Longer than normal.

Around 5:30pm
It sets in.
The worst, of the worst anxiety.
Something is wrong.
My heart races,
My body tingles,
Limbs go numb.
It must be linked,
To another.
I breathe,
Coming down
Is taking longer
Than normal.

Lesson of Stillness

For hours now I've thought of taking a blanket,
Laying under the newly born Spring night sky.
There is something comforting about Nature's embrace.
Silence fills my soul and my mind-
It is dangerous, yet inviting.

I am independent, but find myself needing something more.
This urge makes me feel 'needy' and I rebuke it.

My chest builds with anxiety as the hours pass through the night.
I find peace in the daylight, under the sun...
Under the largest flame we know of in our universe.

I feel as if my life is momentarily paused when I should be exceling.
My being craves a new lesson,
My soul searches for the lesson in being still.
Being still is something I've always struggled with.
I am a free spirit, floating with the waves of the ocean,
With the current of the wind.

Being still, my mind races more than ever.
And I wish it would slow down.
Like it does,
When I'm dancing,
Barefoot,
In the sunshine.

Hear Me.

Sitting on my beige carpet,
Legs crossed, breathing steady.
I smile.
I smile with intention, love, understanding and peace.
Two Buddha faces, eyes closed, a soft smile, are facing me.
An Egyptian Goddess spreads her wings, looking off into the distance.

The ebb and flow of my apartment in this very moment is serene.
A warm, yet cool, Spring breeze dances through my window and penetrates my clothes.
My eyes slide across words, Words I will forever hold dear to my heart.

I light incense- a flame catches and I watch the yellow, the red, and the blue tango.
Something so simple, yet so powerful.
A flame, a fire, a burning desire.

Having never understood until now,
What a connection meant.
Clarity strikes, and I am joyous.

The sun is calling my name from the outside,
Nature is begging me to come play, and I will.
A few responsibilities must be complete, but then I will be barefoot in the gas,
Singing to the Gods,
I will be embraced by the universe and her remarkable warmth.

I will dance in your name,
I will sing towards your realm,
Will you hear me?
I bet you will hear me.

Spiritual and Matrix Twins

This read made me feel beyond enlightened. Everything seems to make sense now. I figured I'd share it :

http://www.twinflamesigns.com/twin-flame-relationships-2/twin-flame-awakening-spiritual-twin-and-matrix-twin

Rediscover

Part Of Me

You are the breath in my lungs,
The passion in my soul,
The voice of reason in my head,
When I seem to lose control.

You are the goosebumps on my skin,
As the dawn of Spring sets in.
You are are the dreams of what's to come,
You are my smile, when time's rough.

We have become a part of each other,
A part of the Whole.
We are one with the universe,
Entagled are our souls.

So as I take steps,
To start my busy day.
I honor you, as part of me.
And pray that you will stay.

Six.

She wakes with a pounding in her skull.
Six hours over the course of three days is all it took.
Her jaw still tight, from subconsciously locking it in her sleep.
The sunlight peers through her window and she decides to cancel the first half of her day.
Typical some might say.
Words clutter her mind, she hears colors and feels time.

Time.

Six hours become a lifetime,
Six years become a moment, a blink of an eye.

She was told of the future,
Slightly altered by particular scenarios,
But a future at that.

Words were explored in depth,
Meanings came to light,
Reality began to set in.

This blonde haired girl, with emerald green eyes needed to Live.
She needed to live for the moment, the day, the week, the year.
All of this time she had just been going through the motions,
While she was stuck "living" in a dream of "what could have been"

She arches her neck and back in a deep stretch,
Feeling every inch of her naked body.
She holds her breath and counts to Six.
A new number,
She exhales.

Today she will walk.
Walk in the sunshine,
Walk with a purpose,
Walk while searching for a meaning!

She will find it in Herself,
She was her own worst enemy,
But eager to become her new best friend.
She must love herself in order to love others.
Her love for others has been a facade in the night,
For she never truly loved herself.

She will start with Six steps,
Six breaths,
Six positive thoughts a day.

Today she lets her life begin.
She begins to live for herself,
No one else.