Limbo

Yearning,
Sensitive to the slightest touch, I lay here alone.
Early morning, I close my eyes and dream of your fingers exploring my bare skin.
Breathing heavy, yet silent.
Wondering if bodies can be connected by beautiful, sexual, electricity... Through the mind.
The mind is powerful, and we are weak.
Craving, is it possible that you are craving me at this same exact moment?
In tune, like a symphony of rythmic music.
I enjoy this limbo,
For in reality who knows what it would be like if one end of the spectrum was completed.
Isn't there something that excites you about the silence?
My body craves you, your touch,
Your evil, and seductive thoughts,
In the most endearing, and addicted ways.

I just...

I sit here,
Very sick.
Depriving my body of basic needs.
'Borderline pnemonia' says the
Physician. 'You could die if you don't gain weight'
But I don't look fragile,
I don't look thin...
Some say my face is sunken in,
But I feel...average.
The antibiotics won't work if I don't gain weight...
I lay in bed, supposed to be at work.
Fever of 101.
I just feel lost...
I just don't know...
I just...

Holding my phone,
I'm temped on many levels
Peaceful sounds could ring through...
But I close my eyes and let the dark consume me.

Chapter 7

"The Art of Seduction"
Chapter 7- "The Charmer"
Seducers have more than one seductive personality. I believe that The Charmer should be added to my last post.

Chapter 3

"The Art of Seduction"
Part One: Chapter 3- 'The Ideal Lover'

After reading this chapter I feel as if I know an Ideal Lover... Their charm is a lost art, and highly effective in seducing. The dedicate themselves to you, making you feel like a Goddess...like you're the only one. The focus on every aspect of you, but most importantly the small things... The things that secretly matter most.
Back to reading.

Learning

My head aches with pain,
My body sick,
But my soul passionate.
Before I close my eyes I see light in the vaguest way.
Naked, I'm lying face down...
Pillow beneathe my chest,
Wet curls grace my bare back...
I inhale sweet oxygen
And exhale toxic energy.
I am learning to alter energies, to accept and to reject them.
But I am merely a student...
I am a master at seduction, mind control, body control.... But that is simply here in an earthly realm.
It is time to expand my prowess to the universe.

She comforts me.
She encompasses me and holds me in the night... I will succumb to her, only to gain knowledge and love.

Sudden

I heard a whisper in my sleep,
Felt a touch in my daze.
Somebody played with my hair, and caressed my rosey cheeks.
I struggled to open my weary eyes,
But managed to smirk.
A ghost?
Maybe.
Spiritual Awakening?
Probable.

Blue Pills

I thought this little blue pill was supposed to help,
It did...14 days, but now what?
Is my body consuming it as regular, as "norm"
"I want to be happy" she screamed in silence
She clawed at her own skin,
Searching for a magic pill within.

Could you have been happiness? I fear so, I fear not. But all I know is that,
I couldn't stop.

Fourteen days, blue little pills, zombie was made, for their thrill.