Round & Round

So I stare at the empty bottle in my medicine cabinet,
Questioning if I need more or not.
I've felt clear minded for a month or two now,
And have seen beauty in all lately.
Is it the drugs,
Or my realm of consciousness?

I dream of reality before it happens,
But when you ask me of my future I claim I do not know.
You scare me, but you love me-
Which makes it hard to show,
The real, true me.

I've distanced for fear of hurting you,
Letting you down, more than I have.
For fear of losing myself in you,
You should probably know that.

I drown myself in euphoria,
And inhale its heavy air.
Suffocating in my shadows,
But getting lost in my light.

Life is never fair.
But when the time is right,
There is no doubt in my mind.
That peace will be found, love will be bound,
The world doesn't stop,
She continues to go 'round.

Begging

So pull the bottle from your lips,
I know it can be hard.
Trust me.
First hand, I know it can be hard.

Your lips stained red,
To match your eyes
From drying tears, of yesterday.
I love you anyway.

Trust me in what I say,
I know it might be hard.
I'm young, and learning
But have experienced so much,
In this short, fragile, and fickle life.

I see you getting better,
Although miles tear apart.
Spare me your sob stories,
I've heard them all.
Just let me love you for who you are.

I see myself in you,
But somehow backwards,
It's as if we swapped places.
Somewhere lost in time,
Our souls jumped bodies.

I was meant to be strong,
I'm trying my best.
I swear.
So love me no matter what.

I beg this of you.
Like you've begged it of me .

Let's never give up on each other.
I'm begging...
Please.

Imagine Simplicity

Sometimes silence is golden
And distance breeds love.

Imagine for a moment if we all took five minutes from our day to just Be.
Be in our simplist form.

The world would be still,
Yet turning.
A beautiful sight, it would be.

The fall breeze would whisper as she spoke,
The sun's rays would kiss us in her lust.
It would Be Incredible.


Imagine if we didn't hang on to our pasts,
Didn't focus on our future,
And just live in the moment.
Life would be simple.
I'm learning this simplicity.

Moon's Shine

The clouds parted as I laid on my roof
Shorts and a hoodie,
Goosebumps forming on my bare legs.
A breeze swept up under my Hoodie and graced my breasts.

I looked into the sky, and the moon was nearly in full shadow,
A red hue blanketed her.

I heard laughter from below,
And smelled the aroma of marijuana from the teens watching the eclipse on the sidewalk beneath me.

I smirked.
I was alone, but surrounded by the universe
I felt loved and cared for in this moment.
The universe has showed me nothing but love and compassion.

Although the sky was dark,
It would soon be illuminated in beautiful form.
I couldn't explain the tingling feeling that took over my physical being.
I felt connected.
For hours.

To the Moon.
And her beauty and love.

I Will Wait

I'll wait until the last second,
To see what she brings-
The clouds cover the sight I yearn to see.

Roughly thirty eight minutes and the moon should be
bleeding red, closer than ever,
Giving a show to those that love her.

The clouds skew my view.
I will wait.

I will wait patiently,
As I do now in life-
No longer searching for answers,
but knowing they'll find me.

I close my eyes, my toes are cold from the fall weather.
I love the chills she gives me.

The sound of the night is still,
I beg the universe to let me see the Moon tonight.
I want to dance in her glory, her rouge light.

I don't want to have to wait eighteen years
They say, in eighteen years she will reappear in her form.
But if I must,
Then patience I will instill.
Because I love the moon,
and I know eventually she will reveal herself.


She will wear a little red dress,
and we will fall in love.
I will wait.

If I have to.

Foggy Enlightenment

Why is society so hellbent,
On marriages and babies-
On retirement, when we all die
Eventually?

To live in peace, love,
And Joy
Is all I can hope for...
...pray for


I have been finding reason
In my confusion,
Clarity in a realm of fog.

I'm OK,
I always have been,
I always will be.
We all are. We all are light,
We all have strength, and love, and willpower.

I can't mull over never ending
Questions,
I refuse to get stuck in a circle,
They have no end.

But then again maybe...
No end is what Eternity is.
What it means to be,
Enlightened

To truly understand.

Who are we?

I often find solace,
Peace,
In my sacred place.

Secret,
Yet in the eyes of the
Judgemental Public.

Who are you to judge me?
My fair skin, my radiant, purple hair.

Who are you to judge me?
Because I'm thin,
And appear to not care.

Who are you to judge me,
For being in love,
For loving life,
For loving the universe?

Who are you to judge me?

I write, and I read,
That's how I define myself.
Words, sung or bleeding on blank pages.


Who are you to judge me for
My words of truth?
My aching heart?
My caring soul?

Who are you to judge me for the faults
I've flaunted,
While so neatly sweeping them under a dusty old rug?

Who are you to judge me for the places I go?
The people I meet?
The things I see?

These are my eyes.
My soul.
My heart.

Who are you to judge me?

Who am I to judge you?
From a surface level?
From hear-say and from what I've seen
through my tainted eyes?
Who am I to judge you?
Your story?
Your lies?

Who are we to judge?
We should just love.
Let the universe subside.