On point.
Two words that can describe my intuition lately.
Dreams, visions, and feelings all have been surfacing,
With no fault, no doubt, and undeniable results.
I have always been intuitive,
Sometimes I just based it on luck,
But lately my eyes have been open to the light that has been shed on my abilities.
I am blessed with a gift, that too many take for granted.
I will use my gift to help others,
To better understand myself,
and to better serve those around me.
As my busy day comes to a close,
I close my eyes,
Focus on my breathing,
And pray to the universe for another dream,
As my dreams have been vivid,
I've been revisiting my past,
While peeking into my future.
My life is whole today.
Tomorrow is a new day,
A new Lesson.
I will welcome her with open arms,
and keep my heart, soul, and mind open.
Thursday, March 17, 2016
Wednesday, March 16, 2016
Lesson in Forgiveness
Two nights ago I dreamt deeply,
Of a "has been" friend,
Somebody that I had a beautiful bond with.
I think of her time to time,
I desire her friendship,
Her advice,
Her understanding,
Her love.
I was selfish,
As I seem to be faulted by,
And allowed myself to fall in love with her past.
I tried to explain,
To open her eyes,
But she distanced herself,
So far, but always "just a call away"
...until now.
It has been four years,
I've longed for her forgiveness and have not received it,
Despite her throwing out our friendship,
Despite her saying wicked things about my love,
I have forgiven her,
For her hatred, her ill will, and grudge against me.
Like her,
I search for understanding,
But I forgive those who do me wrong,
Like her,
I breathe in and hold my breath for a lighter day,
But I open my eyes...
I just wish she would see,
Life is too short,
Too precious,
To not be free,
Of hate,
Of distrust,
Of bitter taste.
Of a "has been" friend,
Somebody that I had a beautiful bond with.
I think of her time to time,
I desire her friendship,
Her advice,
Her understanding,
Her love.
I was selfish,
As I seem to be faulted by,
And allowed myself to fall in love with her past.
I tried to explain,
To open her eyes,
But she distanced herself,
So far, but always "just a call away"
...until now.
It has been four years,
I've longed for her forgiveness and have not received it,
Despite her throwing out our friendship,
Despite her saying wicked things about my love,
I have forgiven her,
For her hatred, her ill will, and grudge against me.
Like her,
I search for understanding,
But I forgive those who do me wrong,
Like her,
I breathe in and hold my breath for a lighter day,
But I open my eyes...
I just wish she would see,
Life is too short,
Too precious,
To not be free,
Of hate,
Of distrust,
Of bitter taste.
Tuesday, March 15, 2016
Lesson in Anger
Stealing the light away from me,
I question why I stay.
I wonder if I am being used- more times than not now-a-days.
Nearly four years ago I was on cloud nine.
I had never felt so loved, so wonderful, so attended to...
I had found somebody so honest with me,
That accepted me for my flaws-
But now...
Now I question.
Is this a nightmare?
Is it my diagnosed depression?
One would say it's the chemical imbalance.
One might claim, I am delirious...
But now I am in darkness.
I see a light,
It's in my soul.
I fear the unknown- my fault.
I learn a lesson on containing, recognizing, acknowledging and dealing with Anger.
One of my hardest lessons, to date.
Thoughts that are buried away in the depths of my dark soul,
Tucked away in a corner,
Are coming to life.
Death doesn't seem so bad.
Anger- Just breathe through it.
I question why I stay.
I wonder if I am being used- more times than not now-a-days.
Nearly four years ago I was on cloud nine.
I had never felt so loved, so wonderful, so attended to...
I had found somebody so honest with me,
That accepted me for my flaws-
But now...
Now I question.
Is this a nightmare?
Is it my diagnosed depression?
One would say it's the chemical imbalance.
One might claim, I am delirious...
But now I am in darkness.
I see a light,
It's in my soul.
I fear the unknown- my fault.
I learn a lesson on containing, recognizing, acknowledging and dealing with Anger.
One of my hardest lessons, to date.
Thoughts that are buried away in the depths of my dark soul,
Tucked away in a corner,
Are coming to life.
Death doesn't seem so bad.
Anger- Just breathe through it.
Monday, March 14, 2016
Trying
It has been a trying few days,
But I am trying to stay sane.
I lay on my back, palms facing up, skin pressing against a hard floor with a thin mat in between.
A strong energy comes to me,
Takes my hand,
Hold on tight,
Begging me to come play in Wonderland for all of eternity.
I exhale,
I smile,
I know that time is molded by our intentions,
Molded by our love, our souls, and our desires
I end my day with a prayer
"Om Shanti Shanti Shanti, Om Peace Peace Peace"
I bow my head so that my mind and heart are closer to one another.
As my night comes to a close,
I open my mind,
Open my heart,
Open my soul-
To a realm I've traveled, but am still curious about,
To a realm where alternate realities become innate in our being.
I welcome the universe with whispers of joy.
I am still trying.
But I am trying to stay sane.
I lay on my back, palms facing up, skin pressing against a hard floor with a thin mat in between.
A strong energy comes to me,
Takes my hand,
Hold on tight,
Begging me to come play in Wonderland for all of eternity.
I exhale,
I smile,
I know that time is molded by our intentions,
Molded by our love, our souls, and our desires
I end my day with a prayer
"Om Shanti Shanti Shanti, Om Peace Peace Peace"
I bow my head so that my mind and heart are closer to one another.
As my night comes to a close,
I open my mind,
Open my heart,
Open my soul-
To a realm I've traveled, but am still curious about,
To a realm where alternate realities become innate in our being.
I welcome the universe with whispers of joy.
I am still trying.
Sunday, March 13, 2016
Lesson of Patience
I pull away,
A premonition comes true,
My tire light goes on, I pull into a large empty lot.
A hissing sound is loud from the passenger side of my car.
I ran over a nail, my tire is quickly deflating, and I am broke.
The past three days have been trying,
A friend distancing herself because of a "lover's" wishes,
A family member or two avoiding my calls,
Or so it seems,
The person I am in love with acting as if I am calling at an inconvenient time,
And a nearly stranger trying to claim part of my future relating to a passion of mine, coaching.
Nothing has seemed to go right this week.
A while ago I would've been angry.
Angry at myself, angry with the universe, screaming to the skies asking what I've done to deserve this,
But today...
Today is different.
Today I hear a voice whisper "This is a lesson"
The universe is trying to give me a lesson on patience.
I smile through the frustration, realizing that it could be worse.
Maybe I ran over a nail and got a flat tire so that I would miss a potential accident,
Maybe my calls were ignored to teach me how to handle discouraging moments on my own.
Maybe my friend has been distant so I can learn to appreciate peace, solitude, and have time to self reflect.
Maybe my love has been selfish so that I reflect on my own selfish tendencies.
Tomorrow I will rise early,
It has been a while,
I will head to the shop to get a new tire, then head straight to a local school, where I will substitute and feed my passion.
I will read in a park,
Spill my guts to another,
And teach once more at night,
Finally capping my day with mediation and yoga.
Knowing this is a lesson of patience is a step in the right direction,
Awakening the flame in my soul.
Learning to understand and be calm.
I will persist.
I will learn from all of this.
A premonition comes true,
My tire light goes on, I pull into a large empty lot.
A hissing sound is loud from the passenger side of my car.
I ran over a nail, my tire is quickly deflating, and I am broke.
The past three days have been trying,
A friend distancing herself because of a "lover's" wishes,
A family member or two avoiding my calls,
Or so it seems,
The person I am in love with acting as if I am calling at an inconvenient time,
And a nearly stranger trying to claim part of my future relating to a passion of mine, coaching.
Nothing has seemed to go right this week.
A while ago I would've been angry.
Angry at myself, angry with the universe, screaming to the skies asking what I've done to deserve this,
But today...
Today is different.
Today I hear a voice whisper "This is a lesson"
The universe is trying to give me a lesson on patience.
I smile through the frustration, realizing that it could be worse.
Maybe I ran over a nail and got a flat tire so that I would miss a potential accident,
Maybe my calls were ignored to teach me how to handle discouraging moments on my own.
Maybe my friend has been distant so I can learn to appreciate peace, solitude, and have time to self reflect.
Maybe my love has been selfish so that I reflect on my own selfish tendencies.
Tomorrow I will rise early,
It has been a while,
I will head to the shop to get a new tire, then head straight to a local school, where I will substitute and feed my passion.
I will read in a park,
Spill my guts to another,
And teach once more at night,
Finally capping my day with mediation and yoga.
Knowing this is a lesson of patience is a step in the right direction,
Awakening the flame in my soul.
Learning to understand and be calm.
I will persist.
I will learn from all of this.
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