Pain

Highs and lows overtook my soul.
This pit in my stomach grew stronger as I pulled her close.
I did not want to admit that this hurt,
Worse than most goodbyes we've shared.

I searched and dug for an answer as to 'why'
But all I could focus on was the warmth of her body against mine,
and the words that she whispered,
"I love you."

Depression swept over me for the nearly twenty four hours since our separation.
Her voice ringing through my phone eased the pain.

I couldn't really make out what would become of our future,
Of my future...
Of anything that awaits...
But then slowly I am reminded to live in the Now.

So I focus on my breathing,
To control the anxieties that have controlled me.