Under the Gun

Her eyes told a story that not a single soul knew...
But the bits and the pieces remained askew,
Amongst a few.
The curtains had closed, and the audience aplaus
Echoed through the theatre, she knew them all.
Each single one.
Convinced, they clapped, and cheered as she screamed
Inside of her head, she was merely a fiend.
Some would say better off dead.
She opened the curtains for one final bow,
Their cheers and their banter stroked her ego-
While she raised her brow.
In curiosity of what may happen next,
What would her next story be? And would it be the best one of her future legacy?
She deemed them insane, while she was the one
Who was mentally unstable
And under the Gun.

Again

Have you ever wondered where the evil inside us
Derives from?
We all have it,
But we chose to suppress the demonic force.
She is so enticing, so alluring, and once she grips you
Goodluck breathing.
Her grip is so tight that you see stars, and
Swirls
Of
Color.


She is beautiful and makes you feel at home, yet
she tortures you with your own actions.
You pull and push until you break.
Until they break.

When they break, when you break
She is convincing.
They are at fault,
and she makes you
Make them
Believe it.

Calling out your name
Undeniable lust
Nothing to say
To those you've scarred.


Her grip, it loosens, but she still has you on a tight leash.
You gasp for air, and smirk
She whispers to you, "Let's do it again..."

She Is.

Joy is in my words, in my heart
You live on.
Joy rushes through my veins, pure blissful waterfalls.
Suffocating in a summer breeze, your love enriches me.
The sunshine pushes her way through the hydrated clouds.
Their water pure, yet distorting vision
We drink her,
I drink her in.

She is swayed by the seasons,
For no reason at all.
Her story is perfectly imperfect.
She taunts reality, with her dreams,
For they are her truth.
She spits in the face of doubt.

When you drink her in, your mind gets fuzzy,
When you taste her skin,
You lose track of time.
When you catch her gaze- your words dissapear,
She is beautifully
Mentally
Unstable.

She is dressed in satin,
Yet made of fire
Her eyes scream crystal beauty-
Of the deepest seas.
Her skin tastes sweet, yet
Intoxicating you to the point of no return
You take it in, she is
Dancing.
Sweet sin, she is yours.

Sculpt

I am so close to warmth
Once again
Eternal Warmth
in your
Arms.

You are so close,
Yet millions of miles away
Your voice like an echo in an empty room,
yet filling the room
Max capacity.

My heart is yours- my body is warm, at the thought of your touch.
I reach for a sugar coated smile,
But once you return it will be engraved in me.
Chiseled like a sculpture sculpts his masterpiece.

Make me your art,
Mold me with your hands,
Inflict fire on me to twist me in ways you please.
Let your fingers guide my body,
Into pure ecstasy .

Pendulum

You.
You are a demon in the night,
intruding in on my sanity.
I blame you for the insomnia, when in reality
I have myself to blame.
For sucking you in, chewing you up
Spitting you out...

You haunt and taunt me,
But it's bittersweet.
I enjoy the pain,
Salt on an open wound, but you leave me craving
More
of you.
More of
Insane, restless, nights.

You pierce my soul with whimsical words,
Laughter claiming heart, when I'm sure it's the laughter of a monster I've created.
You peal back my layers,
and notice that they're fragile.
So you pull back your pendulum and
Swing.

Sweat Inspired Tears.

Inspire.
Your sex inspired me
Your tears inspired me
My blood inspires me.
The smell of our sweat inspired me,
How lost I became inspired me.
You inspired me.

Writing brought me back,
To the first time,
The mind.

It's incredible
The details a mind remembers,
Of
Lust.
Of sex.
Of sweet, summer, sweat.

Your tears, the sex, more tears,
Our sweat.

Take Me.

Heart drenched in wine,
Staring at the bottom of the bottle we call life.
Every last drop is so sinful, yet our bodies crave the ecstasy.
Righteous we are not, yet holy we resound.
We indulge our bodies in sin, so that our soul can feel;
The light of day, the darkness of night, the highs and the lows.

Drunken off our stupidity, and driven by lustuous love.
Clever we remain, and almost we become...
Whole.

We put poison to our lips to forget,
to remember, to remember to forget.
We let is swim through our purple veins, and suck the oxygen
Clear
Out
Of
Them.

But we feel high, we feel a rush.
So why
Stop?

Beauty is in all,
Even sin.
Taste my blood,
The sweetest poison of past and future.
I've captivated you,
Now take me.

Melt

Two hearts sewn together , and strung by an arrow

Strung up so high the stars looked up at them.

They danced in the night , to the tune of a violin...

distant, yet prominent.

They drew closer and closer together.

Their new found sun warmed them, to the point of melting

Together

Into One.

They were tattered from their past lives,

Yet whole.

They danced until the stars sang, and the moon smiled.

Lost in the night, they danced and danced. 

Fallen

She had a blank stare and no one asked her why.
 Her eyes were swollen with tears- but they came from the sky
She couldn't answer at all if you sat and inquired... 
Because only God knows that fallen angels cry for no reason at all,
 when the reason is actually that they had no clue they had fallen *

They see a reflection, and know it's not them
A shell of a body is not Heaven sent.
They sit, while confused, and smeared with a smile
How God has let angels live human for a while

Their souls know the truth, but their minds are uneasy-
Restless, Unhappy, and mostly Upset.

A spark is flickering, and manic they become- but when the night falls
They know that it's done.

One day they'll be back with their loved ones at bay,
 however it'll be a few life times, as they're light years away.
A soul does not live, just once here on earth- 
They start off as Angels, and fall to the dirt.

Freedom

And some of us are too dead to breathe, yet too alive to live.
Minutes are just the count down until our next life. Slowly slipping from one realm to the next.
We are on a continuum of "for better or for worse" and white picket fences.
A plan motorized we lose track of the flicker in our souls .
It's there. Dig deep and feed it oxygen.
Fuel it, frenzy driven.
Just take a lick of liquor and slip into your freedom.

Float

But we're all punished by our past,
And we suffer from that lash
I choke with each defense you give,
For the hand I was dealt & the hand you played.
Each from ghostly past .
Its crimson runs thick, and its salty waves crash in.
But the numbing and shaking- reminds us of sins
Committed, and bestowed.

Drowning in our anxieties...
We float.

Late Night Indulgence

Melting.
Into the Egyptian Cotton, in a place I call home.
Naked.
Still chested, eyes open, bloodshot.
Silence,
Shattered by the memories of my past.
Wasting...
Into a shell,
Already hollow- like the cruel winter breeze.
Melting,
Indulging in sinful thoughts, and into myself.
Shaking, at the thought of your warmth.
Naked,
My skin melts into the warm aura my corpse is radiating.
Silence,
My breathing shallows, on my demand.
Shattered, and weak
From the pleasure she instills.
Wasting my time,
With just a thought of you.

Kiss of Death

Have the birds sung to you lately?
What did they sing?
Was it songs of pure bliss, or a devilish dream?

Were you caught dancing, or dying?
Or suffering in between?
Like the rest of us here in what we perceive as life... in reality is
Purgatory.

Have you danced lately?
Barefoot in the moonlight? Like we used to on warm summer nights?
I dance in my dreams- I hear your laugh,
I almost see...

Have you thought of me lately? Or was I a dream?
A nightmare disguised,
A sin... accordingly to your Holy.

Have you touched my face, and my lips, or gazed at the sky,
Let's be honest now sweetheart,
The stars are my eyes.
So distant and glistening, alluring at best...
But we both know my kiss, is that kiss of sweet
Death.