Say No

Let her consume me,
My self-destructive lover.

Let her endure what she may,
And wreak havoc on this body.

Let her consume me,
Through thought,
Mind,
Body.

Let her control me,
Penetrate my inner being.
Let her make me sick.

I find knowledge in this disease,
And I've been on her ride-
Ups & Downs.

Twisting,
Turning,
Winding down.
Restricting.
Let the games begin
Yet again...
For that's how they see it.
As a game.

Tomorrow... I start again.
Today was awful
Last week was great.
Time to say no.