the beautiful unknown with you-

But we both know,

How to read one another's mind and we smile as we do so.

Flickering candles around us as we experience a kaleidoscope of frequency beyond comprehension.

But who needs comprehension,  when we both have a knowing?

Candlelight

When she asks to make love by candlelight,

You light that whole room up with dozens of candles,

The flames looking like the stars in her eyes-

The warmth of her body against mine,

Her body between my thighs,

My tongue making her sigh-

Damn, it's about to be a beautiful night.

I Swear

 I swear 

I fall more and more,

For you,

Each

And 

Every

Day

I lay here examining my love, and the pace at which is grows and flourishes with you.

I can feel you in my core,

Part of my being.

You say you want to make love,

To my soul-

The most magical words.

And by this time tomorrow,

We will be,

My love.

Drenched

Breathing freely again,

Serenity overcomes me-

The universe is finally re-balanced.

There is a magic in your voice,

Alive and thriving- 

Your happiness starts to flourish again,

And I can't help but be overjoyed,

For you.

It is mind bending how you can mean so much to me,

Like sunshine to a budding rose.

My roots run deep, but you fuel my soul.

Let me soak up all that you emanate. 

I will overflow and fill your cup when it feels low,

I will give you my strength, when the weight of the world feels like too much to bear on your own

I will place my hand on your chest, to ground you when the world feels like it's spiraling out of control-

I can be your anchor- your rock.

Life ebs and flows,

Let me be your constant.

I smile at the thought that with each passing moment, I am closer to being in your arms-

I want to get lost in your embrace,

I want to send shockwaves through your body with my kiss and my touch-

Let's drown in our euphoria.

Remember,

This bliss, is ours to savor,

To cherish,

To devour,

To bask in.

Let's get drenched in it.

The Woman That Raised You

 Your mother,

Has become so special to me.

I am so grateful for the relationship her and I have built, and the bond that we share.

She has created the most warm and welcoming space for my soul to rest and feel safe.

She always lends an ear when needed,

Offers the best mom hugs with perfect timing,

She is truly an angel. 

We've gotten to the point where we talk every day,

Sharing bits about our day,

And things that make us laugh-

Your mom has made me want to open up to a mother figure again, 

I want to learn things from her,

I love that she shares her life stories with me,

And offers advice from a mother's perspective. 

I remember the first time she told me she loved me,

I was speechless,

And you could see it on my face - 

I couldn't believe it, 

But she said it again, "No, I really do love you"

And choking back tears, I said it back. 

We now say it with ease.

I'm so grateful that you share your momma with me.

I've talked to her about my mom, 

My God, I see similarities between them- 

My mom would have loved her,

So fucking much.

I think they would've become great friends, 

How I wish my mom could have met the woman that raised the woman I've grown to love. 

With tears in my eyes,

I bask in gratitude-

Thank you for allowing me to grow close to your family in the ways that I have,

It has healed bits of my soul.

You have so lovingly held me, 

In the moments my adoration for your momma, makes me miss mine-

I love how close you are with her-

Cherish that for all eternity.

11:59pm Oath

 Your beautiful laugh rings through the airwaves as the minutes and hours pass-

Before we know it, it is nearly midnight and we both have to get up at a reasonable hour.

We laugh at how quickly the time passed while we talked about everything from family to wishing we were tangled in bed with one another-

Pulling the other as close as humanly possible.

I can't help but be captivated by you.

All of you-

I know that you are on the precipice of a massive shift- a seismic change

And like I've promised,

I'll be there, by your side, for every single moment of it. 

Ride or Die- 

Like we said,

All of this is simply making us unbreakable,

Babe- this is how our story becomes set in stone. 

An oath until the end of time- and this is just the beginning.

90s Dreaming

 As the rain clears,

I hear baby doves chirping- 

I smell the petrichor as it floods my memories with childhood snapshots.

The remnants of a storm or Spring morning dew on my ankles as I walk barefoot in my grandmother's backyard-

Bits of mud sticking to my toes-

So carelessly happy as I walk toward the honeysuckles that beg to meet my lips.

A sweet taste,

Forever ingrained, accompanied by bleeding hearts and the songs of robins. 

Humming melodies and tiptoeing to my grandfather's garden, 

Where I take first fulls of cherry tomatoes and snack until my heart's content.

My little slice of paradise,

My home away from home.

That house had a huge hand in raising me- from it's chilly cellar, to its hand built wooden swingset, to the flowers my grandmother and I so tediously tended to.

Fresh lemonade on hot summer days,

Playing in the sprinkler in the front lawn,

Finding baby birds kicked from their nest,

Baking cookies from scratch, 

And stealing from grandpa's candy stash- 

I'd give anything to fall asleep on a cool spring evening, with the windows open, and a slow breeze tickling my face- as I lay on the living room floor, covered with a handmade quilt, falling asleep to 90s gameshows.

Connection

 You tell me that you've "never had this connection with anybody before"

You tell me "this is different" , "this is special"

You tell me that our sexual connection is "unlike anything" you've "ever experienced"

I can see it in your eyes, in your smile, and feel it in your touch.

Words cascade from your delicious lips, to my ears, traveling down my spine as they encompass my aura.

The electricity, the magnetism, the passion, the magic, the love- bubbling over in ways that is is hard for our human minds to comprehend. 

But my love,

Our souls are on fire-

They've been here before,

And we know it.

They have found each other lifetime after lifetime- 

And here we are again,

Doing this beautiful dance, 

Writing our own songs- 

Adding each second we cherish to our souls' memories.

We are reminded with each embrace,

Each kiss,

Each gentle touch,

Each whisper-

That we were meant to find one another.

A warmth, a safety, a sense of returning home-

My love,

You've taken my hand,

And I, yours-

So that we may explore all that this world has to offer us- 

We step slowly into oneness-

Enjoying every season along the way.

Falling

 And in the most beautiful, intimate moment- we finally acknowledged that we have been falling in love with one another.

Oh, how I love the way your eyes shined

Drifting Bliss

 Inhale

Exhale

Inhale

Exhale

My head on your chest,

Rising and falling with the rhythm of your slowing breath,

Your body relaxed with your arms around me,

I hear your heartbeat steady and strong,

"Give me a kiss,"

You demand in a soft tone and loving way,

Knowing it is just one more kiss that you crave before your drift into dreamland.

I oblige.

The passion encompassed in each kiss, unlike any other.

My head back on your chest, 

You gently rub my back and shoulder until you finally drift to sleep-

Though I am awake for what feels like hours after you're exploring a different realm.

I thank the Universe for this moment, 

All moments that preceded,

And all moments to come.

I finally drift too,

Only to find you in my dreams- 

Doing all of the things we've said we'd do.

Time passes,

The moon kisses us as we sleep entangled in one another's arms

For the entirity of the night,

As always.

And when I wake, I gently trace your collarbone,

Your shoulders, your chest,

Your arms, your hips, 

And the inside of your thighs-

You subconciously spread your legs a little more,

As your body absorbs my touch.

Slowly you begin to smile and stir,

Words begin to bounce between our lips,

Morning kisses and coffee to follow-

Our mornings are bliss.

Watching you come to life as the hours pass,

Is truly a sight to see- 

Captivating and invigorating. 

Precious Moment

 Laying backwards,

Onto your chest,

Between your legs,

As you rub oil all over my shoulders and chest-

You giggle,

"What?" I smile and ask

"Nothing" you quip with a smirk. Your eyes sparkling as you daydream.

"Tell me" I laugh a little and tilt my head back to look at your beautiful face.

A soft smile graces your lips,

You tell me that if I were carrying our daughter you would rub my belly for me with lotion, all the time... 

I fucking melt.

We kiss,

With fiery passion that only we know.