Weary Eyes- Court Driven Streets

It's the way I go, the way I travel, more times than not,
in this small town.
The city is big, but small enough to allow the past to creep, and lurk.
Intoxication normally brings me to this path,
whether uppers or downers.

A road.
A road of trial.
A road that once familiarized my thoughts with the word "home."

The memories swarm me at times unforgivable,
moments unforgettable.
Stress pinches my neck, my heart sinks.
I try to remind myself of all of the swarming negativity that once flooded my chaotic life,
yet there are lulls of happiness that make me angry.
Angry that I even think of them,
Disgusted that I even weigh them as more than the terrible woes.

But I dream of better days,
days that I had...
Even better ones that I hold now, since the sun began to shine again.

Too bad life is forever finite,
Although I think I'm a stronger believer that life goes on.
Maybe in a different life this will all make sense?
Until then,
Let thy weary eyes rest.

Her Name Is...

Wake up.
The sound of rain is lulling, in a sense warning me.
She is back,
A life long friend, a deadly foe.
She lingers in my brightest hour,
devouring my soul in its darkest.
A beautiful demon in the night, with gripping claws as the day goes by.

A mirror,
Distorted reality spits back in my face, as her voice whispers-
"Perfection is a must"
Acceptance is inevitable.
Ripples grace my skin starting below my neck.
Two distinct, solid, beautiful, pertrustions.
Delicate bones. I touch them.
To feel their brittle power, makes me crave more.

She whispers, "Where are the rest?"
My dear friend,
my finger tips slide down my bare skin to spaces underneath my shrinking breasts.
I stop...Eleven, one is missing.
I push, and it appears.
My heart sinks, as I feel her cold grip on my hips.
Unacceptable.

Our relationship invokes a bittersweet symphony,
The music of melodies clashing with the bass of a horror flick.
She grabs my hand, reassuring me that she loves me, that she cares,
While deceiving the reality of all that I've earned.

Shaking.
Anxiety runs through my blood in fear of her grasp,
while embracing her warmth.
The single most beautiful entity to grace my entirity.
She tiptoes while releasing me to the cold, porcelain, snow white tiles.
Fingertips through my dry, breaking hair,
Tying it back- routine like.

Expelling my body of the demons she disapproves of.
Meaningful struggles, beautiful embrace.
Cold.
Blurred vision, as salty streaks reach my lips.
Up.
Lighter than a feather.
Counting again, this endless number game.
Back to the top.
Twelve.
Relief.

Delicately she casts shadows where each bone lies.
She smiles in pride.
My best friend, yet she breathes my death.
Her name is Ana.

Drink Me

"Drink Me"
That's what she said,
Resounding voices in my head.
"Touch me"
Escapes from her lips,
Desire takes over, I'm gripping her hips.
My fingers gently grace her skin,
Releasing sounds from deep within.
Drowning desperately, deeper and deeper
Spiraling distinctly into oblivion.
Unleashing our love, where to begin?
Inhaling your passion with each breath I take,
Falling,
Harder into you each beat your heart makes.
So fall into me, with all that you are
each note, that's played on Love's guitar.

Don't fear or fret, for falling feels phenomenal.

Sing Song Love

Miles separate those
whose lips have met.
Yet, hearts grow intertwined.
Their love, unfurls
as time goes by,
with hints of well aged wine.
It is as if their souls were one,
Separated in another life,
Joined together once again,
an ageless love defined.
Two hearts as one,
a future grows-
Pure destiny not denied.
The beauty in these traveling souls,
on with each other relies.

Appology

To all those I've done wrong,
I'm sorry from the depths of my soul.
If I've ever slighted you, or lied to you
My appology is sincere.
From this point on, I vow to myself
to avoid betrayal and lies.
To pay it forward and do good in the world.
I can only hope and pray that forgiveness and healing is in order.
Lord help them and help me,
Find solitude and comfort in you and peace in
My life.
I will feel free
Happy
and
at
Peace.
I Will.

United

Enter,
Mind, Body, and Soul.
Release.
Let go of tension and experience full bodily pleasure,
Dancing with emotional bliss.
Promises cross my lips, of love and eternity
I close my eyes tuning out all entities tied to this world.
Now,
She shows me meaning-
Internally exhaling colors that Scream
Aesthetically pleasing sights.
My fingertips will trace her outlines,
Silhouettes, in the moon lit night.
The taste of her skin on my lips,
the taste of her breath on my tongue...
Heavy and sweet.
Her sweat in pleasure, alluring.
Gentle touching, gracing, skin, chill enhancing.
I will loosen her body, opening her mind, and embracing her
Heart in mine.
Euphoria will be reached as a peak of enchantment
Together as one.
United.

Unbreakable

Free me, Sweet
Old, Sun
Of all that I've done wrong.
My love is true and pure,
as clear the night is long.
She is all I've ever wanted, all that I
Adore.
My love for her;
Unbreakable.
Her kiss, it makes me soar.
My life is now complete,
as long as she will
Stay.
I hope to hold her dearly, until a wedding day.
So young,
You say.
You,
Speculate.
Yet- Sometimes you just,
Know.
My future wife- she wants to be, for this I surely
Know.