If We So Dare

 Laughing until tears flow freely,

My cheeks hurt,

And I can't stop-

The night encompasses us through the airwaves-

As my laugh triggers yours,

And the cycle continues.

Sweet and innocent,

I'm a little stoned-

And the serious question of pancakes or waffles arises-

We fall on the same page

Thank Goddess- 

But an even more serious topic arises-

How chocolate chips do not belong in pancakes.

You think I'm joking,

But I stand my ground-

We spiral and get ourselves into a sticky situation,

Pun intended-

Into the oblivion we fall-

And beautifully divide,

Able to laugh at the other's opinion on each matter-

Minutes pass ever so slowly,

And I can't seem to catch and bottle up my laughter- 

And instead of being embarrased, 

I can feel how much you love it- 

I can hear how much it engulfs you.

You actually love my little quirks-

And a moment of beauty,

Seriousness,

And fantasy arises-

You tell me how if you had a daughter,

With your future wife,

You'd get up early as your wife sleeps-

Gently wake your daughter and whisper:

"Let's make your mom pancakes in bed"

My heart skips a beat,

You continue to tell me all of the adorable things- 

Building this ideal future,

It is beautiful,

I want to capture it and turn it to gold,

So that I can savor it forever. 

A gentle tear of joy graces my cheeks,

For I can see it vividly,

I can feel all of the emotions that come with it

Bizzare-

But I embrace it,

As I have, everything, with you.

A surreal experience, we are destined to.

You're as sweet as the sugar that coats my throat,

With each bite,

Each sip,

Each taste-

Let me drown in your sweetness,

And soak up your loving,

My favorite flavor,

So fulfilling.

Wrap me in your daydreams,

And hold me in your deepest desires,

A space that we will explore together,

Getting lost, never tired,

Of one another.

Your soul has truly captured mine,

Bound to you- 

A fairytale as old as time-

But something brighter,

On the horizon,

Entices us to full step in, 

And immerse ourselves.

I'd get lost with you,

On any day,

In any place,

In any galaxy that awaits- 

Guided by your laughter,

The shine in your eyes,

The electricity in your touch,

And the magic between your thighs-

And each story,

Each "what if"

Each deep talk,

Each gentle touch,

Each passionate love,

Each moment wrapped in us,

Takes us there-

To our destination,

If we so dare.

8pm Rambles

 How are you even real?

Calling me your future wife,

Generating AI photos of our future children and sending them to me-

We giggle together as we go through them.

We've created such a beautiful potential future life together,

That I feel the alchemy working-

We are manifesting it,

And to put it lightly,

It is wild. 

Our talks yesterday took us to a whole new level,

What it means to love,

To fall in love,

To be in love...

How we'd care for one another in moments of darkness, 

How we'd dance together in moment of joy-

Telling me today that you would go to the ends of the Earth to find me,

If need be.

But you've already found me-

Who the fuck are you,

And where have you been all of my life?

We know that the timing was divine-

In God's timing, and Inshallah we will find our permanent place in one another's lives.

Gratitude is an understatement. 

My Eyes Are Not My Own

 A glimpse,

A moment, 

My eyes meet my own-

Standing in front of me as I take off my makeup after a lovely day.

I quickly look away,

A habit I formed back when you left this earth,

For my eyes are your own,

Over the years, I've tried to fall in love with them again-

Shades of green, speckled with blue that comes from you.

My first thought tonight was,

"Wow"

Captivated by the quick glimpse of beauty that nearly escaped me with the moment.

But then it hits me,

I force myself to look back,

And I see you.

I see you so vividly,

In my image.

And I smile,

Fighting back some tears. 

I chuckle, because in this moment I realize, I feel most beautiful when I see you in me.

I've looked away for so long,

Trying to forget the pain of the loss,

Even my own father doesn't look me in the eyes the same anymore,

Because he sees you-

It took my brother years to open back up to me, 

Because he feels you-

My own grandmother won't answer my calls,

Because she hears you.

But what they don't realize, is that you are a part of each of us-

I just happen to outwardly portray it.

So,

I tell you how I feel,

A smile slips back across my lips.

I love you dearly,

And feel you with me, 

Every waking moment,

Of every day. 

You are my soul-

I embody the unconditional love that you instilled in me at such a young age.

Visit me soon,

In my dreams,

Because only there, you become tangible. 

My eyes are not my own,

I share them with an angel,

And I hope that even strangers can see your light when they look into my eyes.

Finality Spiral

 And it continues,

Obsessive observation-

It's a wonder how exhaustion hasn't overtaken,

An unhealthy addiction,

Driving the already insane, 

off the edge of a cliff.

You think it's hidden-

But it's written,

Each and every time-

Dozens in a day.

Well, I can tell you,

That it's slowly winding,

Down,

To a moment of finality. 

It's time to accept,

Reflect,

Move on-

Heal,

And grow.

There is no sense in grasping at the dust of the past,

When a new love has blossomed,

In a different universe-

One that you could not even fathom.

The world becomes a desolate place,

For those who wish to pace in purgatory.

The mind,

A deadly embrace-

A spiral with not an ounce of grace,

For those who long to stay stuck in self-serving, and self-sabotaging cycles.

Inward one must turn,

To truly heal the deepest wounds-

Those that make us act in selfish ways,

Despite the pain it brings others.

A journey,

Long,

Yet worth it.

Give it a shot-

For the world is only growing more cruel,

So one must hold a mirror to the darkest parts within,

And never look away-

Because the moment one does,

All comes crashing down-

Again and again,

Like a broken record on repeat-

An experience that is so familiar.

Don't get lost in the "why's

Because You are the why.

Instead,

Pivot. 

And Heal the sludge that's inside,

Of your dying and dark soul.

Day In & Day Out

 Every morning,

Regardless of time,

Could be 3am, 5am or 9am

It starts.

Our playful, loving, tango-

From soft "I miss you"s 

To "Fuck, I want you"s

Sometimes it's kisses,

And my body on yours,

While other times it's you waking me up with a call, as my sleepy voice rings with joy on the other end of the phone.

It's the constant updates on the days we are apart,

And the constant touches, kisses, glances and laughter when we are together.

Day in and Day out,

You have integrated into my life,

So carefully,

Meticulously,

Radiantly-

Every moment, 

You're on my mind,

And I, on yours-

Like we've become intertwined in the most fulfilling way...

Because we have,

And I've come to love it, with every fiber of my being, every corner of my heart, every piece of my soul.

You always give me exactly what I need,

You are so nurturing, and loving-

So aware of yourself, and of me-

I melt in your hands like clay waiting to be molded into a masterpiece,

Let's create this together-

Messy but beautiful,

Eye-catching and soul-drenching.

Day in 

And

Day out

As I fill my lungs with the purest air,

And exhale any fears-

You've shown me time and time again,

That you're not going anywhere-

And I, the same for you.

Let me cascade as we dance,

Into whatever the future may hold,

Let the rush wash over me,

And make me whole-

Let me help carry your weights, 

And watch your peace unfold-

I am here with you now,

And will remain.

Your heart is pure gold,

And I soak up the tenderness with gratitude -

Embodying all that we are and what we could be.

No crystal ball,

Just slowly building,

Day in and Day out-

You amaze me,

And I adore you, for all that you are. 

Every last piece.

Simply Me & You

 I could linger in this moment,

For lifetimes to come- 

Surrounded by this ethereal feeling.

I could linger here with you, 

Until the world ceases to exist-

And when that happens, 

I'll remember you,

As you will have been imprinted in my soul.

I'll find you amongst the stardust and ashes,

Time and time again-

And remind you of the beauty that we share,

And the love that we grew together.

I'll show you the memories we've made, 

And it will all come rushing back,

It will feel familiar and like home-

This world we live in is temporary,

But energy lasts forever-

The alchemy we create is undeniably ours,

And untouchable.

Travel through each galaxy with me,

Sip on the stars, like we used to sip tea-

Make love amongst the astroids,

And let me shelter you from black holes.

Travel with me,

Here and now,

Then and there.

Expand our horizons together, 

As we melt into all that we could possibly create.

Intimate

 Let my mind roam for a minute,

Let me dive in for a minute,

Let me go deep, and get wet, and spread you open for a minute

Let me get freaky, get nasty, get trashy for a minute...

Tell the whole world exactly what I'd do to you, for a minute...

I want to lick your neck as I make my way to your ear, to whisper exactly how badly I want to taste your sweet pussy on my lips,

My tongue salivates at the thought of it dancing around your clit, 

Making your back arch, as you take a fist full of my hair-

Making unwavering eye contact with me.

I'm on my knees, bare and vulnerable, 

Begging "please" as you tease me.

Let's add a ball-gag for the fuck of it.

I want to slide my fingers inside of you as you let out a sigh,

My name on your lips, my teeth on your thighs-

My grip on your ass,

Ecstacy in your eyes...

Tie me up, 

Tell me how,

I'm such a "good girl" and a "bad girl" while you fuck my mouth-

Bend me over your lap,

And spank my ass-

With gentle kisses in between.

Let me climb on top of you, 

Let me ride you, with your hands on my hips,

Telling me how I'm the most beautiful woman to ever exist- 

And between my sighs of pleasure,

I'll say "no babe, that's you." 

I want to bite your lip, 

Have you suck on my tit,

Leave hickeys on my ass,

So I'll never forget - 

Exactly who I belong with. 

I want to fuck you with your knees by your head, as I dive deeper-

Watch your eyes roll back, as you say "please" and "thank you"

Let me tie you to the bed, 

I'll bend over and spread open wide for you,

Until you can't take it anymore- 

Squirming because you need a taste. 

Whisper to me while we are out for dinner, that you want me as dessert, 

Slip your hand between my legs,

Telling me exactly how you're going to have your way with me when we get back-

Fuck me in the back seat of your car,

Messy, hot, sweaty, kinky, and playfully

Hoping we don't get caught- 

Baby, what if we get caught?

Do you want to take some pictures of me?

If I'm feeling sassy, put me in my place- 

Especially when I say "No"

Use me how you want to, 

I'm yours for the night, the day, the week, until you're done with me-

God, I know you'll never be done with me-

This electric connection is something only we can see, can feel, can taste, can touch.

Chills crawl down my spine as you tell me to fuck you, 

I simply can't get enough of you-

Then we cool down,

Take it slow-

Create a love that no one knows,

Except for us-

Pulling one another closer, 

Wrapping your arms around me, 

Kissing me slowly and passionately,

Looking into my eyes as you gaze into my soul,

Saying words unspoken.

I wrap my legs around you, 

We reach climax, 

After climax,

After climax

Together -

And then,

The slowness,

Of soaking up the moment,

Soaking up eachother. 

Holding hands,

Tickling the small of my back,

While I gently trace your face with my finger tips...

I love the way we eb and flow,

So fucking

Intimate.