Villain prelude

 You can weave your words, with poise and flow.

You and I will always know.

So write the lyrics that paint me ill, and I'll be the target so you can pay your bills-

If making me the villain, is the best you have, and makes you learn to love yourself, I'm OK with that. 

Villain

 We all play the villain in somebody's story,

And it seems like that's the role you've assigned me.

When in reality, and for so long- I know I was your safe and sacred space. I held you gently as you'd cry, I'd wipe away the tears. I'd give you affection you hadn't received in all of the years you had been alive. 

I taught you unconditional love, but now you'd say I kept you "caged," but let's be real babe...

The only one holding yourself back, is you. It has always been you. 

You can weave with words, you're good at that- believe what hurts, and don't crawl back. 

Because if making me the villain, makes you learn to love yourself, I'm OK with that. 

All I ever wanted was for your happiness & joy. Your success, is evident, and my love was no ploy. 

So write the lyrics that paint me ill, and I'll be the target so you can pay your bills-

I find solace in all that I know was real, my character and my love, I've got that still.

We Knew

 I knew you had a thing, for your 20-something fling...

There's not much in her head, aside from hairspray. 

I'm bitter, ever so slightly, simply because I saw it coming before you did. 

But so did you.

You saw my thing, for my 40-something thing, and just like that- we're both "disgusting."

Look at who we've become. 

Liberated? Maybe.

I know she could never fill the hole in your heart and soul, that I once filled. I know she could never make you love yourself, like you deserve... Go out and find yourself, and report back; I'll do the same. 

Hopefully this honesty,

The most honest we've been with one another in years, 

Breeds great friendship.

Because, you're my asshole.

Receive & Enjoy

 Quiet morning, lakeside breeze - 

Echoes of the birds.

Their songs effortlessly soothe my tired mind, and full soul.

It's the ease of slow mornings, and bitter espresso that hold me for now. 

Close & intimate,  like lovers do. 

Barefoot, soaking up the sun and her kisses.

Memories had and to be made keep me balanced.

Entering a new era of exploration and receiving. 

Summer Chapter

 Summer sinks in, 

Viciously tasteful.

The sun is aggressive with his love, and the moon gentle with her touch. 

The desert aches for foreign rains, to quench her thirst.

Quiet crickets come out to play, and find their voices yet again.

Shores welcome those who need cleansing and clarity,

Mountains shade those seeking peace and solitude. 

The world comes together, after the thaw of the Spring. 

Celebrating the abundance of life that stirs.

To feel alive, is to experience.

To experience, is to try.

To try, is to be brave.

Live your wildest dreams, sweet one,

For this chapter is just beginning.

Here we are...

 Who are you? 

A stranger? 

Simply family? 

The one that got away, perhaps? 

I feel like I don't know you anymore, but one thing is for certain I know me. 

I have grown,

Despite, your pain from the past lingering, and for that I am sorry. 

Apologies can be made, but hands of time cannot rewind. 

Who am I? 

I'm bold,

I'm fearless,

I'm adventurous.  

I am filled to the brim with unconditional love to give. So glad I got that from my momma. 

I am human, perfectly flawed.

I am inquisitive, 

I am passionate,

I've evolved. 

I wish the same for you, 

A life of knowing unconditional love, and being able to give and receive it. A life of adventure and fearlessness. A life of inquiry and exploring your passions. 

In this human experience we have (or had?) each other... to lean, to learn, to grow... but it appears our growth looks different. I keep telling myself that's ok... 

I want you in my life forever, however that may look... because our souls are intertwined, a fact neither of us dispute. 

So I'll wait,  and practice patience

Practice space

Practice respecting your boundaries...

I love you, I hope you know that.

And my love in unconditional, unwavering, and will last lifetimes to come.

I am

 I am fearless.

I am autonomous. 

I am brilliant.

I am edgy.

I am creative. 

I have a zest for life. 

I am worry free. 

I enjoy the small things in life. 

I am human. 

I am loved.

I am safe.

I am free spirited. 

I am knowledgeable.  

I am an expert.

I am passionate. 

I am sexy. 

I am healthy. 

I am fit. 

I am clever. 

I am charming. 

I am worthy. 

I am deserving. 

I am wild. 

I am free.

I am mystical. 

I am magical. 

I am light.

I am balanced.