The Woman That Raised You

 Your mother,

Has become so special to me.

I am so grateful for the relationship her and I have built, and the bond that we share.

She has created the most warm and welcoming space for my soul to rest and feel safe.

She always lends an ear when needed,

Offers the best mom hugs with perfect timing,

She is truly an angel. 

We've gotten to the point where we talk every day,

Sharing bits about our day,

And things that make us laugh-

Your mom has made me want to open up to a mother figure again, 

I want to learn things from her,

I love that she shares her life stories with me,

And offers advice from a mother's perspective. 

I remember the first time she told me she loved me,

I was speechless,

And you could see it on my face - 

I couldn't believe it, 

But she said it again, "No, I really do love you"

And choking back tears, I said it back. 

We now say it with ease.

I'm so grateful that you share your momma with me.

I've talked to her about my mom, 

My God, I see similarities between them- 

My mom would have loved her,

So fucking much.

I think they would've become great friends, 

How I wish my mom could have met the woman that raised the woman I've grown to love. 

With tears in my eyes,

I bask in gratitude-

Thank you for allowing me to grow close to your family in the ways that I have,

It has healed bits of my soul.

You have so lovingly held me, 

In the moments my adoration for your momma, makes me miss mine-

I love how close you are with her-

Cherish that for all eternity.

11:59pm Oath

 Your beautiful laugh rings through the airwaves as the minutes and hours pass-

Before we know it, it is nearly midnight and we both have to get up at a reasonable hour.

We laugh at how quickly the time passed while we talked about everything from family to wishing we were tangled in bed with one another-

Pulling the other as close as humanly possible.

I can't help but be captivated by you.

All of you-

I know that you are on the precipice of a massive shift- a seismic change

And like I've promised,

I'll be there, by your side, for every single moment of it. 

Ride or Die- 

Like we said,

All of this is simply making us unbreakable,

Babe- this is how our story becomes set in stone. 

An oath until the end of time- and this is just the beginning.

90s Dreaming

 As the rain clears,

I hear baby doves chirping- 

I smell the petrichor as it floods my memories with childhood snapshots.

The remnants of a storm or Spring morning dew on my ankles as I walk barefoot in my grandmother's backyard-

Bits of mud sticking to my toes-

So carelessly happy as I walk toward the honeysuckles that beg to meet my lips.

A sweet taste,

Forever ingrained, accompanied by bleeding hearts and the songs of robins. 

Humming melodies and tiptoeing to my grandfather's garden, 

Where I take first fulls of cherry tomatoes and snack until my heart's content.

My little slice of paradise,

My home away from home.

That house had a huge hand in raising me- from it's chilly cellar, to its hand built wooden swingset, to the flowers my grandmother and I so tediously tended to.

Fresh lemonade on hot summer days,

Playing in the sprinkler in the front lawn,

Finding baby birds kicked from their nest,

Baking cookies from scratch, 

And stealing from grandpa's candy stash- 

I'd give anything to fall asleep on a cool spring evening, with the windows open, and a slow breeze tickling my face- as I lay on the living room floor, covered with a handmade quilt, falling asleep to 90s gameshows.

Connection

 You tell me that you've "never had this connection with anybody before"

You tell me "this is different" , "this is special"

You tell me that our sexual connection is "unlike anything" you've "ever experienced"

I can see it in your eyes, in your smile, and feel it in your touch.

Words cascade from your delicious lips, to my ears, traveling down my spine as they encompass my aura.

The electricity, the magnetism, the passion, the magic, the love- bubbling over in ways that is is hard for our human minds to comprehend. 

But my love,

Our souls are on fire-

They've been here before,

And we know it.

They have found each other lifetime after lifetime- 

And here we are again,

Doing this beautiful dance, 

Writing our own songs- 

Adding each second we cherish to our souls' memories.

We are reminded with each embrace,

Each kiss,

Each gentle touch,

Each whisper-

That we were meant to find one another.

A warmth, a safety, a sense of returning home-

My love,

You've taken my hand,

And I, yours-

So that we may explore all that this world has to offer us- 

We step slowly into oneness-

Enjoying every season along the way.

Falling

 And in the most beautiful, intimate moment- we finally acknowledged that we have been falling in love with one another.

Oh, how I love the way your eyes shined

Drifting Bliss

 Inhale

Exhale

Inhale

Exhale

My head on your chest,

Rising and falling with the rhythm of your slowing breath,

Your body relaxed with your arms around me,

I hear your heartbeat steady and strong,

"Give me a kiss,"

You demand in a soft tone and loving way,

Knowing it is just one more kiss that you crave before your drift into dreamland.

I oblige.

The passion encompassed in each kiss, unlike any other.

My head back on your chest, 

You gently rub my back and shoulder until you finally drift to sleep-

Though I am awake for what feels like hours after you're exploring a different realm.

I thank the Universe for this moment, 

All moments that preceded,

And all moments to come.

I finally drift too,

Only to find you in my dreams- 

Doing all of the things we've said we'd do.

Time passes,

The moon kisses us as we sleep entangled in one another's arms

For the entirity of the night,

As always.

And when I wake, I gently trace your collarbone,

Your shoulders, your chest,

Your arms, your hips, 

And the inside of your thighs-

You subconciously spread your legs a little more,

As your body absorbs my touch.

Slowly you begin to smile and stir,

Words begin to bounce between our lips,

Morning kisses and coffee to follow-

Our mornings are bliss.

Watching you come to life as the hours pass,

Is truly a sight to see- 

Captivating and invigorating. 

Precious Moment

 Laying backwards,

Onto your chest,

Between your legs,

As you rub oil all over my shoulders and chest-

You giggle,

"What?" I smile and ask

"Nothing" you quip with a smirk. Your eyes sparkling as you daydream.

"Tell me" I laugh a little and tilt my head back to look at your beautiful face.

A soft smile graces your lips,

You tell me that if I were carrying our daughter you would rub my belly for me with lotion, all the time... 

I fucking melt.

We kiss,

With fiery passion that only we know.

Love Made

After sharing

Raw emotions-

Flooded by the depths of our souls,

A moment we will cherish forever,

Lost in the most passionate kiss,

Souls melting into the edge of oblivion, 

Unsure when the kiss led to the most beautiful love made, 

But so sure of the entanglement we have found ourselves in. 

Seconds of breath captured,

Minutes of rhythmic ecstacy,

Hours of falling deeper

Into this masterpiece we create.

Moments of stillness,

Nothing but our exhausted breathing,

Smiles sprinkled with kisses in between,

Again,

Again,

We find ourselves in the heat of the moment,

Rolling orgasms and whispered nothings,

That mean everything and more.

Drifting into a sleep,

In the early morning hours,

For just a few hours,

And we play it on repeat the moment we wake.

If We So Dare

 Laughing until tears flow freely,

My cheeks hurt,

And I can't stop-

The night encompasses us through the airwaves-

As my laugh triggers yours,

And the cycle continues.

Sweet and innocent,

I'm a little stoned-

And the serious question of pancakes or waffles arises-

We fall on the same page

Thank Goddess- 

But an even more serious topic arises-

How chocolate chips do not belong in pancakes.

You think I'm joking,

But I stand my ground-

We spiral and get ourselves into a sticky situation,

Pun intended-

Into the oblivion we fall-

And beautifully divide,

Able to laugh at the other's opinion on each matter-

Minutes pass ever so slowly,

And I can't seem to catch and bottle up my laughter- 

And instead of being embarrased, 

I can feel how much you love it- 

I can hear how much it engulfs you.

You actually love my little quirks-

And a moment of beauty,

Seriousness,

And fantasy arises-

You tell me how if you had a daughter,

With your future wife,

You'd get up early as your wife sleeps-

Gently wake your daughter and whisper:

"Let's make your mom pancakes in bed"

My heart skips a beat,

You continue to tell me all of the adorable things- 

Building this ideal future,

It is beautiful,

I want to capture it and turn it to gold,

So that I can savor it forever. 

A gentle tear of joy graces my cheeks,

For I can see it vividly,

I can feel all of the emotions that come with it

Bizzare-

But I embrace it,

As I have, everything, with you.

A surreal experience, we are destined to.

You're as sweet as the sugar that coats my throat,

With each bite,

Each sip,

Each taste-

Let me drown in your sweetness,

And soak up your loving,

My favorite flavor,

So fulfilling.

Wrap me in your daydreams,

And hold me in your deepest desires,

A space that we will explore together,

Getting lost, never tired,

Of one another.

Your soul has truly captured mine,

Bound to you- 

A fairytale as old as time-

But something brighter,

On the horizon,

Entices us to full step in, 

And immerse ourselves.

I'd get lost with you,

On any day,

In any place,

In any galaxy that awaits- 

Guided by your laughter,

The shine in your eyes,

The electricity in your touch,

And the magic between your thighs-

And each story,

Each "what if"

Each deep talk,

Each gentle touch,

Each passionate love,

Each moment wrapped in us,

Takes us there-

To our destination,

If we so dare.

8pm Rambles

 How are you even real?

Calling me your future wife,

Generating AI photos of our future children and sending them to me-

We giggle together as we go through them.

We've created such a beautiful potential future life together,

That I feel the alchemy working-

We are manifesting it,

And to put it lightly,

It is wild. 

Our talks yesterday took us to a whole new level,

What it means to love,

To fall in love,

To be in love...

How we'd care for one another in moments of darkness, 

How we'd dance together in moment of joy-

Telling me today that you would go to the ends of the Earth to find me,

If need be.

But you've already found me-

Who the fuck are you,

And where have you been all of my life?

We know that the timing was divine-

In God's timing, and Inshallah we will find our permanent place in one another's lives.

Gratitude is an understatement. 

My Eyes Are Not My Own

 A glimpse,

A moment, 

My eyes meet my own-

Standing in front of me as I take off my makeup after a lovely day.

I quickly look away,

A habit I formed back when you left this earth,

For my eyes are your own,

Over the years, I've tried to fall in love with them again-

Shades of green, speckled with blue that comes from you.

My first thought tonight was,

"Wow"

Captivated by the quick glimpse of beauty that nearly escaped me with the moment.

But then it hits me,

I force myself to look back,

And I see you.

I see you so vividly,

In my image.

And I smile,

Fighting back some tears. 

I chuckle, because in this moment I realize, I feel most beautiful when I see you in me.

I've looked away for so long,

Trying to forget the pain of the loss,

Even my own father doesn't look me in the eyes the same anymore,

Because he sees you-

It took my brother years to open back up to me, 

Because he feels you-

My own grandmother won't answer my calls,

Because she hears you.

But what they don't realize, is that you are a part of each of us-

I just happen to outwardly portray it.

So,

I tell you how I feel,

A smile slips back across my lips.

I love you dearly,

And feel you with me, 

Every waking moment,

Of every day. 

You are my soul-

I embody the unconditional love that you instilled in me at such a young age.

Visit me soon,

In my dreams,

Because only there, you become tangible. 

My eyes are not my own,

I share them with an angel,

And I hope that even strangers can see your light when they look into my eyes.

Finality Spiral

 And it continues,

Obsessive observation-

It's a wonder how exhaustion hasn't overtaken,

An unhealthy addiction,

Driving the already insane, 

off the edge of a cliff.

You think it's hidden-

But it's written,

Each and every time-

Dozens in a day.

Well, I can tell you,

That it's slowly winding,

Down,

To a moment of finality. 

It's time to accept,

Reflect,

Move on-

Heal,

And grow.

There is no sense in grasping at the dust of the past,

When a new love has blossomed,

In a different universe-

One that you could not even fathom.

The world becomes a desolate place,

For those who wish to pace in purgatory.

The mind,

A deadly embrace-

A spiral with not an ounce of grace,

For those who long to stay stuck in self-serving, and self-sabotaging cycles.

Inward one must turn,

To truly heal the deepest wounds-

Those that make us act in selfish ways,

Despite the pain it brings others.

A journey,

Long,

Yet worth it.

Give it a shot-

For the world is only growing more cruel,

So one must hold a mirror to the darkest parts within,

And never look away-

Because the moment one does,

All comes crashing down-

Again and again,

Like a broken record on repeat-

An experience that is so familiar.

Don't get lost in the "why's

Because You are the why.

Instead,

Pivot. 

And Heal the sludge that's inside,

Of your dying and dark soul.

Day In & Day Out

 Every morning,

Regardless of time,

Could be 3am, 5am or 9am

It starts.

Our playful, loving, tango-

From soft "I miss you"s 

To "Fuck, I want you"s

Sometimes it's kisses,

And my body on yours,

While other times it's you waking me up with a call, as my sleepy voice rings with joy on the other end of the phone.

It's the constant updates on the days we are apart,

And the constant touches, kisses, glances and laughter when we are together.

Day in and Day out,

You have integrated into my life,

So carefully,

Meticulously,

Radiantly-

Every moment, 

You're on my mind,

And I, on yours-

Like we've become intertwined in the most fulfilling way...

Because we have,

And I've come to love it, with every fiber of my being, every corner of my heart, every piece of my soul.

You always give me exactly what I need,

You are so nurturing, and loving-

So aware of yourself, and of me-

I melt in your hands like clay waiting to be molded into a masterpiece,

Let's create this together-

Messy but beautiful,

Eye-catching and soul-drenching.

Day in 

And

Day out

As I fill my lungs with the purest air,

And exhale any fears-

You've shown me time and time again,

That you're not going anywhere-

And I, the same for you.

Let me cascade as we dance,

Into whatever the future may hold,

Let the rush wash over me,

And make me whole-

Let me help carry your weights, 

And watch your peace unfold-

I am here with you now,

And will remain.

Your heart is pure gold,

And I soak up the tenderness with gratitude -

Embodying all that we are and what we could be.

No crystal ball,

Just slowly building,

Day in and Day out-

You amaze me,

And I adore you, for all that you are. 

Every last piece.

Simply Me & You

 I could linger in this moment,

For lifetimes to come- 

Surrounded by this ethereal feeling.

I could linger here with you, 

Until the world ceases to exist-

And when that happens, 

I'll remember you,

As you will have been imprinted in my soul.

I'll find you amongst the stardust and ashes,

Time and time again-

And remind you of the beauty that we share,

And the love that we grew together.

I'll show you the memories we've made, 

And it will all come rushing back,

It will feel familiar and like home-

This world we live in is temporary,

But energy lasts forever-

The alchemy we create is undeniably ours,

And untouchable.

Travel through each galaxy with me,

Sip on the stars, like we used to sip tea-

Make love amongst the astroids,

And let me shelter you from black holes.

Travel with me,

Here and now,

Then and there.

Expand our horizons together, 

As we melt into all that we could possibly create.

Intimate

 Let my mind roam for a minute,

Let me dive in for a minute,

Let me go deep, and get wet, and spread you open for a minute

Let me get freaky, get nasty, get trashy for a minute...

Tell the whole world exactly what I'd do to you, for a minute...

I want to lick your neck as I make my way to your ear, to whisper exactly how badly I want to taste your sweet pussy on my lips,

My tongue salivates at the thought of it dancing around your clit, 

Making your back arch, as you take a fist full of my hair-

Making unwavering eye contact with me.

I'm on my knees, bare and vulnerable, 

Begging "please" as you tease me.

Let's add a ball-gag for the fuck of it.

I want to slide my fingers inside of you as you let out a sigh,

My name on your lips, my teeth on your thighs-

My grip on your ass,

Ecstacy in your eyes...

Tie me up, 

Tell me how,

I'm such a "good girl" and a "bad girl" while you fuck my mouth-

Bend me over your lap,

And spank my ass-

With gentle kisses in between.

Let me climb on top of you, 

Let me ride you, with your hands on my hips,

Telling me how I'm the most beautiful woman to ever exist- 

And between my sighs of pleasure,

I'll say "no babe, that's you." 

I want to bite your lip, 

Have you suck on my tit,

Leave hickeys on my ass,

So I'll never forget - 

Exactly who I belong with. 

I want to fuck you with your knees by your head, as I dive deeper-

Watch your eyes roll back, as you say "please" and "thank you"

Let me tie you to the bed, 

I'll bend over and spread open wide for you,

Until you can't take it anymore- 

Squirming because you need a taste. 

Whisper to me while we are out for dinner, that you want me as dessert, 

Slip your hand between my legs,

Telling me exactly how you're going to have your way with me when we get back-

Fuck me in the back seat of your car,

Messy, hot, sweaty, kinky, and playfully

Hoping we don't get caught- 

Baby, what if we get caught?

Do you want to take some pictures of me?

If I'm feeling sassy, put me in my place- 

Especially when I say "No"

Use me how you want to, 

I'm yours for the night, the day, the week, until you're done with me-

God, I know you'll never be done with me-

This electric connection is something only we can see, can feel, can taste, can touch.

Chills crawl down my spine as you tell me to fuck you, 

I simply can't get enough of you-

Then we cool down,

Take it slow-

Create a love that no one knows,

Except for us-

Pulling one another closer, 

Wrapping your arms around me, 

Kissing me slowly and passionately,

Looking into my eyes as you gaze into my soul,

Saying words unspoken.

I wrap my legs around you, 

We reach climax, 

After climax,

After climax

Together -

And then,

The slowness,

Of soaking up the moment,

Soaking up eachother. 

Holding hands,

Tickling the small of my back,

While I gently trace your face with my finger tips...

I love the way we eb and flow,

So fucking

Intimate.

Asra & Art

 Not sure the year,

But a few from now-

In a different place,

Building and growing. 

Our beautiful daughter,

Bouncing curls like yours-

Maybe 8 or 9 years old.

A parent teacher conference,

For art class - 

Our little girl expressing herself through color, despite the instructions to create in charcoal -

Black and white.

The concern from her art teacher regarding her lack of following direction made me giggle inside,

Because she has such a free spirit-

Not one to be tamed. 

And your face,

Oh my God,

Your face-

I laugh now thinking about it.

Pure shock and utter irritability-

"Art is subjective, how can you even grade her on her own interpretation?" 

And here we go,

I fight back my laughter and try not to let it show on my face. 

Because I know you, 

And how you think that social construct is absolute bullshit.

The teacher explains the assignment again, as if you didn't hear,

Asra playing with a doll at another table behind us, oblivious to the conversation at hand. 

She has such peace of mind in her own little world,

I smile, knowing this won't affect her.

You roll your eyes, and kindly say "Ma'am,  I understand the assignment, but do you understand that art is subjective?" 

In that moment I realize how much I adore you,

I love how you advocate for those you love,

Your love is so deep and apparent, 

The giggles build inside of me, because I swear I can read your mind. 

And I wake , from the sound of my actual laughter

Inevitable

 There is so much inevitable about Us.

There is such certainty in my heart and soul that things will continue to unfold as they have thusfar,

While uncovering all of the endless possibilities ahead of us. 

You have become such a beacon of light in my world,

And I'll capture and cherish it, every moment I get.

We hold something sacred.

It is delicately crafted to meet each of our needs and desires-

While exceeding all expectations we've had.

A pleasant surprise, to say the least.

Who would've known back in August of last year that this would have blossomed into what it has?

Who would've known that from December to now, we would have fallen this deep?

Only Goddess and the Universe;

Who have conspired to connect our souls in the most intricate ways.

You are slowly becoming a piece of me, and I a piece of you.

Each step meticulously taken, with trust and hope-

Each moment delivering a satisfaction neither of us have experienced before,

Sasiating a hunger we knew we had deep down.

Our glasses slowly filling with droplets of love, 

Unconditionally- 

Expanding in the spaces where we need it most,

A life force fueling all that we could possibly want or need.

Shockwaves course through my veins with each kiss, each gentle touch, each gaze with words unspoken-

We study one another, fascinated by the other's magic and glow.

The truth is,

We've both been glowing a lot more,

We have been radiant as we go throughout our days- 

Both together, and apart. 

Strangers notice, friends notice, our families notice.

But what is most important, is that We notice,

And we know that this is something special,

Something unbreakable, 

Something undeniably meant to be-

As we say, the perfect timing.

Watching us water and grow this delicate seed, has proven to be one of the most enjoyable tasks I've taken on with you. Watching it sprout, and peek its face towards the sun, is just the beginning of all that's to come.

The first of many things we will grow together, 

Sow together,

Reap together.

Bask in the sunlight today and feel my kiss, 

My arms around you will be soon to follow.

Wild Beautiful Ride

  "Fuck it, let's just skip everything and get married..."

"I'd marry you tomorrow..." 

Bold statements,

Followed by pinky promises and more talks of kids-

Our kids,

Our future,

Our "what could be" life. 

You so badly want to hear the words escape my lips-

And you know they're there,

And I hear them through your gaze. 

You are such a God damn dream-

You may tell me that I have "all of the qualities you've ever wanted in a partner," but darling, the truth is, you have all of the ones I could have asked for too.

We vow to navigate this terrain together-

While it may have its bumps, twists and turns- we've found a way to make it beautiful. 

We have healed one another so much, and I love the way we glow, especially when we are together. 

Kissing you today outside,  I was captivated by your light as the sun kissed the sides of our faces. You looked like an angel, standing unapologetically in front of me. 

I could drown in your laughter, and die happy- truly,  happy. 

We count down the minutes and hours until we are wrapped in one another's arms again - but despite the space, I feel your energy and your love wrapped around me...tightly..

 Holding me in a sacred space;

One that only we share. 

It is so strong and safe, honest and accepting... 

A place I could easily call "home." 

Which is why we laugh, as we share dreams and day dreams - because as ridiculous as it may sound, we both simply could see it. 

You feel right, you fit right, you are right- 

And my heart is full yet again. 

I'll hold onto yours with care, as you have mine. 

It is so wildly beautiful, this ride.

Mornings Like This

 Mornings like this,

I wish I was waking next to your beautiful face-

Rolling over and kissing you gently on the forehead while you still rest your eyes-

Tracing my fingers along your back and your thighs.

Mornings like this 

I wish I could feel your body against mine- bare, and begging for me-

Always the perfect way to start our day,

That closeness is unmatched,

As we reach climax together.

Mornings like this I wish I could bring you coffee in bed,

Analyze our dreams from the night prior as we sip the bitter heat, and hold one another's hand-

I love our slow morning talks and routines.

Mornings like this I wish you were sitting at my kitchen table,

As I make you breakfast with love, 

Your adoring eyes looking at my ass, as I stand at the stove-

You can't help yourself but stand up and walk my way for a handful, while kissing on my neck and playfully teasing me.

Mornings like this, I wish you'd be walking beside me as I take my pup for a walk- 

The cool spring breeze excites us for the summer to come, 

We soak up the sunshine and one another, in a blissful moment shared.

But for now,

Mornings like this mean me savoring each memory we've created, hearing your voice on the other end of the line as you sneak away to say "good morning"

Mornings like this mean, words spilling onto pages as I sip my coffee wishing I was tasting you instead-

Counting down the hours until we are together again- 

On mornings like this,

I remind myself that the greater picture is so fucking beautiful, 

And so worth the wait-

All of this is temporary and "in time," as we always say, we will be exactly where we are supposed to be,

Babe, I know the thought of it excites you, the way it excites me 

Mornings like this, 

Let's hold them close-

They're building blocks on our journey-

A foundation being laid, 

And someday, 

We will look back and say,

"Remember those mornings? Look how far we've made it."

Fervor

 It's early,

I sit here and hold onto the stillness and steadiness of your breath,

After another night spent sleeping on the phone with one another. 

My coffee is hot and perfectly bitter,

A cool spring breeze dances through my home. 

Bakhoor burns while my mind swirls with the poetry that is, you.

You are the embodiment of what love should feel like.

Gentle, calm, sensitive,  understanding,  warm, protective, playful, passionate, ambitious, adventurous, open minded, safe, nurturing, kind, and patient. 

I explore the depths of my mind, untangling all of the emotions that buzz around my soul-

They're so beautiful, and intricate -

I feel encouraged to explore and express them- you create that space for me.

I see beyond the now with you,

I see the possibilities that could be if we decide to chase them unapologetically, together.

It is wild to unpack and decode, 

But life is far too short to deny ourselves what we both know we crave. 

So,

We dance-

To the sound of you humming a tune,

To the music in the grocery store and the gym,

To the sound of our heartbeats and breath.

Oh, how we dance.

And we laugh,

At the world at our feet, 

At the things that only we know and share,

At the chaos around us,

God, 

I love your laugh.

You bring me closer to my highest self,

Bringing out my favorite parts of my being,

Allowing me to step into who I truly am,

And you accept me-

And adore the intricacies I've shared with you.

You look at me as though you've found a lost treasure you weren't sure existed -

But, I'm here to tell you-

I wasn't sure that it existed either,

But it appears that we've found it together.

It's materialized and crystallized before our eyes.

Moments pass, and you have now made yourself at home in my mind and my heart,

As minutes, hours, and days pass by,

I think of you often, 

It's like you're always there. 

I'm so grateful you've decided to stay,

To explore,

To trust, 

And to open up.

You are such a work of art,

Inside and out,

I consume you with fervor and intent.

Falling more with each passing moment,

Without a care if I have a parachute attached,

Because the rush of this all,

Will be worth it.

Free falling and confident you will catch me in the end.

"Some type of way"

 You look at me,

Adoring gaze as if you're captivated-

Eyes locked with mine, 

Smile brighter than the sun...

"What?" I ask playfully

Already knowing what you're thinking,

Because I'm thinking it too. 

You play a game of tug of war,

With your words - not saying what you're thinking, as I try to pull it out of you

"When the time is right..."

You quip, 

I smirk,

Your smile gets wider

I playfully beg, acting as if I can't read what is written all over your beautiful face,

But it's there,

I see it

But you keep your lips tight,

And only say "You've got me feeling some type of way"

... "Some type of way"

As I inquire about the millions of emotions you could possibly feel, you giggle uncontrollably-

But we both know,

What "Some type of way" means

So I say back to you,

"You've got me feeling some type of way too"

Let's Do This

 All of the talks,

About this future,

We are building-

The smiles on our faces,

As we know exactly what's unfolding-

Undeniably set in stone,

The love grows,

The memories flow,

The laughter expands,

The ideas begin to materialize,

As I see it in your eyes,

In your smile...

I feel it in your touch,

And hear it in your soft whispers as I slowly wake in your arms

Beautiful woman,

Let's do this.

Brick by Brick

 Brick by brick-

Building a foundation,

Made from love, and trust-

Honesty and true concern for the other's emotions and well being.

It is beautiful,

We etch our names with iron knives,

Encompassed by a heart

We listen, 

And navigate- each task together,

The perfect pair,

A give and take-

Every brick laid with intention,

The mortar filling each crevice,

Leaving no space for the elements to claw at. 

It starts out slow,

But before we know it, we're building walls-

Not the kind that need to be torn down,

But the kind that create support for our growing journey. 

We work sunrise to sunset,

Building and sharing laughter as we do-

A masterpiece we are crafting,

With both ease and grit.

As time passes, the roof gets finished,

Supported by the walls and foundation,

It protects us from any storms we may weather together. 

When we step outside, and take a few steps back,

To examine our work,

We are in awe-

We had no idea this whole time, 

We were not only building a home,

But a castle-

One with such grandeur we can barely believe our eyes

We created this,

Through blood, sweat and tears-

Endless nights melding into one,

The synchronicities as our guide-

They mapped out every placement,

Every corner,

Every window,

Every wall

And we are left with something so magnificent, we can barely believe our eyes.

So with gratitude, we whisper to the universe, that we will care for it and fill it with such joy, that the walls will sing for centuries after us. 

Revel

 Another night,

Talking for hours,

About how we would raise our kids...

Seeing eye to eye,

Paired with compromise-

What a beautiful discussion.

A dream slowly unfolding- 

I giggle as a smile graces my lips.

We are wild, and I love it.

Only Goddess knows where this journey will take us,

And there is absolutely no rush-

We've fallen into this beautiful rhythm that works for us-

An eb and flow,

Complimented with passion and desire. 

I hear it in your voice,

You are slowly beginning to relax,

To exhale-

It is such a beautiful thing to observe. 

I'm sorry that all of the women before me left you with scars and bruises,

I promise to tend to them with love and care.

I'll be gentle as I examine each one, and kiss away the pain-

I'll be patient as the hurt and confusion fade-

I'll show you what love and freedom mean, and how the balance will make you thrive! 

I want to watch you blossom into your fullest potential,

Like a sunflower opens towards the sun,

I hope you'll continue to open up to me.

The sparkle in your eyes, as you look into mine, sets fire to my entire being.

I will crave this feeling for an eternity, 

So please, stay. 

Make yourself at home in my arms. 

I truly believe we've attracted one another, 

Manifested what we have,

Here and now. 

Gratitude isn't a strong enough word for the experience of exploring and building something with you. 

If you could bottle up bliss, 

Taste it,

Smell it,

Hear it,

Feel it,

Embody it-

Take it, then add copious amount of sunshine-

Topped with the warmth of a blazing fire, 

And the peace of a still Spring night-

It would begin to scratch the surface of what this experience has felt like-

There is simply so much depth to it, that the English language cannot capture-

All I can do is revel in it.

Until The Time Is Right

 It's the phone call movie dates,

The late night phone sex,

Video chatting so we can be present while we tell one another exactly how and when to get off-

Then falling asleep on the phone,

Only to wake up to the sound of the other peacefully stirring, the next morning-

It's moments like these that make me fall deeper, 

That captivate me,

That set my soul on fire-

Watching us unfold, 

And bring out the best in one another,

Has been such a magnetic sight and electric feeling. 

I explore parts of you that no woman has, while you explore parts of me I've tucked away and have never shown another. 

Turning corners to find another hidden gem, within your soul-

As you expose all of my potential and call me out for hiding it.

You tell me there is something you want to say, as your smile beams -

"When the time is right"

I beg playfully, knowing in my heart that I already innately know-

And you assure me, that when you finally do say it, I will know it was exactly what you were talking about. 

We have those things,

Those moments-

Where we see a glimpse into our future and the rest of the world melts away. 

I eagerly, yet patiently wait-

Because I know the day is just on the horizon-

So I'll watch every sunset followed by sunrise,

Until the time is right.

24 Reasons

 24 Roses

For 

24 Reasons

For

1 Beautiful Soul

A laugh I can't get enough of,

A smile that captures my heart,

A gentle touch that makes my body weak,

Kisses that are sweeter than honey.

Your nuturing energy,

Your beautiful eyes,

The magic we make when our bodies meet,

Your adventurous spirit.

Your passionate, fiery, soul,

Our early mornings,

Our gym dates,

Your philosophy on the greater picture of life.

Your intelligence and longing to learn,

The loving relationship you have with your family,

Your disciplined nature-

The thoughtfulness you exude. 

Your competitive edge,

The way you pull me close as we sleep,

The electric, magnetic, and expansive sexual chemistry we share,

Your sensitive heart,

Your logic,

Your bouncing curls,

Our deep conversations,

The future we continue to build and explore.

I could list 24 more,

A hundred times over,

But I'll save those for when I'm in your arms again.

My beautiful muse,

The woman who leaves me wanting more- 

You are a gem, 

That I promise to cherish, like there is no end.

Extraordinary Calm

 You bring my soul peace,

It is quite simple,

Yet extraordinary. 

When my mind gets consumed with the realities of the world,

You always know how to ground me,

Bring me down,

Calm the noise.

This is something I've been searching for,

And here you are- 

Embodying it.

As each day passes,

I'm more convinced, 

You are what I've been looking for,

What my heart has needed,

What my soul has craved.

I float down this river with you,

And the world melts away-

We build bonds, while sharing dreams-

We get lost, together, and it is intoxicating.

You've found me.

Thank you for that.

Thank you for following the pull- 

Thank you endlessly.

Soon

 Can you feel the tug through the miles, 

That separate?

The bond that grows stronger, 

Each time we part ways?

Despite minutes and miles,

We find a way,

To grow,

To blossom,

With each passing day.

Of all of the souls, that travel this Earth,

Yours has captivated mine,

And for what it's worth,

I am bound,

To you-

To find out where this goes.

Your beauty eminates from your soul,

Outwards,

Radiates,

And glows,

For now, 

I am missing your fingers between mine.

The taste of your kiss,

Your body pressed against mine,

But we have time.

To grow, to learn, to laugh, and to explore- one another,

Let me be the support you need,

When your eyes are tired, and your soul feels weak-

Embrace all that I have to offer, 

In my comfort and love.

Let me be your soft place to land, 

When the world feels too much.

I gaze out over this lake, 

The clouds choking the sun- 

And I whisper, to the universe that there is only One,

Who I long for, and you are Her.

I imagine the laughter we could share in this house, 

As you meet my family- and melt into the flow so effortlessly.

In time, 

I know.

I trust.

You are worth the wait,

The adventure,

The journey.

The gratitude I feel when I am in your arms,

Is like I've lived a million lifetimes right, and am finally being rewarded-

Because, how could I possibly have found you?

Rather, you found me- 

But it's all the same in the end.

I find warmth at the thought of you,

Find peace in your voice, 

Find magic in your touch.

I long to be in your arms again-

Soon.

Slip Up

 The slip,

From your lips,

Those three words,

Just flowed,

Like a river,

With ease-

Then collective laughter,

Making light-

Knowing the timing...

But we both know,

We are both falling-

Undeniable. 

And I love the absolute rush of it all.

Baby Freya

 You,

Quick with your words- 

So powerful, 

So bold-

You playfully talk about our "what could be" future-

Passion in your voice as you say you're going to "wife me up" when I rub your shoulders after a long day, when I cook for you, when I make any house you step into feel like a home.

Today you called me and told me how you thought about my dreams of my daughter- the beautiful little girl with bouncing curls... 

The one who is not yet earthside, but lingers in the spirit realm waiting for the right time to make her appearance. 

You always love when I share those dreams with you. I watch your face light up with intrigue - your eyes starry, and energy soft. Your voice excited and welcoming for the details.

Today you suggested how beautiful our child would be- Egyptian, Norwegian and Italian-

Honestly, a little Goddess waiting to be created.

You joked we could name that child with an "Egyptian Viking name" 

As I drifted back to sleep after that conversation,  another dream,

This one planted by your words.

A park, 

A winding concrete path lined with beautiful green trees,

Birds chirping...

And you... with my daughter, holding her hand, walking in front of me.

The feelings: pure happiness & a sense of family.

Both of you with curls bouncing as you laughed and talked to her,

She was about five years old.

They say that words are powerful manifestations, and dreams can be prophetic- and to be completely honest, if this is the way everything unfolds, I have no doubt in my soul the journey would be beautiful. 

It's fun to daydream about - who knows! 

Chess

 Chess is a game best played at a slow pace,

Meticulously calculating,

Each

And

Every

Move.

The Queen,

The most powerful in her stance,

Has full autonomy to move as she pleases,

Taking out anyone in her way,

With absolute grace.

Watch her patiently waiting as rooks and knights dance around her,

The Bishop thinks she's sharp,

She acts fast, but often fumbles-

Revealing her next move prematurely.

She focuses on the pawns in here foresight-

Instead of the journey itself.

Her number one weakness-

Unlike the Queen who views the board from above-

A divine sight.

The dance is beautifully dangerous,

Such as life itself-

It requires a still power of the mind,

While flowing with creativity.

It's won simply by thinking ten steps ahead,

But often lost by swift and anxious faults.

So,

The Queen sits in wait, 

Obstacles simply falling to the wayside-

Knowing all will be revealed. 

And all of a sudden,

You're exposed-

Bare and unable to hide behind a thing.

The King - a death wish granted.

Patience is the ultimate key,

Check Mate.

Unseen Heaven

 The levels of ecstacy that we reached last night,

All night,

Took me to a Heaven I've never seen-

Your closeness, your breath on my neck, 

And the gentle, loving kisses in between.

Galaxies undressed before us.

We ripped open the roof to let the stars watch our magic-

As clouds danced a tango with the moon.

Songs of electric chemistry coursed through our veins, as our hearts synchronized in rhythm. 

A passion so fierce not a single soul would understand-

And I'm not sure I'd want them to.

What we have is sacred,

Beautiful and intriguing. 

A journey being built brick by brick, 

And we are the creators,

The artists.

Wrap me in your gentle love, 

While pushing the boundaries of our playful lust-

Such an exquisite balance we've found.  

Sophisticated, yet it comes so naturally-

You are the flame that ignites this knowing inside of my soul-

We are right where we are meant to be,

On Our journey,

With one another-

Cheers to the next chapter babe.

Conversation with God

 I talked to God today,

And I told her about your eyes,

Your gentle touch, your careful whispers, the magic between your thighs-

I talked to God today,

Sang songs I wrote for you,

She let me spill my poems, 

And share memories of us two.

I talked to God today,

I swear her smile, just like yours

I showed her all our pictures,

And share our inner wars.

I talked to God today,

I asked her how she came,

To create such a vibrant soul,

And place her in my way. 

I talked to God today,

She told me that you shine,

Pure alchemy had made you,

Maybe one day you'll be mine-

I talked to God today,

And I captured every word-

She said you're meant to thrive and blossom, 

Far beyond this world.

I talked to God today,

I inquired about your light-

She told me she placed it deep within,

With few, you'd shine it bright

I talked to God today,

And I thanked her for your life,

You've brightened mine,

And opened up,

My heart, a flame ignites.

Journey to The Shores

 You make life brighter,

I catch myself singing to hummingbirds more,

Craving my bare feet in the grass again, 

Whispering to stars as the moon dances across the night sky. 

I am simply returning back to my truest nature,

And your energy has allowed me to do so. 

You make me feel safe, calm, heard, and seen.

Your reassurance comes naturally and your ability to communicate and navigate is unmatched. 

Something we both appreciate and need.

I embrace the cool spring breeze flowing through my home, 

It kisses me awake with the sunshine that peeks through my bedroom window. 

My soul truly at peace, finding absolute alchemy in everything I see and touch-

The magic is real and alive. 

You've reminded me that home is where my heart is-

It is something I carry within my soul to every corner of the Earth I explore and uncover.

It is a feeling I want to share with you, will you let me?

Naked and vulnerable you tend to all of my scars with curiosity and care-

You listen and never judge,

You hold me with such delicate intent, that at times, I feel like the most fragile rose that could never be destroyed. 

I long to do the same for you.

I want to remind you of the parts of yourself you love most-

I want to shed light on all of your most beautiful traits, and hold a mirror to your soul so you can see them and love them.

Your tender, kind heart

Your inquisitive mind

Your deep rooted joy for life and the laughter that comes with it

Your passion to explore and wander and thrive

Take my hand,

Let's skip stones on foreign riverbeds, 

Dance barefoot on ancient moss-

Howl at the moon from the depths of our wild instincts, then lay on our backs in the grass and laugh at what we've just done.

Let's have affogato on the shores of Sicily, and sip tea on the Gulf-

Let's share a pear cider on a bustling street in Oslo,

Let's have fresh sushi in a mom & pop restaurant down an alley Tokyo.

Let me take you to the shores I grew up on, salt water in my wavy blonde hair- so we can watch the sunrise over the ocean.

Then take me to the shores of your fondest memories- I want to know where your curls bounced as you ran as a wild child.

I want to share everything with you,

Past, present and future-

I want to show you what my life was like, see what yours was like, enjoy what we have now, and explore what will become. 

The excitement makes my heart race in the most elegant and anticipatory way.

Then I remind her to enjoy the moment, and my goodness, when she does- it is pure bliss.

Thank you, 

For simply being you.

For sharing what you have,

And what you will.

Thank you,

For receiving what I have to offer with such warmth and grace.

Grave Digger

 You lurk in the shadows,

Of the nearest graveyard-

Inhibitions lost,

And mind playing my words on repeat.

Words that you have tried to decipher,

Yet can only clumsily put the pieces together,

Like a toddler fumbling with blocks.

Your lack of self-control is unmatched,

As you spiral at the sight of me,

At the sound of my name,

At the thought of who you've made me to be in your head-

But darling, you are clueless.

You search for a grave with my name etched in stone,

Efforts for minutes, hours, days and weeks-

Yet, you can't find my bones-

So you get down on your hands and knees,

Clawing at the dirt, and screaming at oak trees,

Asking yourself "How could this be me?"

Well, let me tell you babe-

It's your failed fantasy.

You see the mind is a powerful thing,

And yours seems to have lost its way-

An obsession you can't seem to break,

But it breaks you, as you chip away

At your own damn heart.

A cold heart at that,

I've heard the stories-

The sadness,

You did all of that. 

Your hands are covered in dirt,

Nails bleeding at the beds-

Scrapes on your knees, 

Trouble catching your breath.

And just when you thought,

You had nothing left-

A shovel is handed to you from over your head-

Your smile creeps up,

Your evil sets in-

"I'll bury this bitch"

Your sick urge to win.

So you grab the handle and slowly stand up-

Start to dig,

Not giving a fuck,

About who handed you this shovel,

You couldn't care less-

So you dig and you dig,

Until there's a seven foot depth-

A sweat on your brow, 

You're proud of yourself,

For digging this hole-

 and dancing in hell

Then comes the moment you finally see,

I handed you the shovel,

All along, it was me. 

Blood drains from your face,

Words escape from your lips-

You look down once more,

And see the headstone just sits

Above the grave you just dug,

And spelled out in grey-

Your name clearly there-

You try wiping away.

But babe, I hate to break it to you-

It's all set in stone.

Our destiny's made, 

From stardust and bones-

When we meddle with ill intention,

It comes back tenfold.

So you dug your own grave,

I helped you bury your bones.

Morning Delight

 She is the sweet morning kisses on my forehead,

The gentle back tickles as I rest my eyes,

The tight squeeze to pull her body into mine...

She is my morning delight

Insatiable

 I have this insatiable appetite for you,

All of you.

The sleepy, messy and passionate morning sex,

The playful neck bites,

The inquisitive nature of your questions and the attentiveness as I answer. 

Your beautiful tigers eye gaze, and your soft rose lips. 

The "can't get enough of you"s and inability to consume one another in excess...

Because babe, we are never too much-

I can't fathom how I've gone decades without knowing your soul-

Having you drop into my life has been the most beautiful blessing;

And now-

I can't imagine a day without hearing your voice or a week without feeling your touch.

The more you unravel and expose your twists and turns, the more I catch myself falling-

The most beautiful tail spin,

My hands thrown above my head, throwing caution to the wind as I give you the wheel.

It's the moments where we are thinking the exact same thing and literally catch ourselves speaking the same words-

You are in my head,

I beg you to make yourself at home.

Your tender aura engulfs me,

And mine, you.

I'm so lost in you, and I hope there's no way out.

Kinky Love

 I need a kinky love,

The kind that wakes up to back rubs and neck kisses,

Followed by moans captured by gasping lips.

One that jams to music on a long drive,

Then sudenly pulls over for a backseat fuck.

Finger fed taste tests, of what's for dinner- lips meeting fingers; that turns into ball gags and blindfolds. 

Give me that kinky love,

At the cinema holding hands and watching films, then going home to make our own.

The type that basks in the sun, no words spoken, simply soaking up the heat-

Bodies meeting, warmth ignited

The kind that makes sure you're hydrated throughout the day, and makes you soaked at the raise of a brow.

Give me the ultimate kinky love.

Get lost in my eyes,

Slip up and call me "baby", 

Then tell me I'm a "dirty girl"

The kind that holds you (and fucks you) as you sleep, 

Fulfilling fantasies.

Drink me up, my kinky love.

5:30am

 Early mornings,

Sleepy kisses,

Back rubs,

Morning sex-

Lose our breath,

Just before you have to leave for work.

My favorite.

Early mornings,

"Good morning beautiful" texts,

Tired phone calls,

All just to hear one another's voice-

Wishing we were next, 

To one another-

Talking about dreams,

Dreaming about us,

Craving your lust,

When I'm not with you.

Hoping that your day,

Is just as wonderful as you.

You & I

 Consume me like a flame does gasoline, 

Leave nothing left but ash and smoke-

Fill the night sky with the blaze you set,

As my heart is on fire for you. 

The beauty in all that you do,

Your touch, your kiss, the whispers that escape your lips- 

Envelope me in your gentle yet ravishing candor.

Each moment with you is an adventure of a lifetime, and I can't wait explore what the future holds. 

You cradle me in your arms, kissing my forehead, and gazing into my eyes like you've found a lost treasure along the ocean's shore-

But, little do you know, I'm the one who has discovered this gem-

Stunning, and one of a kind,

Precious, so damn precious, I want to make it mine-

And keep it safe,

Keep you safe-

Show you love in ways you've never experienced,

Bring peace to your chaos, and laughter in moments of silence. 

Sharing ever growing warmth, and hopes allows us to truly dive in deep- 

You are such a beautiful soul,

The brightest star among galaxies, for ions. 

I encapsulate this feeling, and will water it so it thrives-

So we thrive,

You and I.

In Awe

 A softness overcomes me in each moment I'm near you,

Each moment I hear your voice.

I can exhale and simply be.

It is such a beautiful experience,

To explore you, to consume you, and to truly feel you. 

It's like discovering the best hidden gems in a new place.

You open up my soul in a way which is soothing, reassuring, and comforting- 

I float on clouds of bliss as you hold me.

The smallest things throughout the day, now, remind me of you.

When I cook, I wish I were cooking for you.

When I listen to music, I wish you were with me dancing and singing. 

When I crawl into bed, I wish you were playfully pulling me close.

The journey continues to intrigue me,

I am enticed by your laughter, your heart and your soul. 

I crave the exploration of you, the way I crave sunlight. 

So, 

I take step after step,

Slowly uncovering the curves of the trail,

That will lead us to our destination-

Trusting the ground beneath my feet, the stars that guide me, and my intuition-

I will navigate the night with grace,

And watch the sunrise kiss the morning dew.

And just like I am with you, I'll be in awe.

Melting

 Last night,

Our bodies melted into one-

We created a masterpiece with our moans and sighs of pleasure,

Strokes of indigo and midnight blue, crashing onto a blank canvas.

Your skin against mine,

Leaving no space for anything but pure ecstacy.

I saw all that the stars and moon wanted to offer me last night.

As I captured your breath with my lips, your hips on my hips, and your kisses buried in my neck, I drowned in your beautiful sea of curls.

Your passion engulfed me, as I slipped toward the edge of oblivion, allowing myself to get lost, and offering all of myself to you. 

I want you to take all of me,

Devour every last inch,

Consume my soul and let me give you life.

I need to get drunk on your love as we spill over in orgasm together, losing sight of everything but the expansion of the universe.

Give in to the ebs and flows, that pull us together like tides to a shore, on a full harvest moon.

Let me sow seeds of admiration, adoration, and care- I'll water them with starlight I've saved in my soul, and sprinkle them with sunshine I've captured in my eyes.

Melt into me, again and again, until we've lost count of our heartbeats and passing minutes.

Let's continue create this beautiful journey, day by day.

Step One

 A timeline shifted the moment I saw you for the first time,

I can't quite explain it, but I can try.

It's like the Matrix faded, now, layers of complex beauty being exposed underneath.

Every moment since then has led to catalyst after catalyst-

This journey slowly unfolding before my eyes.

My world has slowed down.

Moments becoming longer so that I can fully digest them-

Each one, more tantalizing than the last.

I breathe you in and explore the ever intricate mosaic that is your soul.

Each piece delicately placed with purpose and poise.

When I am not with you, I long for your embrace, the warmth of your energy. 

Please save it up for me, so I can submerge myself in it the instant I'm with you again.

I scan pages written by dead poets to identify this feeling, and while some come close, I'm convinced not one has truly experienced that of which I feel. 

It's more electric than lightening striking sand-

More deadly than a typhoon-

More dainty than a newly sprouted sunflower-

It gets me higher than any drug, and feels better than any lust-

It grounds me more than settled dust.

An adventure that I must,

Embark on.

I simply need to see how deep this river runs,

Experience the warmth of the summer sun,

See how far I can take it,

All while having fun.

And,

Here we are,

At step one.

Sleepy Mornings

 You are as beautiful as a slow, sleepy morning- 

Cuddled in bed, as I kiss down your spine; watching the small movements you make. My fingers exploring every inch of you. 

Making you coffee as you rest your eyes and bringing it to you as you slowly wake -

Allowing the sun to peek through drawn curtains, so that we can gently greet the day, together. 

Your beautiful curls caressing your face, with such grace - and angel right in front of my own eyes.

I could get lost in your beauty, and the warmth of the mornings we share. 

Tangled in Egyptian cotton, getting lost as our bodies merge and souls collide.  

I'd take my coffee with a side of you every day, if I could 

Poetic Imprint

 You embody the poetry that drips from my tongue, to my pen, then onto my pages-

Exploring every corner like a dimly lit hallway I'm enticed down.

My body buzzes with feelings of euphoria, as everything slowly unfolds.

I devour the feeling and quench this need for discovering all of you.

There is something so beautiful about really digesting each moment as it breathes life.

I soak it up, trying to imprint your energy into mine- so that I never forget.

I could never forget you, and I truly hope there's not a day that I'll even have to try to.

You are so familiar yet intriguing - like, I already know you, but I'm learning every thing about you as each second ticks by.

I'm enjoying every minute of it, savoring it like your kiss on my lips.

A chrysalis cracks open to unveil the endless possibilities of what could be, what should be, what will be. 

It's like a universe is being born right before our eyes- swirls of stardust keep us coming back consistently to watch the tango it does.

Delicate and strong, our energies merge- slowly fading the lines of where one begins and the other ends. I want to melt into you so that you can taste the intricacies of my heart and soul.

Here I am,

Here I'll wait-

Patiently,

Because I know in divine timing we will be;

Exactly where we're meant to be. 

For now, I enjoy the journey- as I will for each one we'll take. Every twist, every turn, every new adventure and place discovered.

This slow dance with you has been so peaceful, calming and playful- my heart is full of the purest cut bliss. 

I couldn't come down from this high, if I tried.

Hopes

Your sweetness permeates my soul,

Like a monsoon rain, does a barren valley.

I can't help but notice the petrichor,

And I'm instantly transported to the feeling of "home"

I take you in, like I'm enjoying this experience for the very first time, every time.

I don't ever want to miss a moment, so I try my best to not blink.

I could soak in your radiance for endless days, and still crave more-

It seems, you bring out the best in me.

I love myself when I'm with you; I feel the most authentic.

It's like hiding my quirks is no longer an option- you simply love my weird, and I want to share it with you. 

There is a list of endless memories I want to create with you, so let me list a few: 

I want to dance in a rainstorm, barefoot on the asphalt, on a hot summer day with you.

I want to experience the mundane of traveling with you- something as simple as falling asleep on your shoulder on a plane... While, simultaneously seeing the world.

I want to take a roadtrip with you, and get lost because we were singing out hearts out to early 2000s music and getting caught up in lyrics and laughter.

I want to kiss you on a train, in a city, and feel the people around us melt away, because in that moment all I feel is you.

I want to take you to Flekkefjord and show you where the mountains meet the sea. I'll take your hand and walk you to the edge, to show you just how beautiful you truly are, with your reflection.

I want to pick sunflowers with you in the spring and apples with you in the fall.

I want you to meet my dad, my brother, and my step-mom - I'm sure you'd win them over instantly with your charm and pure heart.

I want to cook for you, and take care of you, in all of the ways your heart desires... and then some. 

The list goes on, but I'll hold other hopes close. 

So for now, I'll bask in the moment, and be open to whatever may come our way.

Mirror

 There she was again,

But this time- in a place where my roots grew,

A place that felt like "Home,"

A place that brought tears of joy to my eyes. 

Bouncy curls, bundled in a little puffy winter outfit.

My beautiful daughter. 

She stood exactly where I stood, years earlier. 

Looking at her reflection in the same glass-like water that I saw mine. 

And then,

A solo duck- heading right toward her. 

I hear her giggle as she crouches down to talk to the "ducky" 

My heart explodes. 

The image is identical to my experience, yet this beautiful little soul is living it right here in front of me. 

Again, 

I feel peace,

I feel love,

I feel at home with my little family, in my homeland. 

A gentle yet firm grip grabs my hand,

Then a warm kiss on my cheek. 

Again, 

My forever partner,

With our daughter...

I can only hope these manifest.

Puzzling

 Sweet angel, 

Let me revel in your cotton candy aura for as long as you'll let me,

Let me quench my thirst with your cup that runneth over,

Your kind touch and gentle acts engulf the spirit of me.

You are teaching me about my soft side and ability to receive.

Let's dance along the clouds and sing until our breath runs out-

Let's exchange playful glances and electrifying touch.

Bring me to the edge of ecstacy, as you often do- leaving my body buzzing with bliss.

Tease my mind as you let me taste bits of your soul, giving me just enough flavor to want to dive in more.

You, my dear

Are something special.

Something magnificent-

Something worth holding onto. 

A rare gem in this tainted & jaded world-

You shine brighter than Cassiopeia and Orion's belt-

And I'd wish upon a shooting star, but I'm convinced you're the one I'd need to wish upon...

And how could I possibly wish upon you, for you?

Your embrace makes the world fade, and I am left with the moment -

Melting into the beautiful fact that these moments, are our shared reality.

Every moment that passes, I discover a new piece of you-

Puzzling together the pieces through patience and intrigue.

The vivid picture, slowly coming into focus-

If I squint, I can start to make out it's entirety,

And babe, it's so fucking divine.

Like Goddess herself painted it, and held onto it for quite some time-

Until the moment was right,

And now, she gifts us this adventure of a lifetime.

Looking down, smiling, saying:

"Now's finally the right time."

Butterfly Garden

 Her beautiful brown eyes, 

Staring up at me with love, excitement and intrigue.

Short curls bounced around her face- 

She lets go of my pinky-

Walking ahead of me with eyes wide open and ready to take in the wonder.

Three or four years old, 

Innocence is her aura.

Butterflies swirling around, a crisp spring air- 

Short and sweet- a brief moment captured in my memory.

Feeling blissful, calm, and so incredibly at peace-

Right exactly where I was meant to be. 

The overwhelming feeling of family and home.

A blue butterfly lands on her precious little nose,

A giggle and a smile as she looks back up at me-

My heart is stolen by this little girl;

My daughter-

My forever partner by my side-

Drop In

 Open up,

Give in,

Let go,

Experience. 

Me,

You,

Us.

This.

Magic.

Trust,

Lust,

Possible love-

Explore,

Catch,

Drop in,

Peace.

Bliss,

Laughter,

Pure energy.

Playful,

Supportive,

Warmth.

A journey of a lifetime.

Too Much

 I am not "too much"

Maybe I say "too much"

I can't keep my tongue from spilling my guts.

Then I spiral and overthink,

That maybe my weirdness is "too much" and simply should be reeled in-

But I crave sharing it all,

Because there is something that makes me feel safe to authentically express- even if it is "too much"-

But maybe,

I'll take the tiniest step back, keep closer some of the magic- because I want you to trust that I'm not "too much" but simply "enough"

Easy

As I look in your eyes, I see galaxies and lifetimes unfolding before mine. 

I get lost for a moment,

But you let me take you in-

Patiently and calmly.

We exchange words unspoken,

With glances and laughter,

Touches and kisses,

That transcend us.

Above the clouds we play and explore- creating a safety neither of us have experienced.

We unravel and expose the truest versions of ourselves.

We slowly begin to uncover,

What's written in the cards and the stars- since before we each took our first breath. 

With you,

It is easy-

All of it.

The giving into your embrace,

Getting lost in your eyes-

Getting drunk on your smile-

Getting high on the most intoxicating sex.

Conversations for hours-

Exposing my feelings and fears-

You make it easy to be unapologetically me.

Make love to my soul as you undress my mind- 

Sweet, sticky, honey drips between my thighs-

Taste my bliss, as I slowly become addicted. 

And let me make it easy for you too-

Easy for you to trust me,

Easy for you to shed light on the darkest corners of you- 

Let me ease you into your day with sweet kisses and words-

Let me come to you, and take that drive off of your plate.

I want to make it easy for you to breathe,

And fall into me.

So I speak to my guides, and ask them to continue to show me- and allow me to see, all of the beauty that could, and will be.

Mine

 I'm sitting here,

Meditating on what I'm actually feeling - 

At first I wondered if, in fact, I was not trusting the way I said I was...

But no, that's not it. 

I fully trust you. 

Then I wondered, if it was fear of not being chosen - or simply having to compete...

But no, that's not it either. 

But I've figured it out -

After an anxiety filled birthday - 

A day that I thought would feel differently. 

After tarot, and herbal magic...

It hit me, 

I'm having a feeling of simply not being enough... and holy fuck...

When I realized that, I wanted to vomit. 

I haven't felt that way in easily over a decade. 

I told myself I'd never put myself in a position to feel that way again,

Yet I'm here.

A decade older and wiser-

And acknowledging the feeling.

I'm holding space for this feeling,

Inspecting and examining it. 

Why do I feel this way? 

Is it my own perception? 

My own fears? 

My past setting off alarm bells?

I need to extinguish this feeling,

Embrace my innate confidence,  that I've grown to stand in. 

This feeling, is temporary. 

This feeling, is based on falsified perceptions in this current moment. 

It simply,

Is not true. 

I am wildly more than enough,

I have the world to offer and an abundance of unconditional love. 

I am a fucking Goddess. 

I am powerful, magical, magnetic and radiant.

I am the epitome of beauty inside and out.

I am adventurous and a free spirit.

I am successful and building this fucking beautiful, unbreakable empire. 

I deserve the fucking world. 

I deserve respect, unconditional love, playful love, sexual magnetism, and the most serene peace.

All of that will be mine,

Because it is already mine.

Psychic Fuckery

Being gifted with clairvoyance and the ability to tap in to the supernatural, 

Is such a blessing and a curse.

I know things before I'm told,

I see things before they happen,

I hear the guidance of my spirit guides, as well as those who have passed...

And it is a beautiful dichotomy.

On one hand, I wish I could just live in ignorance,

While on the other hand, I revel in the beauty that spirit shares with me.

Some things are pure, other things are maleficent. 

I release my human ego, and open myself to surrender,  to trust, and to fully receive. 

Everybody is trying their best,

This realm we live in, is simply a place where lessons are learned. 

Everything is eternal and temporary at the same time. 

Shedding expectations, and embracing the fact that we are all one, flowing through the bullshit and coming out on the other side.

I catch myself holding my breath,

But forcing myself to release it.

Beautiful daughter of the winter hills,

You are protected.

You are loved.

You are safe, and safe to trust.

Let spirit guide you,

Go run amok,

Barefoot running, the earth they touch. 

You are grounded, you are self-less,

You are unconditional love.

You are so much more than human form,

A light that guides the lost. 

Dollar in my Pocket

 I find myself tripping,

On all of the analogies, synchronicities, and future memories- that come to me.

How did I find you?

The most pleasant surprise -

Unexpected and smile inducing.

Look at what you've done to me,

Have me reading into everything,

Or is everything simply spelling it out for me?

Like a dollar in my pocket,

Never knew I'd find you here,

A moment that I've caught it,

Something swirling in the air-

Skimming high fives as I found it, 

Breathing in the winter air,

Found this dollar in my pocket,

And suddenly you're here.

Unexpected, elevated, curious kind of care-

A sprinkle of joy into my life, 

Wondering how you made it here-

But accepting is receiving, 

Let go of all my fears-

You're like this dollar in my pocket, 

Always there, but just appeared.

Red & Gold

 There you stood,

Wrapped in the most beautiful red dress, embossed with intricate gold stitching - 

The most pure smile on your face,

Your eyes glowing with happiness and peace.

A gold crown was placed gently on your head, as your beautiful dark curls cascaded down your shoulders, neck and back. 

I was speechless,

My breath stolen from me, by your beauty.

A goddess was standing right in front of me- and she, was You.

I looked at you with loving eyes, as you looked back at me and smiled. 

I snap back into reality,

Back on my couch, sipping coffee- forever cherishing this little glimpse of your soul.

Trustfall

 Trustfall into me, as I have into you-

I know this is just the beginning,

I know that you're afraid,

But take my hand.

I promise to be gentle with your sweet soul,

My words are true, 

So let my actions prove.

Let go of the "what ifs" and "maybes"

Because baby, there is something so breathtaking here; it's worth exploring.

Steal my breath, with each of yours,

And as you do, I'll hold you close-

Showing you, that you have a soft place to land.

This is me:

Raw, and unfiltered

Pure and loving.

I take care, and hold each and every piece of what others give to me;

Never faltering.

My roots are strong, and I have a confidence in my character,

Let me peel back my layers and lay them at your feet, 

While showing you it is OK to be exposed.

I want to swim in the depths of you, only coming up for air when my vision starts to go dark, and my body numb. 

Let my Siren songs echo in your caverns, as you quietly sing them back to me.

I'll dive in,

I just need you to let me,

To trust me,

To collide with me.

Fall into my arms, 

For my heart will protect yours.

Fall into my eyes, 

And jump off your cliff of uncertainties - 

Free fall, and experience the rush.

I'll catch you, if you let me.

Replay

 I press replay a thousand times,

On these few memories of you and I.

I transport back to the feeling of when your lips first met mine, and I dive off the deep end- 

A kaleidoscope.

I'll happily spiral up the staircase to replay the way your nectar tastes, a sweetness I am now addicted to.

Imprinted in my memory,

I'm slowing becoming addicted to all of you...

You push me down, then eat me out- as I gently tug on your beautiful curls. Your eye contact unravels me with ease.

The feeling of you on top of me, 

Me, on top of you

Us ...

At points I lose track of where my body ends and yours begins, and I revel in that bliss.

Ecstacy is where you take me, leading me gently, playfully, yet with confidence and assertion.

It's the quiet whispers at the restaurant, the hand on the small of my back at the coffee shop, the hard kisses in the parking lot- I play them on repeat. 

I often wonder, do you think of me? Do these memories made fuel you, they way they fuel me? Are you left wanting more and on the edge of your seat? 

Because I've laced my lips with mysteries and spells- dropping bits of my soul, for you to feast on. 

You slowly continue to crack open my shell, and inside you discover the depths of my Hell and the heights of my Heaven. 

Spellbound, and intrigued

Let me in, as I am letting you- I promise to hold the most fragile parts of you, with the utmost care. 

Let me see your Heaven and Hell.

I am bare, please join me.

LA is Burning

 LA is burning,

And this is just the start-

The embers dance on homes of migrants and the stars.

The sky is coated in smoke, thicker than the city smog, and the whole world sits back watching as they change their fucking vape pods.

LA is burning,

When will we start to see? 

The notice has been there, it was written in the sea-

The moon tried to warn us, but we prefer ignorance, then wonder why buildings crumble and memories go amiss. 

LA is burning,

I can hear the palm trees scream, 

I see the tears of Palisades as ashes coat the streets-

America sends "thoughts and prayers" as they do in tragedies, 

While inmates and other countries, fight to clear the scene.

LA is burning, 

It sounds like a cringe pop song,

I can almost hear the chorus, as animals run alarmed-

It's dark and it is haunting, lingering in the air,

And while some are fighting fires, others light the brittle flairs.

LA is burning,

I watch friends lose their homes- some strangers lose their photo albums, and their newborn baby's clothes.

My heart aches deeply, as with each disaster pings. I watch their children's art get sucked up by the violent flames.

LA is burning,

 But you sit and watch TV,

You shove pizza down your throat, and binge Reality. 

But reality is here, and we refuse to face, 

The havoc that it's wreaking, since it's not our own safe place. 

LA is really burning,

Our lesson never learned, so guess we'll have to sit back,  and watch another city burn. 

So grab your pop and popcorn, for this time it's not bombs, it's fires without water, and shitty church like Psalms.

Small Things

I'll embrace the universe gently waking me at 4am, so I can say "Good morning" to your pure soul. 

I'll gladly take the 6am video calls, with my room still dark, and my hair a mess - so I can feast my eyes on your beautiful face as you make me laugh before I even get out of bed.

As I fall back to sleep, I'll find comfort in the memories we've begun to make- and the excitement of the ones we've yet to create.

Since your voice has been resounding in my head, there hasn't been a day where I've lost my smile. It's like you meticulously and effortlessly ensure it's there- it comes naturally to you.

Can we dance in my kitchen to the sound of our own music - Will you show me, slowly, how our bodies can feed off of one another? Kiss me hard as I get caught up in the moment.

Let me make your coffee with love and intent, sprinkling bits of my heart on top for you to savor- explore the various flavors.

Allow me to pass by with simple touches, gracing my fingers along your spine as I playfully tease your mind. I want to linger in your thoughts as long as you'll let me. 

It's the small things, that get me-

I'll unravel at your feet in you let me.

Fiend

Breathing you in like Indica,

Swirling around my mind-

Leaving my body feeling the highest, of highs

Floating on these purple clouds,

Cloud Nine- far from coming down,

Coughing as you fill my lungs- with each gasp of pleasure I take

Never knew I could get this drunk,

On just one touch - 

Red lips, like red wine- smeared on both of us.

I'm on my knees, begging "Please"- let me just take a hit,

Your drug is the ultimate bliss.

I need more of it.

You see me raw, and down me like a shot of whiskey neat, when I say "No"

Yet, pop me like a bottle of champagne, when I say "Go"

Curb my cravings with a tease of absinthe and licorice, 

Just to bring me to the very edge of all of it-

I'd be willing to jump, just to feel the rush.

As Easy As Breathing

I am still drenched in the essence of you,

The essence of us.

From the moment we locked eyes, the world around me melted. 

Time froze as I took in your energy.

It came as easy as breathing.

It's like I stepped into your aura and was enveloped in the tastiest dream I've had yet.

The ease of the eb and flow had me speechless at first, but I soon found words overflowing in abundance.

You took my hand and ripped open my world in the most nurturing way- 

I blindly handed you my trust, trusting my soul's intuition entirely, for once. 

You took it gently, examined it, admired it, and played with it delicately.

I went from wanting you, to craving you with a simple kiss. 

Our time together, though short, was as intense as the beautiful summer monsoon. Fast, passionate, fierce and refreshing - quenching every corner of my soul that was longing for a taste of yours.

I feel like this rain, will breathe a new journey into our lives. The seeds are now watered, will you sit and watch them grow with me?

Devour me each moment your body, mind and soul long to- you have my full permission. Show the stars and the moon how you truly see them; in my flesh and in my eyes.

Let me get lost and cascade down your lips as you discover the deeper parts of me. Let me pull you close and grip those hips- Catch each gasp and moan that tumbles from my mouth, with yours.

Let me hold you and play with your hair until you fall asleep in my arms, because we both know I'm not one for drifting deep.

Who are you?

Where did you come from? 

Your energy is magical and mystical- 

Ancient and pure,

Powerful and gentle.

I see the absolute radiance of your soul, so fucking clearly, that I catch myself mesmerized... in pure awe.

The universe has placed you in my path, right here, right now- and I am listening. I am receiving.

I am welcoming this journey with a heart eager for exploration - 

Take my hand.

Word Vomit

 As I lay here treating a mild headache and sore throat, I can't help but have to get out the bullshit, before I write you something beautiful. 

You deserve all of the beautiful words that express all of my beautiful feelings, but there is a minor anxiety standing in the way. 

So let me oust it with some free write, and get back to the essence of you... the essence of us. 

Just don't do it... please. 

I know it's not my place, but I can see what could be and baby it is cosmic. 

Let's let go of our anchors and sail freely.

With love,

-Gabriella

Tangible

 She hasn't touched me,

She doesn't need to-

Her energy has caressed and held me in ways that gave my body chills.

It's one I can feel from the other side of the world,

Magnetic and comforting. 

Her words travel through time and space, cutting through distance with ease and grace.

How she puts a smile on my face, makes me long for a taste, even more.

Gently holding me, while commanding my attention- a balance that makes me weak in the knees.

I whisper "Yes, please" as I gaze up at the Milky Way. 

Minutes pass faster than expected, making days shorter.

Anticipation grows like wildflowers after a summer rain, beautifully reaching for the warmth of the sun.

Arms outstretched,  and ready for embrace.

But for now, I'll take the orgasms of the mind, which trickle down my body, a nearly tangible feeling. 

Nearly as tangible as You.