Experience Something Tonight.

She lays there,
Several layers of blankets try to ease her shaking,
Her ice cold body is nearly numb.
Her eyes are heavy.

She begs for a premonition,
A vision,
A sign,
A visit from another,
Or to walk among the land of dreams.

She prays to the universe,
Slowing her breathing,
To simply Experience
Something tonight.

A Quick Thank You to My Love.

It's funny how we became... This.
You grabbed my hand, promised me an adventure.
I took yours,
I trusted you.
I still do.

You took me to places I've never been,
You've made me laugh until I cried,
You made me open my eyes to new things,
New people,
New places.

You encouraged me to chase MY dreams,
And was always thankful that I supported yours.
You always told me my worth,
You have a way with words.

When I'm with you,
I feel confident,
Unstoppable,
Proud,
Loved,
Eager to learn.

Thank you, my love.
For opening my eyes to so much more.

You Love Me...

You love me at my fault,
You love me at my victories, no matter how big or small.
You love me when I'm a mess.
You love me when I'm broken,
You love me when I'm fixed...
You love me when I'm high
You love me when I'm low
You love me on the open road, wherever we may go.
You love me in the morning, and in the darkest night.
You love me when I'm wrong, and even when I'm right.
You love me when you're close,
You love me when you're far.
You love me unconditionally,
I love you even more.

Lessons.

The universe presents us with so many of them,
Lessons.
Sometimes we are blind to them,
Other times we think we know the lesson, and we are actually far off...
Then there are some days where we nail it on the head.

These lessons won't always be sweet,
Sometimes they will make us pucker and pout,
Other times they will calm our souls.

A lesson might appear as a storm,
Violent, dark, and endless.
But we should remain calm,
For the rain is cleansing our souls,
The thunder is drowning out the negativity,
The lightning is slowly guiding us through the darkness.

A lesson could appear as a facade.
A beautiful lake in front of us,
Shady trees surrounding us offering protection and relief from a desert sun,
When really,
Our mind is playing tricks on us.

We often let emotions cloud our judgment,
That is a fault we have obtained the second our souls were born into human bodies.
Being strong, spiritual souls, we have the ability to tame those emotions,
To acknowledge them, control them, and manipulate them...
And when we learn this trait of divinity,
We will be at peace.

I am slowly coming to this peace,
This rest,
This blunt, yet complex understanding.
That we are truly alone on this journey.
We may have many beautiful encounters,
We may have many ugly ones,
But at the end of each moment, we are simply ourselves, and only with ourselves.
It is much simpler than society has conditioned us to think.
Peace is much more obtainable than they want us to believe.
Serenity is at your will.

So will it into being.

Crater

A hole
Growing ,
Deeper,
Wider...

I tell you to watch your step,
You say you saw it too...
You say you want to cross it together,
So I jump,
Letting the air guide me to the other side.
I tell you to jump,
Extend my arms.
I say I'll catch you,
But you just turned and walked the other way...
Unphased

Poetry.

Poetry is painted from our darkest corners,
Places few dare to go,
And few are lucky to explore.
There is beauty in demise,
And strength in weakness.
Whispers in the night behind the falling tears,
Are heard,
But ignored,
For knowing there is still so much more.
Will is ours,
But destiny belongs to the universe.
Dive into my dark corners,
I'm sorry I can't hold your hand,
As scary as it may be,
I promise you'll be just fine.

Iridescent Windshield

Head aching
Spinning...
Nothing out of the ordinary,
Yet I'm still presented surprised.
The anxiety is back, sets in...
Jaw locked.
Here we go again.

Red and black plaid covers my breasts,
Rising and falling with the breath in my chest...
Questioning, again...

Time to look inward,
Again.

Time to focus on myself,
To please myself,
To be happy... but here I am.
Rain pouring on this all too familiar windshield.