Unbreakable

Free me, Sweet
Old, Sun
Of all that I've done wrong.
My love is true and pure,
as clear the night is long.
She is all I've ever wanted, all that I
Adore.
My love for her;
Unbreakable.
Her kiss, it makes me soar.
My life is now complete,
as long as she will
Stay.
I hope to hold her dearly, until a wedding day.
So young,
You say.
You,
Speculate.
Yet- Sometimes you just,
Know.
My future wife- she wants to be, for this I surely
Know.

Jaded Brief Moment

Drenched in my past, yet the sun's beaming
love seems to dry me.
Days merge into nights and nights flow with
the sky.
Stars gaze down at the winter snow, sharing
their glimmer and light.
Crystaline winks passed down from the skies
to the naked sinful earth.
Such a jaded and poisoned world we live in.

Chilled.

Chills of excitement grace my naked skin,
Warmth fills my heart and soul as a smile skims my lips.
My love.
She fills me with life, breathing eternity
into me while awakening the depths of my body.
As time passes our love flourishes and thrives under a never setting sun.
Her smile puts constilations to shame, and brings
tears of joy to the moon's eyes.
I close my eyes as she travels, just to gaze into hers.
My memory will cease to fail me, for thoese eyes,
Her eyes whisper love and...

Dear Followers

How have you been?
Sorry I have lacked in posts lately :) But I am back! I am about to bombard you with things I wrote in my notebook over the past few weeks :) Read on!

Truth is...

I want to marry her.
I am going to marry her.
Holy fuck.

THIS is what it's supposed to feel like :)
Incredibly in love.

She will be my wife... if it is the last thing I do <3

ThisAnxietyInsideOfMe

Struggles.
Something I have become numb to,
Acustomed to.
However I still see new hints of madness on the horizon.
I have settled into my most favorite diesease and embraced my dear Ana.
She lingers on my lips, behind my teeth, in the back of my throat.
The pit of my stomach.
Guilt fills my soul as I even think about
Skin and Bones are my love, my life.
Down five pounds in one week.
By next week hoping to be down ten total.
And hopefully 15 in three weeks.

Destined love of Ana.
A love undeadly.
Immortal.
A disease of the mind and body.
It is a disease.
It's not as easy as saying "Stop" or wanting to stop.
Impossible.

I sort of want to curl into a bawl.
Wither.
Disapear.
Die.
Only sometimes.
WinterDepression is what they call it.
The end.

This anxiety inside of me is taking conrol.
Breaking me free from all I know.
Xany is my bestfriend tonight, all of three.
Goodnight Winter Wind.

fxd

Vomiting.
 Comfort in the shakes.
Weak.
More water.
Disease.
Shaking.
Fuzzy blanket on bare skin.
Naked beneath.
Shaking. Heat up all the way.
Fucked.