Better than expected

Today started out much better than expected
A good nights sleep after lashing out seems to always be the most peaceful- the hardest sleep of them all
And with so much to do today I find myself only yearning... to go back to sleep.
Maybe just a nap...
Dreams kiss my lips with a smile.

Ok... just for a moment...

hmmm...ugh.

So I was waiting... patiently, yet not so patiently ..
waiting and waiting- from the moment she left.
Waiting for her to come back home- hoping her times were better than expected.

...I hear the door knob turn slowly, almost a tease.
creeking and the door opens,
Barefoot and in my underwear I run from the couch to the kitchen on my tip toes... so excited,
biggest smile on my face!

She lets out a giggle as I am about to tackle her...
I do,
then it's downhill...

She complains about her aches and pains, the boredom of the trip, and how I didn't do laundry while she was gone...when I didn't have a car.

Friendless.
So, no I couldn't have had somebody bring me to do just one load.
I'll go now.
But, No.
I'm not allowed to.
Because it's about 11pm and she is tired...
I'll do it while she sleeps...
but no.

And how I know this will roll over until tomorrow.
Oh how I know. . .

Fun.: We Are Young ft. Janelle Monáe

Strikes a special cord with me ...

Take 2

It's like a movie scene.
Rushing to and fro
Searching high and low...
however, it's going all wrong.
Line forgotten,
actors tripping over their own feet.
Costumes ripping.

The director scream "CUT!"
the words are like razor blades running down an old school house chalk board.
The words are so in sync with the clashing of the clapper board.

"TAKE TWO!"

Letting Go

I am finally letting go again,
being free- being me
Happy, dancing, flowing all the time.
Doing what I want in life- and having fun while I'm young.
No worries, no cares in the world.
I hope this freelance life continues to feel so right -

For example: I tried out for gogo dancing today... and I'm pretty sure I got the job :)
Just having fun* MY Life.

Skimming

Dear,
Here, there, everywhere...
Sorry,
Empty promises.. Lost regrets.
Life now... good but room...
I enjoy and appreciate the little moment more than ever...
Sun ..shining.
Feeling Free...
Love,
Instinctively Me

First Day of Spring

It's amazing how time flies -
winter passes, the sun is shining, and the warm weather keeps me more than content.
If I could stay in the warmer months from now until eternity I would,
for they are not dark and dismal like the months of winter and fall.
So many things are going my way, my life is looking up, and working on myself has never felt so good!
- Breathe in the deep, warm, comfort of the spring air-