Easy

As I look in your eyes, I see galaxies and lifetimes unfolding before mine. 

I get lost for a moment,

But you let me take you in-

Patiently and calmly.

We exchange words unspoken,

With glances and laughter,

Touches and kisses,

That transcend us.

Above the clouds we play and explore- creating a safety neither of us have experienced.

We unravel and expose the truest versions of ourselves.

We slowly begin to uncover,

What's written in the cards and the stars- since before we each took our first breath. 

With you,

It is easy-

All of it.

The giving into your embrace,

Getting lost in your eyes-

Getting drunk on your smile-

Getting high on the most intoxicating sex.

Conversations for hours-

Exposing my feelings and fears-

You make it easy to be unapologetically me.

Make love to my soul as you undress my mind- 

Sweet, sticky, honey drips between my thighs-

Taste my bliss, as I slowly become addicted. 

And let me make it easy for you too-

Easy for you to trust me,

Easy for you to shed light on the darkest corners of you- 

Let me ease you into your day with sweet kisses and words-

Let me come to you, and take that drive off of your plate.

I want to make it easy for you to breathe,

And fall into me.

So I speak to my guides, and ask them to continue to show me- and allow me to see, all of the beauty that could, and will be.

Mine

 I'm sitting here,

Meditating on what I'm actually feeling - 

At first I wondered if, in fact, I was not trusting the way I said I was...

But no, that's not it. 

I fully trust you. 

Then I wondered, if it was fear of not being chosen - or simply having to compete...

But no, that's not it either. 

But I've figured it out -

After an anxiety filled birthday - 

A day that I thought would feel differently. 

After tarot, and herbal magic...

It hit me, 

I'm having a feeling of simply not being enough... and holy fuck...

When I realized that, I wanted to vomit. 

I haven't felt that way in easily over a decade. 

I told myself I'd never put myself in a position to feel that way again,

Yet I'm here.

A decade older and wiser-

And acknowledging the feeling.

I'm holding space for this feeling,

Inspecting and examining it. 

Why do I feel this way? 

Is it my own perception? 

My own fears? 

My past setting off alarm bells?

I need to extinguish this feeling,

Embrace my innate confidence,  that I've grown to stand in. 

This feeling, is temporary. 

This feeling, is based on falsified perceptions in this current moment. 

It simply,

Is not true. 

I am wildly more than enough,

I have the world to offer and an abundance of unconditional love. 

I am a fucking Goddess. 

I am powerful, magical, magnetic and radiant.

I am the epitome of beauty inside and out.

I am adventurous and a free spirit.

I am successful and building this fucking beautiful, unbreakable empire. 

I deserve the fucking world. 

I deserve respect, unconditional love, playful love, sexual magnetism, and the most serene peace.

All of that will be mine,

Because it is already mine.

Psychic Fuckery

Being gifted with clairvoyance and the ability to tap in to the supernatural, 

Is such a blessing and a curse.

I know things before I'm told,

I see things before they happen,

I hear the guidance of my spirit guides, as well as those who have passed...

And it is a beautiful dichotomy.

On one hand, I wish I could just live in ignorance,

While on the other hand, I revel in the beauty that spirit shares with me.

Some things are pure, other things are maleficent. 

I release my human ego, and open myself to surrender,  to trust, and to fully receive. 

Everybody is trying their best,

This realm we live in, is simply a place where lessons are learned. 

Everything is eternal and temporary at the same time. 

Shedding expectations, and embracing the fact that we are all one, flowing through the bullshit and coming out on the other side.

I catch myself holding my breath,

But forcing myself to release it.

Beautiful daughter of the winter hills,

You are protected.

You are loved.

You are safe, and safe to trust.

Let spirit guide you,

Go run amok,

Barefoot running, the earth they touch. 

You are grounded, you are self-less,

You are unconditional love.

You are so much more than human form,

A light that guides the lost. 

Dollar in my Pocket

 I find myself tripping,

On all of the analogies, synchronicities, and future memories- that come to me.

How did I find you?

The most pleasant surprise -

Unexpected and smile inducing.

Look at what you've done to me,

Have me reading into everything,

Or is everything simply spelling it out for me?

Like a dollar in my pocket,

Never knew I'd find you here,

A moment that I've caught it,

Something swirling in the air-

Skimming high fives as I found it, 

Breathing in the winter air,

Found this dollar in my pocket,

And suddenly you're here.

Unexpected, elevated, curious kind of care-

A sprinkle of joy into my life, 

Wondering how you made it here-

But accepting is receiving, 

Let go of all my fears-

You're like this dollar in my pocket, 

Always there, but just appeared.

Red & Gold

 There you stood,

Wrapped in the most beautiful red dress, embossed with intricate gold stitching - 

The most pure smile on your face,

Your eyes glowing with happiness and peace.

A gold crown was placed gently on your head, as your beautiful dark curls cascaded down your shoulders, neck and back. 

I was speechless,

My breath stolen from me, by your beauty.

A goddess was standing right in front of me- and she, was You.

I looked at you with loving eyes, as you looked back at me and smiled. 

I snap back into reality,

Back on my couch, sipping coffee- forever cherishing this little glimpse of your soul.

Trustfall

 Trustfall into me, as I have into you-

I know this is just the beginning,

I know that you're afraid,

But take my hand.

I promise to be gentle with your sweet soul,

My words are true, 

So let my actions prove.

Let go of the "what ifs" and "maybes"

Because baby, there is something so breathtaking here; it's worth exploring.

Steal my breath, with each of yours,

And as you do, I'll hold you close-

Showing you, that you have a soft place to land.

This is me:

Raw, and unfiltered

Pure and loving.

I take care, and hold each and every piece of what others give to me;

Never faltering.

My roots are strong, and I have a confidence in my character,

Let me peel back my layers and lay them at your feet, 

While showing you it is OK to be exposed.

I want to swim in the depths of you, only coming up for air when my vision starts to go dark, and my body numb. 

Let my Siren songs echo in your caverns, as you quietly sing them back to me.

I'll dive in,

I just need you to let me,

To trust me,

To collide with me.

Fall into my arms, 

For my heart will protect yours.

Fall into my eyes, 

And jump off your cliff of uncertainties - 

Free fall, and experience the rush.

I'll catch you, if you let me.

Replay

 I press replay a thousand times,

On these few memories of you and I.

I transport back to the feeling of when your lips first met mine, and I dive off the deep end- 

A kaleidoscope.

I'll happily spiral up the staircase to replay the way your nectar tastes, a sweetness I am now addicted to.

Imprinted in my memory,

I'm slowing becoming addicted to all of you...

You push me down, then eat me out- as I gently tug on your beautiful curls. Your eye contact unravels me with ease.

The feeling of you on top of me, 

Me, on top of you

Us ...

At points I lose track of where my body ends and yours begins, and I revel in that bliss.

Ecstacy is where you take me, leading me gently, playfully, yet with confidence and assertion.

It's the quiet whispers at the restaurant, the hand on the small of my back at the coffee shop, the hard kisses in the parking lot- I play them on repeat. 

I often wonder, do you think of me? Do these memories made fuel you, they way they fuel me? Are you left wanting more and on the edge of your seat? 

Because I've laced my lips with mysteries and spells- dropping bits of my soul, for you to feast on. 

You slowly continue to crack open my shell, and inside you discover the depths of my Hell and the heights of my Heaven. 

Spellbound, and intrigued

Let me in, as I am letting you- I promise to hold the most fragile parts of you, with the utmost care. 

Let me see your Heaven and Hell.

I am bare, please join me.