Toxic Taste

Here I am ...
Lost again,
Searching for an answer- but not actively.
I close my eyes and see shades of Blue.
Damn the Blue.
The Blue, of two.

I lead several lives, within my dreams, and reality.
It sickens me - the darkness that I enjoy, the endless
Dark possibilities that I embrace.
I look for guidance, and acceptance- In pure knowledge that I am destined to be known for a destructive, and fatal attraction.

Attraction so pure, that the world won't be able to deny it's beauty.
Yet, my demons will eat me,
As I eat my prey.
First with the taste of a bleeding heart, and second with the inhale of a soul.
A lost soul, so pure and toxic,
But so sweet in it's taste.

Failed.

I wrote a song...
It's pretty good.
It means a lot.
I'm sorry.
I failed you.

Wishes.

A sacred place for you and I,
Above the clouds.
As miles elongate, and hope becomes bright.
I wish I may, I wish I might.
Send you best wishes,
In the pale moon light.

May peace finally surround you,
and may love finally find you.
Quit running, take a breath, and breathe.

Close your eyes, and sleep well tonight.
Running never felt so right.
But now you're there so take a rest,
Even if it reassures a final breath.

Since final breaths are chances many,
For one may close one chapter,
and open a plenty.

The physical strain of an emotional Demon...

She haunts my body,
The empty cavity that acts as if breathing.
Yet a heart, still beating.

Is it the act of a machine?
For standing alone, it is a dark hole.
Strings, drawn by a puppeteer.

A shadow lurks, and tiptoes, in the shadow I cast alone.
She takes form of my own, and is close enough to capture my breath.
She makes me weak.
Stealing the sweet exhale from my lips, and hugging me tight as I
Try.
To Inhale.
Short.
Gasping.
Breaths.

She teases me with questions, leaving answers unturned.
Health, or Demon?
I know she is attached, and near
But physically?

Breaking down strength,
Until dark dreams, purpose a scare.

Worth

Lost in translation,
It's the truth, the love, the reality.
Taking the worst from the past.
Making it applicable.
When reality is better than the past.
The future is bright,
and the love is true.

Teach yourself to breathe, child.
Because you are just that.
A fragile child, in the body of a woman.
Still seeking acceptance, love and eternal self.

Focus on yourself.
You are beautiful,
You are strong,
You are a lover, not a fighter,
so stop wasting your strength fighting for no reason..
This life is YOURS
Explore the world.
You are young once.

And She...
She will love you until the end.
Because, when you are happy, she is happy.
And when she is happy you are happy.
So be happy in all that you do, and at the end of each day,
You BOTH will be waiting for eachother.

Whether it be a kiss, making love, or a simple phone call through the miles.
Love is worth it,
But never forget,
That LIFE is worth Living!

Singers.

To sing.
 To laugh.
To love.
To reminicse.

Blessed

As I lay here,
Naked and nuzzled up in the warmth of a blanket that your scent lingers on,
I think.
I remind myself that I am blessed, that I am whole with you, and that you
are my One and Only.
The bed feels bigger, the walls are caving in-
yet I do not shake.
I don't shake because I know, you will return.
I know that no matter the distance, the miles, or the time-
We are one.

Our travels may cross paths, but in the end-
You will come home.
The the warmth of my arms, the beating of my heart.

This heart hibernates while you are gone,
My body goes into Auto Pilot,
yet the mind races and races.

I am blessed.
I am blessed for your love, and your efforts to make our life something grand.
I am blessed for the things that I have, and the everyday things I take for granted.
I am blessed each morning that I wake up next to you, and I am blessed when you are gone, because I
know that you are doing this for us.

I shall close these eyes soon, and
drift to a land of Windmills and Waterfalls
like I do each time.
Let's meet.
Underneath the waterfall this time,
close to the edge so our faces get wet, as we cry tears of joy
for being reunited.

I am blessed.