Bet on Us

To find a love so deep,

At this moment in my life,

Is something no mountain could have convinced me of,

No sea could have crashed at my feet and handed me-

The mere perfection is more clear than the untouched ice of the Alps.

I have never been met with the love that I've so craved and desired,

And then You...

You know exactly where to touch me, where to be gentle and when to wrangle me in-

You know how to be soft when I need it, and firm when I need grounding.

You do it so effortlessly, as if you've been loving me for lifetimes,

And maybe you have-

You truly see Me,

The raw, bare, vulnerable Me.

The nerdy, goofy, spicy, sweet, nurturing, inquisitive and passionate me-

You challenge me in the best of ways,

And encourage me to step into the best version of myself every single day, without trying.

I have finally found You,

My compliment, my mirror, my love.

The desire to walk with you,

Through this life,

Side by side and hand in hand, 

Is a desire that grows with each passing second, 

A desire that feel so innately ingrained in my soul,

There is simply no other choice.

You are it.

I have never been so sure about anything in my life,

But Us...

I would bet my life on Us-

A million times over.

How could I have roamed this Earth my whole life,

Unaware that my beautiful other half, was simply making her way to me with each day that passed.

Every single left turn, every single mistake we made, every single place we've been, has brought us to this very moment.

And now the whirlwinds of life and love have rushed us together, 

Encompassing us in an unbreakable bubble of bliss and love,

Sheltered by our ancestors and the strength we've gained along our journies.

Here we are,

Starting to share a heartbeat,

As we embark and embrace this everlasting life full of love, we are choosing.

I choose you 

And I will choose you,

Each and every day,

With every breath in my lungs,

Every beat of my heart,

And every step that I take.

You are the product of my manifestations,

This love is our alchemy,

Let us nourish it until the end of time and beyond.

Anticipation

God,

I can't wait to marry you,

To make you my wife,

To start a family with you-

Watching this all unfold for us,

Has been such a beautiful journey-

I love you with all of my heart,

From the depths of my being,

And to the core of the universe.

You are my forever,

And I yours-

My sweet woman,

Cheers to our eternity -

I love how excited you get talking about it-

I am so grateful for you my love.

Here's to our forever! 

Goodbye, for now

As we said our goodbyes,

Time slowed.

We held each other a little longer...

You told me, "I love you baby" -

You never said "I love you" to anybody,

But me...

And if you did, it was once a year.

But you told me every time we spoke,

Multiple times. 

Your once strong embrace,

Felt fragile

But I could feel you mustering whatever strength you had to hold me tight and pull me close.

Once a man that some feared,

But I never had-

Because I was always your favorite,

And I'm not quite sure why.

You let me get away with more than the other kids,

You gave me more responsibilities as well-

You trusted me with your garden,

And Lord knows, you trusted nobody with your garden.

I tended to the tomatoes, cucumbers and eggplants-

Eating my weight in cherry tomatoes every time I harvested them for you.

I remember always looking at your hands,

Rough, tanned and rugged-

Truly a testament to your hardworking nature. 

You smelled of tobacco and caramel,

And somehow, I loved it,

Burrying my face in your flannel every time I hugged you, 

Inhaling deeply...

As I slipped my tiny hand into your shirt pocket to steal a peppermint lifesaver or Werther's Original. 

From the time I could talk, you taught me what it meant to be Italian-

You had me in the kitchen cooking sauce with you, and dicing onions and garlic before I probably should have ever held a knife. 

I remember standing on a wooden chair from the table, pulled to the countertop, and taking direction as the aroma of your sauce filled the air...

Sneaking bread in when you weren't looking to steal a taste -you always smiled like you knew.

I remember you talking me with peeling potatoes,  which seemed like for hours-

You and I fought over the end pieces of bread, something I still giggle about every time I eat one.

The smell of fresh cut wood from your workshop permeates my memory- Watching you create with your hands, not only food, but furniture, truly had me in awe.

My grandpa did everything! 

And as the years passed,

I watched your soul soften-

What once was strength and a hand with a paddle, turned to less building, more cooking, and slow days with grandma as she rapidly declined. 

You gave up your life,

For her,

And for us kids -

To be close and to watch us grow-

You became selfless, though not everyone could truly see it... I did.

I loved our calls, I loved the soul connection we had, and I simply love you! 

The last glance we shared,

Our eyes swelled with tears-

We knew,

It would be the last time we would look at each other.

You looked at me like you were so proud,

And with such love-

It was one of the most powerful feelings I've experienced in my life. 

So much said, with no words at all.

I love you grandpa,

Give grandma and mom hugs for me-

I know you three will have so much to catch up on.

Forever and a Day

 I can't wait,

To spend forever and a day,

By your side,

As your partner,

As your wife,

As the other mother to your children.

Though,

I'm not sure forever and a day is enough-

It is so beautiful,

That we share this love,

This deep, unbreakable,  soul quenching love-

I have quickly made your heart,

My home-

Knowing that you've made mine,

Yours.

The excitement leaves me restless, 

As I want to experience it all, in this very instant-

But I am patient,

And we have,

Forever and a day-

Millions of moments to share,

Decades of pure love ahead of us. 

Promise me you'll find me when our souls leave this Earth,

When the oceans dry up,

When the clouds fall from the sky,

When the Earth ceases to breathe-

Come find me,

I'll be waiting-

To spend another, forever and a day, with you

A Piece

Simply put,

You are a piece of my soul.

I've searched the Earth,

High and low-

Not knowing exactly what I was looking for. 

A sense of longing always left me wanting more-

As if I was trying to find my home,

The place where I belonged. 

You,

An Angel,

Came tumbling into my life-

Unexpected, 

Fiercely passionate and wild-

Gentle and strong.

Playful and curious,

Pure.

And then it hit me,

Like an unexpected summer downpour -

I found myself dancing in the warmth,

Standing in the rain with you,

And basking in the sun and rainbow that followed

My love has grown,

At a rate I can't explain,

And have stopped trying to comprehend-

Because you, my love,  are right-

You are my person.

For the first time in my life I have not a single doubt-

You give me all that I've been subconsciously searching for-

I give you all that you've wanted and needed,

And together we create the most beautiful piece of art with our love.

The final masterpiece is ours to craft together,

Carefully choosing each color and pattern that suits the seasons we go through together. 

Each brush stroke dancing along the canvas we call "life," carving out our path forward as one.

You can rest now,

You are safe,

You are loved,

You are home-

Because baby, you're a piece of my soul.

My Rose

Loves buzzes around us,

With every touch, every glance, every shared moment. 

Warmth and moisture from the summer heat encapsulate this beautiful seedling-

Slowly growing and flourishing.

Nurtured by those we love,

And by our dedication to one another. 

As the bumble bee is drawn to naps inside of the rose, I am drawn to the calmness within you.

You make my world still,

Allow my busy wings to rest,

And provide me safety and stability. 

You share the morning dew with me when I am thirsty,

Shade me from the summer sun,

And hold me close. 

Sweet woman,

I love you.

Through and through.

"I Love You"

Today,

We shared "I love you"

With our words,

Though, our eyes have been saying it for a while now.

It's slipped out a few times,

You joke I should come with a Caution sign-

I've whispered it to you as you've slept,

Followed by kissing your head.

Tears ran down your beautiful face,

As your smile grew,

And you told me that you've been wanting to say it forever...

I have too, my love.

That nobody has told you it first,

And how it is entirely a feeling you've never had before with anyone else,

How we are "different"

Because we in fact, are different. 

We say it probably a hundred times,

As we kiss,

And share tears of joy,

Deep gazes,

And hands on faces-

I could revel in this moment for eternity.

I fucking love you.

I would scream it from every mountain top,

Tell every passing stranger,

Carve it into every tree-

My love,

I absolutely do love you.

There is not a doubt in my mind,

You are my person-

And I, yours.

You suggest we get married,

Sooner than later,

Start our family,

But of course - travel the world first. 

It's a rush of bliss,

I agree-

Holy fuck,

We are really doing this.

I love you with every fiber of my being,

Every breath in my lungs,

Every drop of blood that runs through my veins,

With every heart beat,

And every passing moment. 

I love you like the sun loves the moon,

Like the shore loves the ocean,

Like the fireflies love the night-

My beautiful woman,

I can't say it enough.

I love you,

And will,

Until we turn to dust-

And even then,

My soul will find yours again and again,

To love you from start to finish.

Heart to Heart

I lay here,

After a beautiful week spent with you-

Closing my eyes occasionally and simply soaking up the love that continues to grow.

When I close my eyes, I see flashes of the future we so openly discuss-

It is like I'm watching constellations being born, right before my eyes-

Life and light brewing in perfect synchronicity.

We talk about how "wild" it all is-

Nearly a year ago you simply dropped into my sphere-

Persistent and diligent with each word you chose,

Knocking at my door for me to let you in,

But as we know, it all happens in time.

The last six months have been such a beautifully chaotic whirlwind,

One that I wouldn't trade for the world-

Now we sit here,

In the arms of one another,

Mirrors held,

So we can help one another reflect, heal, and grow.

We graciously hold space for eachother,

Truly hearing, seeing, listening and loving-

We are so beautifully raw,

Standing before one another,

Bare,

Naked,

Vulnerable 

I will love every bit of you,

Every bright light within you, and every scar-

Each moment of unlearning your past traumas, I will hold you close and reassure you of your priceless worth.

Thank you for letting me show you the gentle, passionate, kind, fiery, stable, consistent, deep, true love you deserve.

Beautiful woman,

This is just the beginning,

And though, it feels like lifetimes,

We have ions to go together.

I love the excitement, honesty, and certainty in your voice when you talk to me about all of what's to come-

The tears of joy that filled your eyes today as you told me you "just know" that you're supposed to do this life with me in so many ways, left me speechless-

Because I too, have that same knowing-

We may not be able to explain it, 

And we don't have to,

Because we are living the experience,

Day by day,

Side by side,

Hand in hand,

Heart to heart.

"Baby"

I love the way you call me "baby"

So gentle as you kiss my forehead,

Filled with passion as my mouth finds its way between your legs,

As you playfully call me from another room,

Before you fall asleep while I hold you, 

As you stare into my soul and tell me all of the things you love about me, while you're wearing my vintage ACDC shirt

I love how easily it escapes your lips,

A love overflowing, like a dam that's finally broken

I can taste it on your lips,

Capture it with my mouth,

Swallow it to have it sublime in my being

Like a vapor I inhale in a ritualistic breathing-

I love the way you call me "baby"

6.24.25

Today,

You are mine.

My love,

My babe,

My woman,

My partner in crime,

My lover,

My future.

Level three,

Of our journey

Starts Today.

I can't wait to experience what life has to offer with you,

By my side-

Day in and day out.

I can't wait to keep all of the promises I've made you,

To kiss you, to hold you, to listen to you, to be there for you...

Unwaivering- 

I love our love,

Babe, 

I am so excited to explore it all with you.

Becoming

Every day you surprise me,

I am enamored by your love, your beauty, your soul, your fiery energy. 

Dreaming big with you,

Holds anticipation- 

Like, I've found the person I want to experience all things big and small with. 

It is wild how the universe quietly plots for two souls to meet at the perfect time.

Not a moment sooner,

Not a moment later-

Divine timing is free from all interference.

I truly believe and trust,

That all things are unfolding exactly as they must.

Yesterday you told me that you can't wait to hear our daughter call me "mommy" - that you had to hear it...

My heart melted into a puddle.

We talked more about our future- narrowed down some engagement ring ideas, talked about the type and size of wedding we would have, places we'd want to live, how our parents would make amazing grandparents,  and how we both can't wait for you to meet my family... 

I know they'll love you,

The day you become part of my family will be one of the happiest days of my life.

The fact that neither of us have felt this pull before simply proves that everything has brought us to one another,

That we are here, now, and this is it.

We talk about literally everything- 

Big, small, good, bad, easy to talk about and uncomfortable-

And we navigate with such grace, understanding and compassion-

It is so fucking beautiful-

This love and respect we share for one another. 

Every day that passes,

This bond grows,

It blossoms,

We water it,

And it thrives- 

You have become my sunshine,

And I, your sunflower- 

The Ocean

Our connection,

Our love,

Is like the Ocean

Vast,

Expansive,

Deep,

Intriguing,

Never-ending. 

Constantly flowing,

Ruled by the moon-

An effortless eb and flow,

Rising and falling tides,

Calmed by the night sky, and ignighted by the warm sun.

We explore on this adventure together,

Discovering and uncovering one another's shipwrecks, treasures, and mysteries. 

One can not simply explore the Ocean in just one lifetime,

So I promise to find you,

Over and over again,

Lifetime, after lifetime.

Ring Shopping

Saturday, 

After spending the week together,

We were at the mall...

You holding my hand,

Grabbing my waist,

Kissing my lips, my neck, my forehead.

Your fingers interlaced with mine-

Waiting for your phone to be fixed,

We window shopped. 

You stopped me among the bustling crowd,

"Want to look at engagement rings together?"

I stopped, a bit caught off guard,

I looked up at you,

Trying to hold back the intense joy that overcame me-

"Yeah, let's do it!" I quip,

Trying to keep it cool-

We go into the jewelry store, 

The clerk asks how she can help

You say it again,

"Do you guys have a section for engagement rings?"

She shows us the way

We talk, 

And laugh,

And smile,

And look-

You don't let go of my hand once... 

We discuss the shapes, the colors, the styles we want- 

This is the second time we've talked about it, but this time felt more intentional.

So I take note,

Of exactly what you want,

So that one day,

Inshallah, 

I can give it to you.

Love It All

I love your kisses,

The way that you pull me closer any chance you get,

The way I catch you looking at me and smiling, only for your smile to grow when I realize -

I could drown myself in that feeling.

I love when our eyes lock, 

And we speak with no words- 

When your hand grabs mine and squeezes gently, letting me know that you've got me.

I love your head on my chest, as you rest your eyes, while I play with your hair and rub your back. 

I love our playful moments, our passionate moments, our quiet moments shared.

I love how the world around me melts, when your arms are wrapped tightly around me, as if you never want to let me go. 

I simply love...

It all

Planning

Planning,

We talk openly dream together about all of the things-

Travel,

Family,

Places we want to visit, 

And places we want to live. 

Our gaze locked,

Unbreakable,

The passion and excitement in our voices as we speak-

So many short terms,

And long term plans-

You consistently tell me how you "can't believe" you found me-

But babe,

I'm so glad you did. 

Who knew,  in August of last year,

When you reached out,

That we'd be where we are now. 

Life works in mysterious ways,

The universe brought us together in the strangest of ways-

But here you are,

In my arms,

Head on my chest as I play with your hair and rub your back.

I love the moments you randomly look at me and smile,

I see the knowing in your eyes,

That knowing we both talk about-

"In time"

Is closer than ever-

I love every moment of our journey-

It has been such a beautiful one.

I can't help but be enamored,

Your fingers interlaced with mine,

A moment captured in time,

Ingrained in all eternity. 

Fall Into Your World

I'm so glad you've invited me into your world,

You offered me your hand,  and asked if I liked rollercoasters,

And though you don't  

You knew it'd be one hell of a ride. 

We weren't searching,

But the second you took my hand, we started to fall,

So

Far

Down

The rabbit hole.

We were chased by sunsets and greeted by sunrises,

We danced with some aliens, 

Made love in the Cosmos,

And allowed our souls to explore the depths, the twist and turns, of one another.

I swear the poppies sang to us,

As we laughed until our cheeks hurt-

A kaleidoscope revealing the most intricate colors, designs and patterns, each time we look toward our light.

I can taste the cotton candy overdose that is about to ensue.

I'd grab your hand and thousands times over, 

I loved the fall,

Into your world.

Indulge & Reminisce

 Italian ground espresso,

In the Moka that you got me,

Brewing like the sexual tension between us

Smooth and bold,

Like the way you kiss me-

A hint of sweet,

Mirroring the words you say to me.

Made with love,

I slowly sip and savor,

With patience,

So that I dont burn my tongue.

After all,

Patience is a virtue.

It wakes me,

The same way you do with your body between my legs,

Pressed against me,

Like this coffee cup to my lips.

The aroma is complex,

And sophisticated-

Just like your beautiful mind.

I inhale,

Taste,

Indulge,

And close my eyes-

Reminiscing on every kiss I've stolen,

From your soft, delicate lips.

It's About Time

It's About

Damn

Time.

Thankful for the Universe, my Guides, My Angels and my Power.

All done in Pure Love, 

Will always prevail.

Sunrise Soaked Passion

 As the sun peaks through my windows and I start to stir,

I roll over and stretch out my arm, in subconscious hope you're next to me.

You're not,

But for now,

I'll dream of our mornings spent together, and fantasize about the ones to come 

My body lays here naked,

Remembering the feeling of your bare skin on mine,

You, pulling me close,

Interlacing our fingers-

Neck kisses, morning kisses, and sleepy snuggles.

My hands trailing down your spine, back up, rubbing your shoulders and softly playing with your curls. 

More kisses,

We let them lead us,

Into a sunrise soaked passion,

As we get soaked in the magic we create.

Breathless

My goodness,

My love,

My love,

Has grown-

A beautiful journey,

Made just our own.

Each day that passes,

We eb and flow-

Expanding our desire,

Our connection, 

Our undeniable pull towards one another.

Like filling my lungs with a crisp autumn air,

I take you in,

Let you course through my veins-

Giving me life,

In all the ways I never knew possible.

I'll breathe you in,

Until my lungs give out- 

Until this Earth has no more oxygen,

Until we fade into the next realm.

As I gasp,

With pleasure,

I fall deeper.

As I try to catch my breath,

From laughter,

My adoration grows.

Keep taking my breath away,

You have my unwavering permission. 

Soul Food

Your excitement builds,

As you craft with your hands,

A meal for me-

One dear to your heart,

One that I've come to love.

You taste along the way,

Adding the ingredients slowly-

Letting it simmer.

I help by cutting the cucumbers and tomatoes,

A small, yet meaningful gesture. 

I gently grace your back with my hand as you walk by,

And give you looks that only you can decipher-

You smile.

Egyptian bread on the side,

It's ready,

Fūl,

Made by you,

For me

I can taste the love as I nourish my body,

As you nourish my soul,

Such a small act, yet a big display of your affection.

My adoration grows.

White T-Shirt

In your white t-shirt,

Only panties underneath,

You left it here,

Knowing-

You always know 

When I wear it,

I feel your arms around me-

Feeling sexy and sweet,

Want to tease you,

Send some photos,

So your heart skips a beat

What if I told you,

I touch myself,

Looking in the mirror,

As it encompasses my curves?

Bare and raw,

Begging for your touch,

We've made a lovers' nest of my home,

And I feel your energy in every corner of it.

Your gentle touch,

My body gets instant chills as I think of your finger tips tracing every inch of me,

Memorizing,

Fantasizing, about you.

I dance barefoot,

As music blares,

Your shirt flowing as my hips move,

Wishing they were moving for you,

On top of you.

But for now,

I'll let your white t-shirt

Consume my being,

I'll let it devour my silhouette-

Leaving me wanting more,

Of you.

Tending

 Tending to your garden,

Is one of my favorite things to do-

Let me water you when needed,

Turn your face to the sunshine I share with you- 

Need to rest?

Let the moonlight rejuvenate your soul. 

I'll plant the seeds,

Singing to them as I push them into the Earth's surface, gently and with intention.

Watching them sprout,

So delicate.

I'll watch the seedlings grow into beautiful fruits of our labor,

The love, the work, the consistency pays off.

Every morning I'll sing to your growing plants,

As their roots grow deeper,

As their dead leaves shed,

As budding new life springs up.

And when we harvest,

It will be abundant-

Because this garden will have been tended to in the most loving of ways.

Holy

With you I would sin,

In all of the best ways-

Take me to Church, 

Every single day-

Oh my God, 

You're a sight,

A real fucking Saint,

Baby, you're Holy,

You're all that I crave.

I'm down on my knees,

You're watching me pray- 

Moving my mouth,

"Good girl," you would say-

Praising your body,

I'm building my Faith,

Singing hymns with your lips-

Your moans they escape.

Confess on the days,

That I'm a "Bad Girl",

"Forgive me," I'd say,

Cleansed soul in the works,

Drink you up quick, 

As I quench my thirst

I read from your scripture,

A journey unfurls 

Like the wine made from rain,

Your nectar consumed,

Like the apple by Eve,

Taste your delicate fruit,

A ritual made,

In this Eden of ours,

Awake as we study,

The millions of stars-

Let's take our sacred love, 

Redemption is here,

Bring me closer to Heaven,

As you whisper in my ear-

You're an Angel,

I know,

As our bodies transcend-

You're love's fucking holy,

I need it,

Amen.

75 Poems

Seventy-five,

Typed out,

Thought out,

Words that poured out-

Poems,

For you. 

Not including the hand written love letters,

The dozens of pages of journal entries,

The poetry we make when our bodies melt into one another.

Nine months,

Since you found me,

Since our first words exchanged,

Since you intrigued me with your energy-

Six months,

Of truly knowing you,

Of soaking up your energy,

Of falling deeper each day,

Of getting lost in all that is, you.

One hand written book,

Of every poem I've written you,

Writing until my hand cramps up,

But my heart overflows-

My final muse,

The world will know it someday.

Thousands,

Of passionate kisses,

Of moments shared,

Of smiles that graced our lips-

Of memories made,

Both big and small-

Your laughter is infectious, 

Making me spiral on my own-

Your love is:

Gentle,

Sweeter than the most pure honey,

Assertive, 

You make it clear what you want-

Playful,

Hours and hours of getting caught up in our sexual chemistry, exploring realms we haven't ever explored before.

Mindful,

You are constantly making sure I am safe, physically and emotionally 

Charming,

Damn, the way you look at me with those beautiful eyes

Honest,

Our communication is unmatched- something I know we both appreciate immensely 

Magnetic,

We are drawn to one another in a way neither of us can fully put into words. A pull so strong,  that we both acknowledge we have never felt it before- a force we can't deny. So here we are at the start of our journey, ready and eager as we start to dive in.

My love,

I will write you poems until my hands no longer work, if you'll let me.

And then,

I'll use my voice until I can no longer speak,

And I'll say it with my eyes in the moments where my voice escapes me-

I'm in awe with how we've found one another,

And I can't wait to see our future unfold.

A Mother's Love

 You'll never get to meet her,

In the ways I wish you could-

But you always tell me that you meet her through me,

Each and every day.

Through my love, my kindness, my nurturing energy-

My eyes, my stories of her, all of the parts of her, that made me.

How I wish you could experience her smile, feel how contagious her laugh was, experience her unconditional love-

But you'll only ever feel it,

Through me,

A conduit.

I've told her so much about you,

I've shared my hopes, 

My dreams,

And my deepest feelings.

I know she listens, and loves from the other side-

But sometimes,

Tears flow, because I wish it was all tangible.

In those moments, you hold me.

You kiss away my tears, 

You give me the love and support I've needed for four years now,

In a way nobody else ever could.

So lately,

I've asked her-

To visit you in your dreams...

Many times I've asked her,

But I always say "When she's ready, mom. No sooner, no later, but when she's ready." 

And this morning,

You woke-

Rolled over with a sparkle in your eyes, 

A gentle smile on your face.

"I had a dream last night..." 

"About?" I ask

"I couldn't see her face, but it was your mom."

My heart stopped,

My words caught in my throat,

A few quiet tears welled in my eyes.

You continue;

You tell me that the three of us were in a kitchen together,

It was filled with laughter,

"You were just laughing so much" 

I could feel the happiness as you explained it.

My heart full,

Knowing that the time is now,

And that she finally made herself present to you. 

That, in and of itself is a sign for me-

One that puts my heart at ease,

Knowing that my trust in this journey,

Has been worth every minute. 

Cosmos

 Mesmerized by the Northern Lights in the sky,

A mirage of the grandeur of all that is.

Lost in the Cosmos with you.

Dipping our toes in the Milky Way,

Sun bathing on Mars,

Ice Cream on Pluto,

Earth now seems so far-

You grab my hand and spin me around to watch the Moon rise on the horizon, 

We share a kiss that defies gravity-

I don't ever want to come down,

Let's create our own reality-

Float with me,

In a realm far away-

One where our worries have faded away,

Dressed in just the light from the stars,

As we glisten and sparkle,

The future is ours. 

Amore

 A beautiful night, 

An early morning -

Drenched in passion,

Our souls buzz

You, 

My love, 

Have captured my heart-

In its entirity. 

I can see that you know it,

And I see that I've captured yours.

That moment we shared,

As you left for work-

The smile on your face,

As those words danced behind your lips,

Begging to be released-

Was simply beautiful. 

Your smile,

My giggle,

Your laughter realizing I just read your mind with such ease,

Babe, 

Its written all over your face,

And I'm sure you see it on mine;

Let me taste your lips,

For they're the keepers of words unspoken-

The protectors of something sacred,

The holders of our knowing.

Little Moments

 It's the way the morning sun peeks through my bedroom curtains and kisses your smiling cheeks as you sleep in my bed-

Bundled and dreaming, I tickle your back.

The way your curls so delicately caress your face when you lean over me to kiss me...

Grabbing my face with your hands, and gazing into my eyes like you've never seen a sight like me before.

You make me feel like one of the wonders of the world, simply by the way you look at me.

It's those moments I catch you looking at me, like that, I find this knowing.

It's the smell of morning coffee that we share side by side, and the taste of coffee soaked kisses that lead to passionate morning sex.

Our bodies pressed so tightly into one another we can barely catch our breath,

Sweat dripping down our backs as we find ourselves in the most colorful fever dream.

It's the little notes we leave eachother; gentle reminders that we have one another - 

It's how many times a day we each say "I can't get enough of you" - while we know we will never have to, because our presence will have no end... yet we crave each other like the most addicting drug.

I suppose love and lust are wildly addicting-

And if that's so, I'd stay addicted to you for an eternity, 

Time and time again. 

It's you taking photos of me while I shower, while we play, or while I'm doing the most mundane things- 

If only I could see myself through your eyes- I often wonder what's on your mind,

And you respond "in time"

It's the moments you feed me food with your hands, such a small yet intimate gesture of affection-

I feel so cared for- 

It's when you wrap me so tightly in your arms, that I'm almost certain you'll never let go-

Please, don't ever let go- 

It's when my fingers trace your lips, your face, your spine- 

I'm capturing every inch of you and engraving it in my memory so that it becomes a part of my being-

You are slowly becoming just that,

A part of me. 

It's your laughter that triggers mine, 

Which triggers yours,

Which triggers mine-

A cycle we often find ourselves in,

I could live in those moments for as long as you'd let me.

It's how you don't let me walk on the inside of the street,

It's how you're so protective over me-

It's every time you're there for me-

It's all of these little moments,

That have me hooked-

Quite the feat

GS & NN

 "Let's carve our name in a tree" 

You say excitedly -

"Let's do it!" - I quip back

Your eyes get big with wonder,

Like a little kid about to do something forbidden,

"Seriously?" You didn't think I'd agree-

"Right now, let's go!" I grab your hand and we head out to find the perfect tree on this beautiful Spring night. 

The stars watch over us,

Our guides,

The moon, 

Our light-

We find the perfect tree, 

Smooth and inviting-

We giggle,

Cars whiz by, oblivious to our masterpiece in the making. 

Nice and large,

Deep and permanent-

A beautiful scar we create- 

One that will be seen for years to come.

The air is light and playful,

Just like our spirits, 

A bond carved deeper into the universe

Frequency

Tear off the roof of this home,

Expose ourself to the stars and full moon-

The way you look at me,

With such love in your eyes-

There's no denying this undying flame. 

Drenched in the sweetest sweat cascading down our bodies,

As we merge, eb and flow. 

That fucking eye contact-

Gets me every damn time. 

Your forehead pressed against mine, as we capture each other's moans and words with our lips and tongues. 

Licking every inch of you,

Tasting the most delicious energy -

Vowing to devour you,

Dedicating my time to your pleasure-

Falling deeper into the beautiful unknown with you-

But we both know,

How to read one another's mind and we smile as we do so.

Flickering candles around us as we experience a kaleidoscope of frequency beyond comprehension.

But who needs comprehension,  when we both have a knowing?

Candlelight

When she asks to make love by candlelight,

You light that whole room up with dozens of candles,

The flames looking like the stars in her eyes-

The warmth of her body against mine,

Her body between my thighs,

My tongue making her sigh-

Damn, it's about to be a beautiful night.

I Swear

 I swear 

I fall more and more,

For you,

Each

And 

Every

Day

I lay here examining my love, and the pace at which is grows and flourishes with you.

I can feel you in my core,

Part of my being.

You say you want to make love,

To my soul-

The most magical words.

And by this time tomorrow,

We will be,

My love.

Drenched

Breathing freely again,

Serenity overcomes me-

The universe is finally re-balanced.

There is a magic in your voice,

Alive and thriving- 

Your happiness starts to flourish again,

And I can't help but be overjoyed,

For you.

It is mind bending how you can mean so much to me,

Like sunshine to a budding rose.

My roots run deep, but you fuel my soul.

Let me soak up all that you emanate. 

I will overflow and fill your cup when it feels low,

I will give you my strength, when the weight of the world feels like too much to bear on your own

I will place my hand on your chest, to ground you when the world feels like it's spiraling out of control-

I can be your anchor- your rock.

Life ebs and flows,

Let me be your constant.

I smile at the thought that with each passing moment, I am closer to being in your arms-

I want to get lost in your embrace,

I want to send shockwaves through your body with my kiss and my touch-

Let's drown in our euphoria.

Remember,

This bliss, is ours to savor,

To cherish,

To devour,

To bask in.

Let's get drenched in it.

The Woman That Raised You

 Your mother,

Has become so special to me.

I am so grateful for the relationship her and I have built, and the bond that we share.

She has created the most warm and welcoming space for my soul to rest and feel safe.

She always lends an ear when needed,

Offers the best mom hugs with perfect timing,

She is truly an angel. 

We've gotten to the point where we talk every day,

Sharing bits about our day,

And things that make us laugh-

Your mom has made me want to open up to a mother figure again, 

I want to learn things from her,

I love that she shares her life stories with me,

And offers advice from a mother's perspective. 

I remember the first time she told me she loved me,

I was speechless,

And you could see it on my face - 

I couldn't believe it, 

But she said it again, "No, I really do love you"

And choking back tears, I said it back. 

We now say it with ease.

I'm so grateful that you share your momma with me.

I've talked to her about my mom, 

My God, I see similarities between them- 

My mom would have loved her,

So fucking much.

I think they would've become great friends, 

How I wish my mom could have met the woman that raised the woman I've grown to love. 

With tears in my eyes,

I bask in gratitude-

Thank you for allowing me to grow close to your family in the ways that I have,

It has healed bits of my soul.

You have so lovingly held me, 

In the moments my adoration for your momma, makes me miss mine-

I love how close you are with her-

Cherish that for all eternity.

11:59pm Oath

 Your beautiful laugh rings through the airwaves as the minutes and hours pass-

Before we know it, it is nearly midnight and we both have to get up at a reasonable hour.

We laugh at how quickly the time passed while we talked about everything from family to wishing we were tangled in bed with one another-

Pulling the other as close as humanly possible.

I can't help but be captivated by you.

All of you-

I know that you are on the precipice of a massive shift- a seismic change

And like I've promised,

I'll be there, by your side, for every single moment of it. 

Ride or Die- 

Like we said,

All of this is simply making us unbreakable,

Babe- this is how our story becomes set in stone. 

An oath until the end of time- and this is just the beginning.

90s Dreaming

 As the rain clears,

I hear baby doves chirping- 

I smell the petrichor as it floods my memories with childhood snapshots.

The remnants of a storm or Spring morning dew on my ankles as I walk barefoot in my grandmother's backyard-

Bits of mud sticking to my toes-

So carelessly happy as I walk toward the honeysuckles that beg to meet my lips.

A sweet taste,

Forever ingrained, accompanied by bleeding hearts and the songs of robins. 

Humming melodies and tiptoeing to my grandfather's garden, 

Where I take first fulls of cherry tomatoes and snack until my heart's content.

My little slice of paradise,

My home away from home.

That house had a huge hand in raising me- from it's chilly cellar, to its hand built wooden swingset, to the flowers my grandmother and I so tediously tended to.

Fresh lemonade on hot summer days,

Playing in the sprinkler in the front lawn,

Finding baby birds kicked from their nest,

Baking cookies from scratch, 

And stealing from grandpa's candy stash- 

I'd give anything to fall asleep on a cool spring evening, with the windows open, and a slow breeze tickling my face- as I lay on the living room floor, covered with a handmade quilt, falling asleep to 90s gameshows.

Connection

 You tell me that you've "never had this connection with anybody before"

You tell me "this is different" , "this is special"

You tell me that our sexual connection is "unlike anything" you've "ever experienced"

I can see it in your eyes, in your smile, and feel it in your touch.

Words cascade from your delicious lips, to my ears, traveling down my spine as they encompass my aura.

The electricity, the magnetism, the passion, the magic, the love- bubbling over in ways that is is hard for our human minds to comprehend. 

But my love,

Our souls are on fire-

They've been here before,

And we know it.

They have found each other lifetime after lifetime- 

And here we are again,

Doing this beautiful dance, 

Writing our own songs- 

Adding each second we cherish to our souls' memories.

We are reminded with each embrace,

Each kiss,

Each gentle touch,

Each whisper-

That we were meant to find one another.

A warmth, a safety, a sense of returning home-

My love,

You've taken my hand,

And I, yours-

So that we may explore all that this world has to offer us- 

We step slowly into oneness-

Enjoying every season along the way.

Falling

 And in the most beautiful, intimate moment- we finally acknowledged that we have been falling in love with one another.

Oh, how I love the way your eyes shined

Drifting Bliss

 Inhale

Exhale

Inhale

Exhale

My head on your chest,

Rising and falling with the rhythm of your slowing breath,

Your body relaxed with your arms around me,

I hear your heartbeat steady and strong,

"Give me a kiss,"

You demand in a soft tone and loving way,

Knowing it is just one more kiss that you crave before your drift into dreamland.

I oblige.

The passion encompassed in each kiss, unlike any other.

My head back on your chest, 

You gently rub my back and shoulder until you finally drift to sleep-

Though I am awake for what feels like hours after you're exploring a different realm.

I thank the Universe for this moment, 

All moments that preceded,

And all moments to come.

I finally drift too,

Only to find you in my dreams- 

Doing all of the things we've said we'd do.

Time passes,

The moon kisses us as we sleep entangled in one another's arms

For the entirity of the night,

As always.

And when I wake, I gently trace your collarbone,

Your shoulders, your chest,

Your arms, your hips, 

And the inside of your thighs-

You subconciously spread your legs a little more,

As your body absorbs my touch.

Slowly you begin to smile and stir,

Words begin to bounce between our lips,

Morning kisses and coffee to follow-

Our mornings are bliss.

Watching you come to life as the hours pass,

Is truly a sight to see- 

Captivating and invigorating. 

Precious Moment

 Laying backwards,

Onto your chest,

Between your legs,

As you rub oil all over my shoulders and chest-

You giggle,

"What?" I smile and ask

"Nothing" you quip with a smirk. Your eyes sparkling as you daydream.

"Tell me" I laugh a little and tilt my head back to look at your beautiful face.

A soft smile graces your lips,

You tell me that if I were carrying our daughter you would rub my belly for me with lotion, all the time... 

I fucking melt.

We kiss,

With fiery passion that only we know.

Love Made

After sharing

Raw emotions-

Flooded by the depths of our souls,

A moment we will cherish forever,

Lost in the most passionate kiss,

Souls melting into the edge of oblivion, 

Unsure when the kiss led to the most beautiful love made, 

But so sure of the entanglement we have found ourselves in. 

Seconds of breath captured,

Minutes of rhythmic ecstacy,

Hours of falling deeper

Into this masterpiece we create.

Moments of stillness,

Nothing but our exhausted breathing,

Smiles sprinkled with kisses in between,

Again,

Again,

We find ourselves in the heat of the moment,

Rolling orgasms and whispered nothings,

That mean everything and more.

Drifting into a sleep,

In the early morning hours,

For just a few hours,

And we play it on repeat the moment we wake.

If We So Dare

 Laughing until tears flow freely,

My cheeks hurt,

And I can't stop-

The night encompasses us through the airwaves-

As my laugh triggers yours,

And the cycle continues.

Sweet and innocent,

I'm a little stoned-

And the serious question of pancakes or waffles arises-

We fall on the same page

Thank Goddess- 

But an even more serious topic arises-

How chocolate chips do not belong in pancakes.

You think I'm joking,

But I stand my ground-

We spiral and get ourselves into a sticky situation,

Pun intended-

Into the oblivion we fall-

And beautifully divide,

Able to laugh at the other's opinion on each matter-

Minutes pass ever so slowly,

And I can't seem to catch and bottle up my laughter- 

And instead of being embarrased, 

I can feel how much you love it- 

I can hear how much it engulfs you.

You actually love my little quirks-

And a moment of beauty,

Seriousness,

And fantasy arises-

You tell me how if you had a daughter,

With your future wife,

You'd get up early as your wife sleeps-

Gently wake your daughter and whisper:

"Let's make your mom pancakes in bed"

My heart skips a beat,

You continue to tell me all of the adorable things- 

Building this ideal future,

It is beautiful,

I want to capture it and turn it to gold,

So that I can savor it forever. 

A gentle tear of joy graces my cheeks,

For I can see it vividly,

I can feel all of the emotions that come with it

Bizzare-

But I embrace it,

As I have, everything, with you.

A surreal experience, we are destined to.

You're as sweet as the sugar that coats my throat,

With each bite,

Each sip,

Each taste-

Let me drown in your sweetness,

And soak up your loving,

My favorite flavor,

So fulfilling.

Wrap me in your daydreams,

And hold me in your deepest desires,

A space that we will explore together,

Getting lost, never tired,

Of one another.

Your soul has truly captured mine,

Bound to you- 

A fairytale as old as time-

But something brighter,

On the horizon,

Entices us to full step in, 

And immerse ourselves.

I'd get lost with you,

On any day,

In any place,

In any galaxy that awaits- 

Guided by your laughter,

The shine in your eyes,

The electricity in your touch,

And the magic between your thighs-

And each story,

Each "what if"

Each deep talk,

Each gentle touch,

Each passionate love,

Each moment wrapped in us,

Takes us there-

To our destination,

If we so dare.

8pm Rambles

 How are you even real?

Calling me your future wife,

Generating AI photos of our future children and sending them to me-

We giggle together as we go through them.

We've created such a beautiful potential future life together,

That I feel the alchemy working-

We are manifesting it,

And to put it lightly,

It is wild. 

Our talks yesterday took us to a whole new level,

What it means to love,

To fall in love,

To be in love...

How we'd care for one another in moments of darkness, 

How we'd dance together in moment of joy-

Telling me today that you would go to the ends of the Earth to find me,

If need be.

But you've already found me-

Who the fuck are you,

And where have you been all of my life?

We know that the timing was divine-

In God's timing, and Inshallah we will find our permanent place in one another's lives.

Gratitude is an understatement. 

My Eyes Are Not My Own

 A glimpse,

A moment, 

My eyes meet my own-

Standing in front of me as I take off my makeup after a lovely day.

I quickly look away,

A habit I formed back when you left this earth,

For my eyes are your own,

Over the years, I've tried to fall in love with them again-

Shades of green, speckled with blue that comes from you.

My first thought tonight was,

"Wow"

Captivated by the quick glimpse of beauty that nearly escaped me with the moment.

But then it hits me,

I force myself to look back,

And I see you.

I see you so vividly,

In my image.

And I smile,

Fighting back some tears. 

I chuckle, because in this moment I realize, I feel most beautiful when I see you in me.

I've looked away for so long,

Trying to forget the pain of the loss,

Even my own father doesn't look me in the eyes the same anymore,

Because he sees you-

It took my brother years to open back up to me, 

Because he feels you-

My own grandmother won't answer my calls,

Because she hears you.

But what they don't realize, is that you are a part of each of us-

I just happen to outwardly portray it.

So,

I tell you how I feel,

A smile slips back across my lips.

I love you dearly,

And feel you with me, 

Every waking moment,

Of every day. 

You are my soul-

I embody the unconditional love that you instilled in me at such a young age.

Visit me soon,

In my dreams,

Because only there, you become tangible. 

My eyes are not my own,

I share them with an angel,

And I hope that even strangers can see your light when they look into my eyes.

Finality Spiral

 And it continues,

Obsessive observation-

It's a wonder how exhaustion hasn't overtaken,

An unhealthy addiction,

Driving the already insane, 

off the edge of a cliff.

You think it's hidden-

But it's written,

Each and every time-

Dozens in a day.

Well, I can tell you,

That it's slowly winding,

Down,

To a moment of finality. 

It's time to accept,

Reflect,

Move on-

Heal,

And grow.

There is no sense in grasping at the dust of the past,

When a new love has blossomed,

In a different universe-

One that you could not even fathom.

The world becomes a desolate place,

For those who wish to pace in purgatory.

The mind,

A deadly embrace-

A spiral with not an ounce of grace,

For those who long to stay stuck in self-serving, and self-sabotaging cycles.

Inward one must turn,

To truly heal the deepest wounds-

Those that make us act in selfish ways,

Despite the pain it brings others.

A journey,

Long,

Yet worth it.

Give it a shot-

For the world is only growing more cruel,

So one must hold a mirror to the darkest parts within,

And never look away-

Because the moment one does,

All comes crashing down-

Again and again,

Like a broken record on repeat-

An experience that is so familiar.

Don't get lost in the "why's

Because You are the why.

Instead,

Pivot. 

And Heal the sludge that's inside,

Of your dying and dark soul.

Day In & Day Out

 Every morning,

Regardless of time,

Could be 3am, 5am or 9am

It starts.

Our playful, loving, tango-

From soft "I miss you"s 

To "Fuck, I want you"s

Sometimes it's kisses,

And my body on yours,

While other times it's you waking me up with a call, as my sleepy voice rings with joy on the other end of the phone.

It's the constant updates on the days we are apart,

And the constant touches, kisses, glances and laughter when we are together.

Day in and Day out,

You have integrated into my life,

So carefully,

Meticulously,

Radiantly-

Every moment, 

You're on my mind,

And I, on yours-

Like we've become intertwined in the most fulfilling way...

Because we have,

And I've come to love it, with every fiber of my being, every corner of my heart, every piece of my soul.

You always give me exactly what I need,

You are so nurturing, and loving-

So aware of yourself, and of me-

I melt in your hands like clay waiting to be molded into a masterpiece,

Let's create this together-

Messy but beautiful,

Eye-catching and soul-drenching.

Day in 

And

Day out

As I fill my lungs with the purest air,

And exhale any fears-

You've shown me time and time again,

That you're not going anywhere-

And I, the same for you.

Let me cascade as we dance,

Into whatever the future may hold,

Let the rush wash over me,

And make me whole-

Let me help carry your weights, 

And watch your peace unfold-

I am here with you now,

And will remain.

Your heart is pure gold,

And I soak up the tenderness with gratitude -

Embodying all that we are and what we could be.

No crystal ball,

Just slowly building,

Day in and Day out-

You amaze me,

And I adore you, for all that you are. 

Every last piece.

Simply Me & You

 I could linger in this moment,

For lifetimes to come- 

Surrounded by this ethereal feeling.

I could linger here with you, 

Until the world ceases to exist-

And when that happens, 

I'll remember you,

As you will have been imprinted in my soul.

I'll find you amongst the stardust and ashes,

Time and time again-

And remind you of the beauty that we share,

And the love that we grew together.

I'll show you the memories we've made, 

And it will all come rushing back,

It will feel familiar and like home-

This world we live in is temporary,

But energy lasts forever-

The alchemy we create is undeniably ours,

And untouchable.

Travel through each galaxy with me,

Sip on the stars, like we used to sip tea-

Make love amongst the astroids,

And let me shelter you from black holes.

Travel with me,

Here and now,

Then and there.

Expand our horizons together, 

As we melt into all that we could possibly create.

Intimate

 Let my mind roam for a minute,

Let me dive in for a minute,

Let me go deep, and get wet, and spread you open for a minute

Let me get freaky, get nasty, get trashy for a minute...

Tell the whole world exactly what I'd do to you, for a minute...

I want to lick your neck as I make my way to your ear, to whisper exactly how badly I want to taste your sweet pussy on my lips,

My tongue salivates at the thought of it dancing around your clit, 

Making your back arch, as you take a fist full of my hair-

Making unwavering eye contact with me.

I'm on my knees, bare and vulnerable, 

Begging "please" as you tease me.

Let's add a ball-gag for the fuck of it.

I want to slide my fingers inside of you as you let out a sigh,

My name on your lips, my teeth on your thighs-

My grip on your ass,

Ecstacy in your eyes...

Tie me up, 

Tell me how,

I'm such a "good girl" and a "bad girl" while you fuck my mouth-

Bend me over your lap,

And spank my ass-

With gentle kisses in between.

Let me climb on top of you, 

Let me ride you, with your hands on my hips,

Telling me how I'm the most beautiful woman to ever exist- 

And between my sighs of pleasure,

I'll say "no babe, that's you." 

I want to bite your lip, 

Have you suck on my tit,

Leave hickeys on my ass,

So I'll never forget - 

Exactly who I belong with. 

I want to fuck you with your knees by your head, as I dive deeper-

Watch your eyes roll back, as you say "please" and "thank you"

Let me tie you to the bed, 

I'll bend over and spread open wide for you,

Until you can't take it anymore- 

Squirming because you need a taste. 

Whisper to me while we are out for dinner, that you want me as dessert, 

Slip your hand between my legs,

Telling me exactly how you're going to have your way with me when we get back-

Fuck me in the back seat of your car,

Messy, hot, sweaty, kinky, and playfully

Hoping we don't get caught- 

Baby, what if we get caught?

Do you want to take some pictures of me?

If I'm feeling sassy, put me in my place- 

Especially when I say "No"

Use me how you want to, 

I'm yours for the night, the day, the week, until you're done with me-

God, I know you'll never be done with me-

This electric connection is something only we can see, can feel, can taste, can touch.

Chills crawl down my spine as you tell me to fuck you, 

I simply can't get enough of you-

Then we cool down,

Take it slow-

Create a love that no one knows,

Except for us-

Pulling one another closer, 

Wrapping your arms around me, 

Kissing me slowly and passionately,

Looking into my eyes as you gaze into my soul,

Saying words unspoken.

I wrap my legs around you, 

We reach climax, 

After climax,

After climax

Together -

And then,

The slowness,

Of soaking up the moment,

Soaking up eachother. 

Holding hands,

Tickling the small of my back,

While I gently trace your face with my finger tips...

I love the way we eb and flow,

So fucking

Intimate.

Asra & Art

 Not sure the year,

But a few from now-

In a different place,

Building and growing. 

Our beautiful daughter,

Bouncing curls like yours-

Maybe 8 or 9 years old.

A parent teacher conference,

For art class - 

Our little girl expressing herself through color, despite the instructions to create in charcoal -

Black and white.

The concern from her art teacher regarding her lack of following direction made me giggle inside,

Because she has such a free spirit-

Not one to be tamed. 

And your face,

Oh my God,

Your face-

I laugh now thinking about it.

Pure shock and utter irritability-

"Art is subjective, how can you even grade her on her own interpretation?" 

And here we go,

I fight back my laughter and try not to let it show on my face. 

Because I know you, 

And how you think that social construct is absolute bullshit.

The teacher explains the assignment again, as if you didn't hear,

Asra playing with a doll at another table behind us, oblivious to the conversation at hand. 

She has such peace of mind in her own little world,

I smile, knowing this won't affect her.

You roll your eyes, and kindly say "Ma'am,  I understand the assignment, but do you understand that art is subjective?" 

In that moment I realize how much I adore you,

I love how you advocate for those you love,

Your love is so deep and apparent, 

The giggles build inside of me, because I swear I can read your mind. 

And I wake , from the sound of my actual laughter

Inevitable

 There is so much inevitable about Us.

There is such certainty in my heart and soul that things will continue to unfold as they have thusfar,

While uncovering all of the endless possibilities ahead of us. 

You have become such a beacon of light in my world,

And I'll capture and cherish it, every moment I get.

We hold something sacred.

It is delicately crafted to meet each of our needs and desires-

While exceeding all expectations we've had.

A pleasant surprise, to say the least.

Who would've known back in August of last year that this would have blossomed into what it has?

Who would've known that from December to now, we would have fallen this deep?

Only Goddess and the Universe;

Who have conspired to connect our souls in the most intricate ways.

You are slowly becoming a piece of me, and I a piece of you.

Each step meticulously taken, with trust and hope-

Each moment delivering a satisfaction neither of us have experienced before,

Sasiating a hunger we knew we had deep down.

Our glasses slowly filling with droplets of love, 

Unconditionally- 

Expanding in the spaces where we need it most,

A life force fueling all that we could possibly want or need.

Shockwaves course through my veins with each kiss, each gentle touch, each gaze with words unspoken-

We study one another, fascinated by the other's magic and glow.

The truth is,

We've both been glowing a lot more,

We have been radiant as we go throughout our days- 

Both together, and apart. 

Strangers notice, friends notice, our families notice.

But what is most important, is that We notice,

And we know that this is something special,

Something unbreakable, 

Something undeniably meant to be-

As we say, the perfect timing.

Watching us water and grow this delicate seed, has proven to be one of the most enjoyable tasks I've taken on with you. Watching it sprout, and peek its face towards the sun, is just the beginning of all that's to come.

The first of many things we will grow together, 

Sow together,

Reap together.

Bask in the sunlight today and feel my kiss, 

My arms around you will be soon to follow.

Wild Beautiful Ride

  "Fuck it, let's just skip everything and get married..."

"I'd marry you tomorrow..." 

Bold statements,

Followed by pinky promises and more talks of kids-

Our kids,

Our future,

Our "what could be" life. 

You so badly want to hear the words escape my lips-

And you know they're there,

And I hear them through your gaze. 

You are such a God damn dream-

You may tell me that I have "all of the qualities you've ever wanted in a partner," but darling, the truth is, you have all of the ones I could have asked for too.

We vow to navigate this terrain together-

While it may have its bumps, twists and turns- we've found a way to make it beautiful. 

We have healed one another so much, and I love the way we glow, especially when we are together. 

Kissing you today outside,  I was captivated by your light as the sun kissed the sides of our faces. You looked like an angel, standing unapologetically in front of me. 

I could drown in your laughter, and die happy- truly,  happy. 

We count down the minutes and hours until we are wrapped in one another's arms again - but despite the space, I feel your energy and your love wrapped around me...tightly..

 Holding me in a sacred space;

One that only we share. 

It is so strong and safe, honest and accepting... 

A place I could easily call "home." 

Which is why we laugh, as we share dreams and day dreams - because as ridiculous as it may sound, we both simply could see it. 

You feel right, you fit right, you are right- 

And my heart is full yet again. 

I'll hold onto yours with care, as you have mine. 

It is so wildly beautiful, this ride.

Mornings Like This

 Mornings like this,

I wish I was waking next to your beautiful face-

Rolling over and kissing you gently on the forehead while you still rest your eyes-

Tracing my fingers along your back and your thighs.

Mornings like this 

I wish I could feel your body against mine- bare, and begging for me-

Always the perfect way to start our day,

That closeness is unmatched,

As we reach climax together.

Mornings like this I wish I could bring you coffee in bed,

Analyze our dreams from the night prior as we sip the bitter heat, and hold one another's hand-

I love our slow morning talks and routines.

Mornings like this I wish you were sitting at my kitchen table,

As I make you breakfast with love, 

Your adoring eyes looking at my ass, as I stand at the stove-

You can't help yourself but stand up and walk my way for a handful, while kissing on my neck and playfully teasing me.

Mornings like this, I wish you'd be walking beside me as I take my pup for a walk- 

The cool spring breeze excites us for the summer to come, 

We soak up the sunshine and one another, in a blissful moment shared.

But for now,

Mornings like this mean me savoring each memory we've created, hearing your voice on the other end of the line as you sneak away to say "good morning"

Mornings like this mean, words spilling onto pages as I sip my coffee wishing I was tasting you instead-

Counting down the hours until we are together again- 

On mornings like this,

I remind myself that the greater picture is so fucking beautiful, 

And so worth the wait-

All of this is temporary and "in time," as we always say, we will be exactly where we are supposed to be,

Babe, I know the thought of it excites you, the way it excites me 

Mornings like this, 

Let's hold them close-

They're building blocks on our journey-

A foundation being laid, 

And someday, 

We will look back and say,

"Remember those mornings? Look how far we've made it."

Fervor

 It's early,

I sit here and hold onto the stillness and steadiness of your breath,

After another night spent sleeping on the phone with one another. 

My coffee is hot and perfectly bitter,

A cool spring breeze dances through my home. 

Bakhoor burns while my mind swirls with the poetry that is, you.

You are the embodiment of what love should feel like.

Gentle, calm, sensitive,  understanding,  warm, protective, playful, passionate, ambitious, adventurous, open minded, safe, nurturing, kind, and patient. 

I explore the depths of my mind, untangling all of the emotions that buzz around my soul-

They're so beautiful, and intricate -

I feel encouraged to explore and express them- you create that space for me.

I see beyond the now with you,

I see the possibilities that could be if we decide to chase them unapologetically, together.

It is wild to unpack and decode, 

But life is far too short to deny ourselves what we both know we crave. 

So,

We dance-

To the sound of you humming a tune,

To the music in the grocery store and the gym,

To the sound of our heartbeats and breath.

Oh, how we dance.

And we laugh,

At the world at our feet, 

At the things that only we know and share,

At the chaos around us,

God, 

I love your laugh.

You bring me closer to my highest self,

Bringing out my favorite parts of my being,

Allowing me to step into who I truly am,

And you accept me-

And adore the intricacies I've shared with you.

You look at me as though you've found a lost treasure you weren't sure existed -

But, I'm here to tell you-

I wasn't sure that it existed either,

But it appears that we've found it together.

It's materialized and crystallized before our eyes.

Moments pass, and you have now made yourself at home in my mind and my heart,

As minutes, hours, and days pass by,

I think of you often, 

It's like you're always there. 

I'm so grateful you've decided to stay,

To explore,

To trust, 

And to open up.

You are such a work of art,

Inside and out,

I consume you with fervor and intent.

Falling more with each passing moment,

Without a care if I have a parachute attached,

Because the rush of this all,

Will be worth it.

Free falling and confident you will catch me in the end.

"Some type of way"

 You look at me,

Adoring gaze as if you're captivated-

Eyes locked with mine, 

Smile brighter than the sun...

"What?" I ask playfully

Already knowing what you're thinking,

Because I'm thinking it too. 

You play a game of tug of war,

With your words - not saying what you're thinking, as I try to pull it out of you

"When the time is right..."

You quip, 

I smirk,

Your smile gets wider

I playfully beg, acting as if I can't read what is written all over your beautiful face,

But it's there,

I see it

But you keep your lips tight,

And only say "You've got me feeling some type of way"

... "Some type of way"

As I inquire about the millions of emotions you could possibly feel, you giggle uncontrollably-

But we both know,

What "Some type of way" means

So I say back to you,

"You've got me feeling some type of way too"

Let's Do This

 All of the talks,

About this future,

We are building-

The smiles on our faces,

As we know exactly what's unfolding-

Undeniably set in stone,

The love grows,

The memories flow,

The laughter expands,

The ideas begin to materialize,

As I see it in your eyes,

In your smile...

I feel it in your touch,

And hear it in your soft whispers as I slowly wake in your arms

Beautiful woman,

Let's do this.

Brick by Brick

 Brick by brick-

Building a foundation,

Made from love, and trust-

Honesty and true concern for the other's emotions and well being.

It is beautiful,

We etch our names with iron knives,

Encompassed by a heart

We listen, 

And navigate- each task together,

The perfect pair,

A give and take-

Every brick laid with intention,

The mortar filling each crevice,

Leaving no space for the elements to claw at. 

It starts out slow,

But before we know it, we're building walls-

Not the kind that need to be torn down,

But the kind that create support for our growing journey. 

We work sunrise to sunset,

Building and sharing laughter as we do-

A masterpiece we are crafting,

With both ease and grit.

As time passes, the roof gets finished,

Supported by the walls and foundation,

It protects us from any storms we may weather together. 

When we step outside, and take a few steps back,

To examine our work,

We are in awe-

We had no idea this whole time, 

We were not only building a home,

But a castle-

One with such grandeur we can barely believe our eyes

We created this,

Through blood, sweat and tears-

Endless nights melding into one,

The synchronicities as our guide-

They mapped out every placement,

Every corner,

Every window,

Every wall

And we are left with something so magnificent, we can barely believe our eyes.

So with gratitude, we whisper to the universe, that we will care for it and fill it with such joy, that the walls will sing for centuries after us. 

Revel

 Another night,

Talking for hours,

About how we would raise our kids...

Seeing eye to eye,

Paired with compromise-

What a beautiful discussion.

A dream slowly unfolding- 

I giggle as a smile graces my lips.

We are wild, and I love it.

Only Goddess knows where this journey will take us,

And there is absolutely no rush-

We've fallen into this beautiful rhythm that works for us-

An eb and flow,

Complimented with passion and desire. 

I hear it in your voice,

You are slowly beginning to relax,

To exhale-

It is such a beautiful thing to observe. 

I'm sorry that all of the women before me left you with scars and bruises,

I promise to tend to them with love and care.

I'll be gentle as I examine each one, and kiss away the pain-

I'll be patient as the hurt and confusion fade-

I'll show you what love and freedom mean, and how the balance will make you thrive! 

I want to watch you blossom into your fullest potential,

Like a sunflower opens towards the sun,

I hope you'll continue to open up to me.

The sparkle in your eyes, as you look into mine, sets fire to my entire being.

I will crave this feeling for an eternity, 

So please, stay. 

Make yourself at home in my arms. 

I truly believe we've attracted one another, 

Manifested what we have,

Here and now. 

Gratitude isn't a strong enough word for the experience of exploring and building something with you. 

If you could bottle up bliss, 

Taste it,

Smell it,

Hear it,

Feel it,

Embody it-

Take it, then add copious amount of sunshine-

Topped with the warmth of a blazing fire, 

And the peace of a still Spring night-

It would begin to scratch the surface of what this experience has felt like-

There is simply so much depth to it, that the English language cannot capture-

All I can do is revel in it.

Until The Time Is Right

 It's the phone call movie dates,

The late night phone sex,

Video chatting so we can be present while we tell one another exactly how and when to get off-

Then falling asleep on the phone,

Only to wake up to the sound of the other peacefully stirring, the next morning-

It's moments like these that make me fall deeper, 

That captivate me,

That set my soul on fire-

Watching us unfold, 

And bring out the best in one another,

Has been such a magnetic sight and electric feeling. 

I explore parts of you that no woman has, while you explore parts of me I've tucked away and have never shown another. 

Turning corners to find another hidden gem, within your soul-

As you expose all of my potential and call me out for hiding it.

You tell me there is something you want to say, as your smile beams -

"When the time is right"

I beg playfully, knowing in my heart that I already innately know-

And you assure me, that when you finally do say it, I will know it was exactly what you were talking about. 

We have those things,

Those moments-

Where we see a glimpse into our future and the rest of the world melts away. 

I eagerly, yet patiently wait-

Because I know the day is just on the horizon-

So I'll watch every sunset followed by sunrise,

Until the time is right.

24 Reasons

 24 Roses

For 

24 Reasons

For

1 Beautiful Soul

A laugh I can't get enough of,

A smile that captures my heart,

A gentle touch that makes my body weak,

Kisses that are sweeter than honey.

Your nuturing energy,

Your beautiful eyes,

The magic we make when our bodies meet,

Your adventurous spirit.

Your passionate, fiery, soul,

Our early mornings,

Our gym dates,

Your philosophy on the greater picture of life.

Your intelligence and longing to learn,

The loving relationship you have with your family,

Your disciplined nature-

The thoughtfulness you exude. 

Your competitive edge,

The way you pull me close as we sleep,

The electric, magnetic, and expansive sexual chemistry we share,

Your sensitive heart,

Your logic,

Your bouncing curls,

Our deep conversations,

The future we continue to build and explore.

I could list 24 more,

A hundred times over,

But I'll save those for when I'm in your arms again.

My beautiful muse,

The woman who leaves me wanting more- 

You are a gem, 

That I promise to cherish, like there is no end.

Extraordinary Calm

 You bring my soul peace,

It is quite simple,

Yet extraordinary. 

When my mind gets consumed with the realities of the world,

You always know how to ground me,

Bring me down,

Calm the noise.

This is something I've been searching for,

And here you are- 

Embodying it.

As each day passes,

I'm more convinced, 

You are what I've been looking for,

What my heart has needed,

What my soul has craved.

I float down this river with you,

And the world melts away-

We build bonds, while sharing dreams-

We get lost, together, and it is intoxicating.

You've found me.

Thank you for that.

Thank you for following the pull- 

Thank you endlessly.

Soon

 Can you feel the tug through the miles, 

That separate?

The bond that grows stronger, 

Each time we part ways?

Despite minutes and miles,

We find a way,

To grow,

To blossom,

With each passing day.

Of all of the souls, that travel this Earth,

Yours has captivated mine,

And for what it's worth,

I am bound,

To you-

To find out where this goes.

Your beauty eminates from your soul,

Outwards,

Radiates,

And glows,

For now, 

I am missing your fingers between mine.

The taste of your kiss,

Your body pressed against mine,

But we have time.

To grow, to learn, to laugh, and to explore- one another,

Let me be the support you need,

When your eyes are tired, and your soul feels weak-

Embrace all that I have to offer, 

In my comfort and love.

Let me be your soft place to land, 

When the world feels too much.

I gaze out over this lake, 

The clouds choking the sun- 

And I whisper, to the universe that there is only One,

Who I long for, and you are Her.

I imagine the laughter we could share in this house, 

As you meet my family- and melt into the flow so effortlessly.

In time, 

I know.

I trust.

You are worth the wait,

The adventure,

The journey.

The gratitude I feel when I am in your arms,

Is like I've lived a million lifetimes right, and am finally being rewarded-

Because, how could I possibly have found you?

Rather, you found me- 

But it's all the same in the end.

I find warmth at the thought of you,

Find peace in your voice, 

Find magic in your touch.

I long to be in your arms again-

Soon.

Slip Up

 The slip,

From your lips,

Those three words,

Just flowed,

Like a river,

With ease-

Then collective laughter,

Making light-

Knowing the timing...

But we both know,

We are both falling-

Undeniable. 

And I love the absolute rush of it all.

Baby Freya

 You,

Quick with your words- 

So powerful, 

So bold-

You playfully talk about our "what could be" future-

Passion in your voice as you say you're going to "wife me up" when I rub your shoulders after a long day, when I cook for you, when I make any house you step into feel like a home.

Today you called me and told me how you thought about my dreams of my daughter- the beautiful little girl with bouncing curls... 

The one who is not yet earthside, but lingers in the spirit realm waiting for the right time to make her appearance. 

You always love when I share those dreams with you. I watch your face light up with intrigue - your eyes starry, and energy soft. Your voice excited and welcoming for the details.

Today you suggested how beautiful our child would be- Egyptian, Norwegian and Italian-

Honestly, a little Goddess waiting to be created.

You joked we could name that child with an "Egyptian Viking name" 

As I drifted back to sleep after that conversation,  another dream,

This one planted by your words.

A park, 

A winding concrete path lined with beautiful green trees,

Birds chirping...

And you... with my daughter, holding her hand, walking in front of me.

The feelings: pure happiness & a sense of family.

Both of you with curls bouncing as you laughed and talked to her,

She was about five years old.

They say that words are powerful manifestations, and dreams can be prophetic- and to be completely honest, if this is the way everything unfolds, I have no doubt in my soul the journey would be beautiful. 

It's fun to daydream about - who knows! 

Chess

 Chess is a game best played at a slow pace,

Meticulously calculating,

Each

And

Every

Move.

The Queen,

The most powerful in her stance,

Has full autonomy to move as she pleases,

Taking out anyone in her way,

With absolute grace.

Watch her patiently waiting as rooks and knights dance around her,

The Bishop thinks she's sharp,

She acts fast, but often fumbles-

Revealing her next move prematurely.

She focuses on the pawns in here foresight-

Instead of the journey itself.

Her number one weakness-

Unlike the Queen who views the board from above-

A divine sight.

The dance is beautifully dangerous,

Such as life itself-

It requires a still power of the mind,

While flowing with creativity.

It's won simply by thinking ten steps ahead,

But often lost by swift and anxious faults.

So,

The Queen sits in wait, 

Obstacles simply falling to the wayside-

Knowing all will be revealed. 

And all of a sudden,

You're exposed-

Bare and unable to hide behind a thing.

The King - a death wish granted.

Patience is the ultimate key,

Check Mate.

Unseen Heaven

 The levels of ecstacy that we reached last night,

All night,

Took me to a Heaven I've never seen-

Your closeness, your breath on my neck, 

And the gentle, loving kisses in between.

Galaxies undressed before us.

We ripped open the roof to let the stars watch our magic-

As clouds danced a tango with the moon.

Songs of electric chemistry coursed through our veins, as our hearts synchronized in rhythm. 

A passion so fierce not a single soul would understand-

And I'm not sure I'd want them to.

What we have is sacred,

Beautiful and intriguing. 

A journey being built brick by brick, 

And we are the creators,

The artists.

Wrap me in your gentle love, 

While pushing the boundaries of our playful lust-

Such an exquisite balance we've found.  

Sophisticated, yet it comes so naturally-

You are the flame that ignites this knowing inside of my soul-

We are right where we are meant to be,

On Our journey,

With one another-

Cheers to the next chapter babe.

Conversation with God

 I talked to God today,

And I told her about your eyes,

Your gentle touch, your careful whispers, the magic between your thighs-

I talked to God today,

Sang songs I wrote for you,

She let me spill my poems, 

And share memories of us two.

I talked to God today,

I swear her smile, just like yours

I showed her all our pictures,

And share our inner wars.

I talked to God today,

I asked her how she came,

To create such a vibrant soul,

And place her in my way. 

I talked to God today,

She told me that you shine,

Pure alchemy had made you,

Maybe one day you'll be mine-

I talked to God today,

And I captured every word-

She said you're meant to thrive and blossom, 

Far beyond this world.

I talked to God today,

I inquired about your light-

She told me she placed it deep within,

With few, you'd shine it bright

I talked to God today,

And I thanked her for your life,

You've brightened mine,

And opened up,

My heart, a flame ignites.

Journey to The Shores

 You make life brighter,

I catch myself singing to hummingbirds more,

Craving my bare feet in the grass again, 

Whispering to stars as the moon dances across the night sky. 

I am simply returning back to my truest nature,

And your energy has allowed me to do so. 

You make me feel safe, calm, heard, and seen.

Your reassurance comes naturally and your ability to communicate and navigate is unmatched. 

Something we both appreciate and need.

I embrace the cool spring breeze flowing through my home, 

It kisses me awake with the sunshine that peeks through my bedroom window. 

My soul truly at peace, finding absolute alchemy in everything I see and touch-

The magic is real and alive. 

You've reminded me that home is where my heart is-

It is something I carry within my soul to every corner of the Earth I explore and uncover.

It is a feeling I want to share with you, will you let me?

Naked and vulnerable you tend to all of my scars with curiosity and care-

You listen and never judge,

You hold me with such delicate intent, that at times, I feel like the most fragile rose that could never be destroyed. 

I long to do the same for you.

I want to remind you of the parts of yourself you love most-

I want to shed light on all of your most beautiful traits, and hold a mirror to your soul so you can see them and love them.

Your tender, kind heart

Your inquisitive mind

Your deep rooted joy for life and the laughter that comes with it

Your passion to explore and wander and thrive

Take my hand,

Let's skip stones on foreign riverbeds, 

Dance barefoot on ancient moss-

Howl at the moon from the depths of our wild instincts, then lay on our backs in the grass and laugh at what we've just done.

Let's have affogato on the shores of Sicily, and sip tea on the Gulf-

Let's share a pear cider on a bustling street in Oslo,

Let's have fresh sushi in a mom & pop restaurant down an alley Tokyo.

Let me take you to the shores I grew up on, salt water in my wavy blonde hair- so we can watch the sunrise over the ocean.

Then take me to the shores of your fondest memories- I want to know where your curls bounced as you ran as a wild child.

I want to share everything with you,

Past, present and future-

I want to show you what my life was like, see what yours was like, enjoy what we have now, and explore what will become. 

The excitement makes my heart race in the most elegant and anticipatory way.

Then I remind her to enjoy the moment, and my goodness, when she does- it is pure bliss.

Thank you, 

For simply being you.

For sharing what you have,

And what you will.

Thank you,

For receiving what I have to offer with such warmth and grace.

Grave Digger

 You lurk in the shadows,

Of the nearest graveyard-

Inhibitions lost,

And mind playing my words on repeat.

Words that you have tried to decipher,

Yet can only clumsily put the pieces together,

Like a toddler fumbling with blocks.

Your lack of self-control is unmatched,

As you spiral at the sight of me,

At the sound of my name,

At the thought of who you've made me to be in your head-

But darling, you are clueless.

You search for a grave with my name etched in stone,

Efforts for minutes, hours, days and weeks-

Yet, you can't find my bones-

So you get down on your hands and knees,

Clawing at the dirt, and screaming at oak trees,

Asking yourself "How could this be me?"

Well, let me tell you babe-

It's your failed fantasy.

You see the mind is a powerful thing,

And yours seems to have lost its way-

An obsession you can't seem to break,

But it breaks you, as you chip away

At your own damn heart.

A cold heart at that,

I've heard the stories-

The sadness,

You did all of that. 

Your hands are covered in dirt,

Nails bleeding at the beds-

Scrapes on your knees, 

Trouble catching your breath.

And just when you thought,

You had nothing left-

A shovel is handed to you from over your head-

Your smile creeps up,

Your evil sets in-

"I'll bury this bitch"

Your sick urge to win.

So you grab the handle and slowly stand up-

Start to dig,

Not giving a fuck,

About who handed you this shovel,

You couldn't care less-

So you dig and you dig,

Until there's a seven foot depth-

A sweat on your brow, 

You're proud of yourself,

For digging this hole-

 and dancing in hell

Then comes the moment you finally see,

I handed you the shovel,

All along, it was me. 

Blood drains from your face,

Words escape from your lips-

You look down once more,

And see the headstone just sits

Above the grave you just dug,

And spelled out in grey-

Your name clearly there-

You try wiping away.

But babe, I hate to break it to you-

It's all set in stone.

Our destiny's made, 

From stardust and bones-

When we meddle with ill intention,

It comes back tenfold.

So you dug your own grave,

I helped you bury your bones.