Cassiopeia Delusions

 Floating, detaching from my physical being, to simply go wherever your soul will take me.

Which realm will we explore tonight? 

Will we get lost in the vast galaxies of our angelic ancestors?

Maybe dance among the many moons?

They say our heads are in the clouds, but I'm not ready to have my feet back on the ground. 

Let's watch the sun set, behind the moon, while eating popcorn on Mars.

Catch a comet, with our bare hands, and keep it in a jar. 

Can you see the shimmering lights, from the cities on the planet we call Home?

How they sparkle like stardust, 

A mirage of the unknown.

Let's befriend the Sirians, I bet we'd learn a thing or two,

Maybe drink some galaxies, buzzing on their mysteries

Would you get lost with me in a black hole, only to discover we were right where we were supposed to be?

I'd explore the constellations, jumping from Orien's belt with you...taking your hand, and kissing you hard the second we'd land on Cassiopeia.

But you ground me, take me back, to Earth 

Pull me down into your bed, and hold me tight,

As the moon shines through your bedroom window, 

Telling me it was all just a dream...

But I smile, knowing it was a memory.

Ink

Dip me into your ink well,

And spill me onto your pages.

Paint your fantasies with each gentle stroke;

Slowly and delicately trace the memories we've created, and outline the ones we've yet to make.

Pour my gaze into your story and taste my kiss, as you ponder your quill's next move. 

Will you turn the page to continue this captivating dance?

I just beg you, 

Don't close the book. 

Feel my soft spaces between your pages. 

Entangle yourself in the story to come 

Endless Night

 Every night,

Spent with You,

I grasp onto,

Like quicksand,

Slipping through my fingers.

The end of the world, or the beginning of time?

I can't decipher, which timeline is mine.

But the feeling's the same,

I don't want to drift,

For tomorrow is never promised.

So trap me here,

In  this pleasant despair,

Hanging onto words that fall from thin air.

Tie me down by my bones,

I'll accept the unknown,

If each night can last until it's just us alone-

I'll whisper and moan,

Hips winding,

Mind thrown.

Where does the night end,

The veil never shown.

Professed

 Keep me close to your chest,

And forget all the rest.

My body is blessed,

And my mind is a mess.

The havoc you wrecked,

My heart, out my chest...

Your love, I'm impressed,

While my mind you've undressed...

Keep me near, your conquest, 

While this dance we perfect ✨️

Rock Bottom

And you want it all,

But you have to fall, before you crawl-

So I watch you burn the city you love,

To the ground,

All so you can hear the sound,

Of silence. 

And you look around at the ashes that scatter the ground,

Wondering, why no one's around-

But babe, remember,  

You burned it all down. 

You scream, but all that you've found

Is the pit that you've created-

Your creation,

You've finally made it,

To rock bottom. 

Catalyst

 You're gone today,

For the first time in two weeks. 

The last two weeks has been hell- 

My anxiety has never seen such highs.

I've been in a constant state of what feels like survival. 

Unpredictable energy shifts, 

In my home.

A place that I'm supposed to feel calm, safe, and secure. 

Any time I'd leave, I'd feel a sense of relief. 

Any time I'd pull into the driveway, I had to sit in my car for thirty minutes or so, gathering the strength to head back inside. 

I never knew what I was walking into. 

Rage? Friendly banter? Lust filled eyes? Quips of remaining love? Accusatory words? Venomous low-blows? 

I felt as if I was walking blindfolded in a land mine, covered in soft moss. 

But today, I sang.

Today, I danced.

Today, I pushed through the sheer exhaustion - as my body's nervous system tries to re-regulate. 

I am safe.

I am loved.

I am in a space that is my home, that calms me, and that brings me joy.

The animals felt it too,

And how that breaks my heart. 

Today they slept, and played, and slept some more. Sweet babies.

I don't blame you for the pain- 

There is a lot to unpack, and you were never given the tools to do so in a loving, kind, way. 

But my body, my heart, and my soul- so desperately needed this rest. 

So, I thank the universe for today, and the next seven days. 

I hope to find the serenity that I need to take on this next chapter in life. 

I know in my heart that it is filled with adventure, romance, and intrigue. Let me fall in love with myself, all over again. 

The forever evolving catalyst, in the ever evolving abyss. 

Alone & Afraid

 Sitting in it.

Really sitting in your darkness.

The depths echo, and unfamiliar sounds arise.

You can't see your hand in front of your face,

There is no telling which way is up. 

Something scurries past you, and all you can do is hope that the strange creature is friendly. 

The air is heavy to breathe,

And your thoughts are the loudest scream.

There is no escaping, 

Only sitting-

Listening,

Trying to understand and remain calm. 

Alone and afraid,

But you try to be brave.

Taking it day by day.