Butterfly Garden

 Her beautiful brown eyes, 

Staring up at me with love, excitement and intrigue.

Short curls bounced around her face- 

She lets go of my pinky-

Walking ahead of me with eyes wide open and ready to take in the wonder.

Three or four years old, 

Innocence is her aura.

Butterflies swirling around, a crisp spring air- 

Short and sweet- a brief moment captured in my memory.

Feeling blissful, calm, and so incredibly at peace-

Right exactly where I was meant to be. 

The overwhelming feeling of family and home.

A blue butterfly lands on her precious little nose,

A giggle and a smile as she looks back up at me-

My heart is stolen by this little girl;

My daughter-

My forever partner by my side-

Drop In

 Open up,

Give in,

Let go,

Experience. 

Me,

You,

Us.

This.

Magic.

Trust,

Lust,

Possible love-

Explore,

Catch,

Drop in,

Peace.

Bliss,

Laughter,

Pure energy.

Playful,

Supportive,

Warmth.

A journey of a lifetime.

Too Much

 I am not "too much"

Maybe I say "too much"

I can't keep my tongue from spilling my guts.

Then I spiral and overthink,

That maybe my weirdness is "too much" and simply should be reeled in-

But I crave sharing it all,

Because there is something that makes me feel safe to authentically express- even if it is "too much"-

But maybe,

I'll take the tiniest step back, keep closer some of the magic- because I want you to trust that I'm not "too much" but simply "enough"

Easy

As I look in your eyes, I see galaxies and lifetimes unfolding before mine. 

I get lost for a moment,

But you let me take you in-

Patiently and calmly.

We exchange words unspoken,

With glances and laughter,

Touches and kisses,

That transcend us.

Above the clouds we play and explore- creating a safety neither of us have experienced.

We unravel and expose the truest versions of ourselves.

We slowly begin to uncover,

What's written in the cards and the stars- since before we each took our first breath. 

With you,

It is easy-

All of it.

The giving into your embrace,

Getting lost in your eyes-

Getting drunk on your smile-

Getting high on the most intoxicating sex.

Conversations for hours-

Exposing my feelings and fears-

You make it easy to be unapologetically me.

Make love to my soul as you undress my mind- 

Sweet, sticky, honey drips between my thighs-

Taste my bliss, as I slowly become addicted. 

And let me make it easy for you too-

Easy for you to trust me,

Easy for you to shed light on the darkest corners of you- 

Let me ease you into your day with sweet kisses and words-

Let me come to you, and take that drive off of your plate.

I want to make it easy for you to breathe,

And fall into me.

So I speak to my guides, and ask them to continue to show me- and allow me to see, all of the beauty that could, and will be.

Mine

 I'm sitting here,

Meditating on what I'm actually feeling - 

At first I wondered if, in fact, I was not trusting the way I said I was...

But no, that's not it. 

I fully trust you. 

Then I wondered, if it was fear of not being chosen - or simply having to compete...

But no, that's not it either. 

But I've figured it out -

After an anxiety filled birthday - 

A day that I thought would feel differently. 

After tarot, and herbal magic...

It hit me, 

I'm having a feeling of simply not being enough... and holy fuck...

When I realized that, I wanted to vomit. 

I haven't felt that way in easily over a decade. 

I told myself I'd never put myself in a position to feel that way again,

Yet I'm here.

A decade older and wiser-

And acknowledging the feeling.

I'm holding space for this feeling,

Inspecting and examining it. 

Why do I feel this way? 

Is it my own perception? 

My own fears? 

My past setting off alarm bells?

I need to extinguish this feeling,

Embrace my innate confidence,  that I've grown to stand in. 

This feeling, is temporary. 

This feeling, is based on falsified perceptions in this current moment. 

It simply,

Is not true. 

I am wildly more than enough,

I have the world to offer and an abundance of unconditional love. 

I am a fucking Goddess. 

I am powerful, magical, magnetic and radiant.

I am the epitome of beauty inside and out.

I am adventurous and a free spirit.

I am successful and building this fucking beautiful, unbreakable empire. 

I deserve the fucking world. 

I deserve respect, unconditional love, playful love, sexual magnetism, and the most serene peace.

All of that will be mine,

Because it is already mine.

Psychic Fuckery

Being gifted with clairvoyance and the ability to tap in to the supernatural, 

Is such a blessing and a curse.

I know things before I'm told,

I see things before they happen,

I hear the guidance of my spirit guides, as well as those who have passed...

And it is a beautiful dichotomy.

On one hand, I wish I could just live in ignorance,

While on the other hand, I revel in the beauty that spirit shares with me.

Some things are pure, other things are maleficent. 

I release my human ego, and open myself to surrender,  to trust, and to fully receive. 

Everybody is trying their best,

This realm we live in, is simply a place where lessons are learned. 

Everything is eternal and temporary at the same time. 

Shedding expectations, and embracing the fact that we are all one, flowing through the bullshit and coming out on the other side.

I catch myself holding my breath,

But forcing myself to release it.

Beautiful daughter of the winter hills,

You are protected.

You are loved.

You are safe, and safe to trust.

Let spirit guide you,

Go run amok,

Barefoot running, the earth they touch. 

You are grounded, you are self-less,

You are unconditional love.

You are so much more than human form,

A light that guides the lost. 

Dollar in my Pocket

 I find myself tripping,

On all of the analogies, synchronicities, and future memories- that come to me.

How did I find you?

The most pleasant surprise -

Unexpected and smile inducing.

Look at what you've done to me,

Have me reading into everything,

Or is everything simply spelling it out for me?

Like a dollar in my pocket,

Never knew I'd find you here,

A moment that I've caught it,

Something swirling in the air-

Skimming high fives as I found it, 

Breathing in the winter air,

Found this dollar in my pocket,

And suddenly you're here.

Unexpected, elevated, curious kind of care-

A sprinkle of joy into my life, 

Wondering how you made it here-

But accepting is receiving, 

Let go of all my fears-

You're like this dollar in my pocket, 

Always there, but just appeared.