Finality Spiral

 And it continues,

Obsessive observation-

It's a wonder how exhaustion hasn't overtaken,

An unhealthy addiction,

Driving the already insane, 

off the edge of a cliff.

You think it's hidden-

But it's written,

Each and every time-

Dozens in a day.

Well, I can tell you,

That it's slowly winding,

Down,

To a moment of finality. 

It's time to accept,

Reflect,

Move on-

Heal,

And grow.

There is no sense in grasping at the dust of the past,

When a new love has blossomed,

In a different universe-

One that you could not even fathom.

The world becomes a desolate place,

For those who wish to pace in purgatory.

The mind,

A deadly embrace-

A spiral with not an ounce of grace,

For those who long to stay stuck in self-serving, and self-sabotaging cycles.

Inward one must turn,

To truly heal the deepest wounds-

Those that make us act in selfish ways,

Despite the pain it brings others.

A journey,

Long,

Yet worth it.

Give it a shot-

For the world is only growing more cruel,

So one must hold a mirror to the darkest parts within,

And never look away-

Because the moment one does,

All comes crashing down-

Again and again,

Like a broken record on repeat-

An experience that is so familiar.

Don't get lost in the "why's

Because You are the why.

Instead,

Pivot. 

And Heal the sludge that's inside,

Of your dying and dark soul.

Day In & Day Out

 Every morning,

Regardless of time,

Could be 3am, 5am or 9am

It starts.

Our playful, loving, tango-

From soft "I miss you"s 

To "Fuck, I want you"s

Sometimes it's kisses,

And my body on yours,

While other times it's you waking me up with a call, as my sleepy voice rings with joy on the other end of the phone.

It's the constant updates on the days we are apart,

And the constant touches, kisses, glances and laughter when we are together.

Day in and Day out,

You have integrated into my life,

So carefully,

Meticulously,

Radiantly-

Every moment, 

You're on my mind,

And I, on yours-

Like we've become intertwined in the most fulfilling way...

Because we have,

And I've come to love it, with every fiber of my being, every corner of my heart, every piece of my soul.

You always give me exactly what I need,

You are so nurturing, and loving-

So aware of yourself, and of me-

I melt in your hands like clay waiting to be molded into a masterpiece,

Let's create this together-

Messy but beautiful,

Eye-catching and soul-drenching.

Day in 

And

Day out

As I fill my lungs with the purest air,

And exhale any fears-

You've shown me time and time again,

That you're not going anywhere-

And I, the same for you.

Let me cascade as we dance,

Into whatever the future may hold,

Let the rush wash over me,

And make me whole-

Let me help carry your weights, 

And watch your peace unfold-

I am here with you now,

And will remain.

Your heart is pure gold,

And I soak up the tenderness with gratitude -

Embodying all that we are and what we could be.

No crystal ball,

Just slowly building,

Day in and Day out-

You amaze me,

And I adore you, for all that you are. 

Every last piece.

Simply Me & You

 I could linger in this moment,

For lifetimes to come- 

Surrounded by this ethereal feeling.

I could linger here with you, 

Until the world ceases to exist-

And when that happens, 

I'll remember you,

As you will have been imprinted in my soul.

I'll find you amongst the stardust and ashes,

Time and time again-

And remind you of the beauty that we share,

And the love that we grew together.

I'll show you the memories we've made, 

And it will all come rushing back,

It will feel familiar and like home-

This world we live in is temporary,

But energy lasts forever-

The alchemy we create is undeniably ours,

And untouchable.

Travel through each galaxy with me,

Sip on the stars, like we used to sip tea-

Make love amongst the astroids,

And let me shelter you from black holes.

Travel with me,

Here and now,

Then and there.

Expand our horizons together, 

As we melt into all that we could possibly create.

Intimate

 Let my mind roam for a minute,

Let me dive in for a minute,

Let me go deep, and get wet, and spread you open for a minute

Let me get freaky, get nasty, get trashy for a minute...

Tell the whole world exactly what I'd do to you, for a minute...

I want to lick your neck as I make my way to your ear, to whisper exactly how badly I want to taste your sweet pussy on my lips,

My tongue salivates at the thought of it dancing around your clit, 

Making your back arch, as you take a fist full of my hair-

Making unwavering eye contact with me.

I'm on my knees, bare and vulnerable, 

Begging "please" as you tease me.

Let's add a ball-gag for the fuck of it.

I want to slide my fingers inside of you as you let out a sigh,

My name on your lips, my teeth on your thighs-

My grip on your ass,

Ecstacy in your eyes...

Tie me up, 

Tell me how,

I'm such a "good girl" and a "bad girl" while you fuck my mouth-

Bend me over your lap,

And spank my ass-

With gentle kisses in between.

Let me climb on top of you, 

Let me ride you, with your hands on my hips,

Telling me how I'm the most beautiful woman to ever exist- 

And between my sighs of pleasure,

I'll say "no babe, that's you." 

I want to bite your lip, 

Have you suck on my tit,

Leave hickeys on my ass,

So I'll never forget - 

Exactly who I belong with. 

I want to fuck you with your knees by your head, as I dive deeper-

Watch your eyes roll back, as you say "please" and "thank you"

Let me tie you to the bed, 

I'll bend over and spread open wide for you,

Until you can't take it anymore- 

Squirming because you need a taste. 

Whisper to me while we are out for dinner, that you want me as dessert, 

Slip your hand between my legs,

Telling me exactly how you're going to have your way with me when we get back-

Fuck me in the back seat of your car,

Messy, hot, sweaty, kinky, and playfully

Hoping we don't get caught- 

Baby, what if we get caught?

Do you want to take some pictures of me?

If I'm feeling sassy, put me in my place- 

Especially when I say "No"

Use me how you want to, 

I'm yours for the night, the day, the week, until you're done with me-

God, I know you'll never be done with me-

This electric connection is something only we can see, can feel, can taste, can touch.

Chills crawl down my spine as you tell me to fuck you, 

I simply can't get enough of you-

Then we cool down,

Take it slow-

Create a love that no one knows,

Except for us-

Pulling one another closer, 

Wrapping your arms around me, 

Kissing me slowly and passionately,

Looking into my eyes as you gaze into my soul,

Saying words unspoken.

I wrap my legs around you, 

We reach climax, 

After climax,

After climax

Together -

And then,

The slowness,

Of soaking up the moment,

Soaking up eachother. 

Holding hands,

Tickling the small of my back,

While I gently trace your face with my finger tips...

I love the way we eb and flow,

So fucking

Intimate.

Asra & Art

 Not sure the year,

But a few from now-

In a different place,

Building and growing. 

Our beautiful daughter,

Bouncing curls like yours-

Maybe 8 or 9 years old.

A parent teacher conference,

For art class - 

Our little girl expressing herself through color, despite the instructions to create in charcoal -

Black and white.

The concern from her art teacher regarding her lack of following direction made me giggle inside,

Because she has such a free spirit-

Not one to be tamed. 

And your face,

Oh my God,

Your face-

I laugh now thinking about it.

Pure shock and utter irritability-

"Art is subjective, how can you even grade her on her own interpretation?" 

And here we go,

I fight back my laughter and try not to let it show on my face. 

Because I know you, 

And how you think that social construct is absolute bullshit.

The teacher explains the assignment again, as if you didn't hear,

Asra playing with a doll at another table behind us, oblivious to the conversation at hand. 

She has such peace of mind in her own little world,

I smile, knowing this won't affect her.

You roll your eyes, and kindly say "Ma'am,  I understand the assignment, but do you understand that art is subjective?" 

In that moment I realize how much I adore you,

I love how you advocate for those you love,

Your love is so deep and apparent, 

The giggles build inside of me, because I swear I can read your mind. 

And I wake , from the sound of my actual laughter

Inevitable

 There is so much inevitable about Us.

There is such certainty in my heart and soul that things will continue to unfold as they have thusfar,

While uncovering all of the endless possibilities ahead of us. 

You have become such a beacon of light in my world,

And I'll capture and cherish it, every moment I get.

We hold something sacred.

It is delicately crafted to meet each of our needs and desires-

While exceeding all expectations we've had.

A pleasant surprise, to say the least.

Who would've known back in August of last year that this would have blossomed into what it has?

Who would've known that from December to now, we would have fallen this deep?

Only Goddess and the Universe;

Who have conspired to connect our souls in the most intricate ways.

You are slowly becoming a piece of me, and I a piece of you.

Each step meticulously taken, with trust and hope-

Each moment delivering a satisfaction neither of us have experienced before,

Sasiating a hunger we knew we had deep down.

Our glasses slowly filling with droplets of love, 

Unconditionally- 

Expanding in the spaces where we need it most,

A life force fueling all that we could possibly want or need.

Shockwaves course through my veins with each kiss, each gentle touch, each gaze with words unspoken-

We study one another, fascinated by the other's magic and glow.

The truth is,

We've both been glowing a lot more,

We have been radiant as we go throughout our days- 

Both together, and apart. 

Strangers notice, friends notice, our families notice.

But what is most important, is that We notice,

And we know that this is something special,

Something unbreakable, 

Something undeniably meant to be-

As we say, the perfect timing.

Watching us water and grow this delicate seed, has proven to be one of the most enjoyable tasks I've taken on with you. Watching it sprout, and peek its face towards the sun, is just the beginning of all that's to come.

The first of many things we will grow together, 

Sow together,

Reap together.

Bask in the sunlight today and feel my kiss, 

My arms around you will be soon to follow.

Wild Beautiful Ride

  "Fuck it, let's just skip everything and get married..."

"I'd marry you tomorrow..." 

Bold statements,

Followed by pinky promises and more talks of kids-

Our kids,

Our future,

Our "what could be" life. 

You so badly want to hear the words escape my lips-

And you know they're there,

And I hear them through your gaze. 

You are such a God damn dream-

You may tell me that I have "all of the qualities you've ever wanted in a partner," but darling, the truth is, you have all of the ones I could have asked for too.

We vow to navigate this terrain together-

While it may have its bumps, twists and turns- we've found a way to make it beautiful. 

We have healed one another so much, and I love the way we glow, especially when we are together. 

Kissing you today outside,  I was captivated by your light as the sun kissed the sides of our faces. You looked like an angel, standing unapologetically in front of me. 

I could drown in your laughter, and die happy- truly,  happy. 

We count down the minutes and hours until we are wrapped in one another's arms again - but despite the space, I feel your energy and your love wrapped around me...tightly..

 Holding me in a sacred space;

One that only we share. 

It is so strong and safe, honest and accepting... 

A place I could easily call "home." 

Which is why we laugh, as we share dreams and day dreams - because as ridiculous as it may sound, we both simply could see it. 

You feel right, you fit right, you are right- 

And my heart is full yet again. 

I'll hold onto yours with care, as you have mine. 

It is so wildly beautiful, this ride.