Bring me to the edge of the Earth,
Let me taste her salty kiss.
Let her wind run through my hair,
Like lovers or a tryst.
Let her sand give me support,
As it sinks beneath my toes.
Let this moment bring me peace,
And many more of those.
Her laughter in the crash of waves,
Upon the welcome shore.
A smile graces my sun kissed face,
As I'm left with wanting more
Hey mom,
It's me...
Remember me?
Your daughter.
The one whom you gave your body to, as a safe haven for 9 months?
The one you'd rock to sleep, even when you didn't have any?
The one you coached cheer teams for, volunteered at the library for...
You even made me a birthday poster in middle school to put on the cafeteria door... because I was bullied, and you didn't want me to feel left out.
You used to hold me while I cried, and wipe away my tears.
You constantly reminded me of my worth... so mom... please remember I'm right here.
Do you remember the time I came home crying because a girl was mean to me. You brought me right back out the door, and told me to get into the passenger seat.
You drove by her house, rolled down my window, laid on your horn, and told me to moon them, while you gave her and her mom the finger...
In that ridiculous moment, I knew you always had my back. I laughed.
Remember the days of hooky? Where we'd get lunch, and get our nails done?
I loved those... the way you used to look at me, made me feel so safe and loved.
During college, things slowly started to go south. You lost your way, and that's OK,
Words like blades, flow out your mouth.
And here, and there, I'd see some rays.
Your laughter, gave me hope.
It's been ten years, and there's something you should know.
I'm scared mom, and I have been,
Each and every day.
I worry every moment, that God will soon take you away.
I bite my lip, to stop its quivers,
And toughen up my face.
But in all reality, mom...
I'd give anything to take your place.
I need you now more than ever, and I've tried to let you know.
But addiction leaves you clouded, but just know, I'm never letting go.
I hope someday, you come my way
Your light shining oh so bright...
That light I miss, and strive to be.
I won't give up the fight.
Today I smiled,
Even though I hurt.
Even though the weight of the world felt unbearable, because my pain and my burdens are my own to bear.
Even when the butterflies in my chest felt like they were made of shards of glass...
Today the sun shined,
And the world kept turning...
Imagine that.
So I danced like a fool, and sang at the top of my lungs... just to soothe what I could.
Today I spoke words to friends, only to hear them echo back.
As if I was singing a song in a canyon, lost, and only hearing my voice...
Giving me a false sense of guidance.
Tonight I lay,
Under the stars, the full moon, the warm desert sky. And I pray...
To God, Goddess, and the Universe... simply to protect you. Because a daughter's love never dies.
Well fuck,
I laid down on my bed, and put on some headphones with the intention of meditating... and creating magic.
When I meditate, I listen to my body and her cues, as she speaks what my soul needs to feel.
As the binaurl beats play, my body relaxes. Releasing the stresses of the week so far.
Eyes closed, I find my soul traveling to a dimly lit room. I walk in, as I hear your voice calling mine.
I can barely see your silhouette.
The light of a candle flickers behind you, and my eyes trace your body, from your beautiful high cheek bones, down to the outline of your shoulders, down the curves of your beautiful hips.
You extend a hand to me. I take yours in mine. You pull me close. Your naked body presses against my slightly clothed body.
I wear just an oversized tee.
You pivote us jointly, pushing me against a wall, as if you are trying to tell me that you want me.
You kiss me, passionately, letting go of any fear or doubt you have in the moment... because it feels too right, to deny.
I kiss you back, surprised at your dominance, as I can tell at times you yearn to be submissive... but for now, you take the reigns.
You grab my hips and pull me to a bed. Turning us around, you push me to my back. The bed is soft, as it embraces my fall.
You climb on top of me... straddling me.
Your body presses into my hips exciting me.
I can feel how turned on you are. You have me here... pinned... yours to do as you please. You lean in, and bite my lip gently.
When you pull back, I see that smirk of yours. You are certainly not shy in this moment.
You work your way between my legs. Tracing the insides of my thighs with your fingers, and teasing me with your mouth.
My body is yours in this moment. No reservations, no holding back.
Electricity runs rampant through us both, and I can't help but arch my back in pure pleasure.
You take care, and attention. You listen to my body. It becomes a somewhat spiritual experience.
I suppose after all... orgasm can transcend us into the most beautiful ecstasy.
So... here I am. Thankful for the route my body and soul took during this meditation. Pure bliss.
May tonight be softer than last.
May you honor your mind, body, and soul, while the stars and the moon cradle you in their delicate light.
Your strength is there, whether apparent or not.
You are not alone.
Yet, you hold an incredible amount of strength and power within your soul.
I know you feel it.
Sometimes that strength might scare you. It embodies your ability to say no, your ability to set boundaries and your ability to walk away from all that does not serve you.
That alone, can be terrifying.
We are so wrapped in our comfort, than beautiful, newness, can seem overwhelming.
But for just one moment, remember the last time you let go of fear.
That moment you let go of expectations, and doubt...
In that moment, you felt pure bliss... pure freedom, didn't you?
You.
You are so captivating,
So engaging,
So inviting,
And accepting.
I feel you here,
But you are there.
And in my core,
I know you feel me too.
Our dreams are synced,
Another realm, we fall into.
Anxiously awaiting the moonlight by day,
And passionately gripping onto the stars by night.
Living between dreams & reality,
Yet... let's be real.
Slowly merging the two.
